it's good but it's not the one

Kaka for City, really?

2009-01-16T08:11:00.003Z

O my goodness. I can't tell you the excitement this news story has filled me with. Kaka, who's won pretty much everything football has to offer, both individually and with Milan, looks like he might just be on the brink of a staggering £107 million pound move to Manchester City, currently 15th in the Barclays Premier League. The wages offer is a reported £500,000 per week. Vast sums of money.

Not vast enough though, for me to become one of these raving lunatics who goes into a rant about the money involved. What's the difference between £100 million for Kaka and £47 million for Zinedine Zidane? Or £30 million for Juan Seba Veron? Or £20 million for Robbie Keane? Or £15 million for Alan Shearer back in the day? Rubbish. As soon as you get into the multi millions you're already in the bracket of "more-than-I'll-earn-in-a-lifetime", what's the difference?

Also it's not like this guy is spending beyond his means, £100 million for Kaka is like me giving you a tenner for a ham sandwich - it's slightly overpriced, but it's not gonna break the bank. Besides, there aren't many ham sandwiches in the world that are better than this one.

Finally, saw a great comment on a football website I like to browse:

"...so if Kaka belongs to Jesus, does this mean we're going to have another Carlos Tevez affair, with third party owners involved?..."

Brilliant.

Happy New Year

2008-12-31T14:28:00.005Z

Have a great night folks, lots of you will have parties planned and friends to see, I hope you have a great evening.

This picture is a bit random, but I typed "party" into google images and this was the first result! I think it's quite cool.

There are lots of you who I have long intended to catch up with, and just haven't done it yet, I'm sorry, and I will be in touch soon.

New year's resolutions? I don't have any, much as Finlay tried to force me into making some when we were out for coffee last night. Maybe I will make some, but just don't fancy it right now. It probably is good for us mind, making promises to ourselves, to God, or to others and then fulfilling them surely bound to be good for our discipline or something. But it goes back to the easy to say, hard to fulfil thing from yesterday, I may know it's good, but will I do it? It's the fear of letting yourself down that can put us off.

God help me this new year, to live for you, naturally. To do what you would do, without thinking about it.

I'm all talk sometimes, this is a chance to do it.

It's Dark Outside

2008-12-30T16:16:00.002Z

So the evenings are getting longer again, work is oh so quiet, with everyone else being off, and I'm enjoying things at the moment. I truly have nothing to complain about, Christmas has been lovely, and I'm going to get to see some more of my friends and family over the next week or so. It's great.

Liverpool are riding high on top of the league, three points clear and if Liverpool finish this season as strongly as they did last, then we will win the league.

And what a year I've had.

I'm a graduate having finished my maths degree, I've spent a little time on the dole, I've now got a full-time, "proper" job, and I'm married to the love of my life. I have an awful habit though, of procrastinating. I have stuff that's needed done since october, just stuff that I don't see the urgency in, but I should just bloody do it, and stuff round the house, I just tend to leave it till another time. Sort it out. Right ok, I'm gonna do some stuff I've been putting off when I go home. Today.

It takes a lot to change character. For the better at least. Stuff like this I can see it should be fixed, but implementing that is alot harder than talking about implementing it. What makes us do stuff? Like live in a certain way even though we know there's a better way? I believe I should not procrastinate, yet I do it. And it's not that I ALWAYS do what I think I shouldn't, for instance, I know I should eat when I'm hungry, so I do. No problem with that whatsoever. what is emotion, is that what drives some of our actions? Eating feels good so I'll do it. Getting the box for the Christmas tree out of the attic feels labourious, so I'll not do it?

What is that?

Oh I don't know. I've talked some nonsense in this entry, I know, forgive me, I'll be inspired next time around.
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A turbulent month to round off a year of change...

2008-12-29T10:45:00.003Z

I haven't blogged in a while. It's been hard you see, to write anything that doesn't look insignificant or petty compared to what's gone on in December. Many of you will will know that Lynne McGeehan passed away on Thursday 11th December, aged just 25 (you can see an article on her passing here.) Lynne was a cousin of my lovely wife Carla, so I was witness, at close proximity, to the unimaginable grief felt by the family, though what I saw was only a glimpse, the real grief will be felt every time the family are together, and there is an empty seat at the table. Lynne is survived by her mum, dad and 2 sisters, and all I could think of when I was with them was the injustice of it all. "This isn't fair," is all I could think, no words can comfort a family who have lost someone so dear. It puts a real perspective on things. It shows us just how fragile life is, Lynne remember was not sick, she didn't have any terminal illness, she went to bed one night, and God called her home. And it is so painful for those left behind.

Maybe we can learn from this. Maybe we should take stock of our relationships, do our families know that we love them? Do we take them for granted? We just don't know when we'll find ourselves asking just the same questions the McGeehans have been asking the past couple of weeks.

And then life just gets in the way. I use the word "life" loosely, what it is is not truly life. I call work to say I'm off on the monday for the funeral, and the end of the week my manager is asking me questions like "so, you were off on monday, do you have any leave left for this year or are you taking it unpaid?" What?! I don't care! There's more to life than bloody timesheets! I've spent the weekend with a family grieving the loss of a young girl, and all you care about is which budget the day is going to come out of? That said my manager has been very good with my early departures on the previous thursday and friday, and she is only doing her job, it's not her fault at all, but man, there must be more than this?

So that's pretty much dominated our minds this Christmas, we had our "first Christmas together" which was nice, but mainly it's been a real time of sorting our priorities, focusing on what it is that we feel is important. So we hope to spend more time with our friends and family the next wee while, we can so easily be sidetracked into thinking work is somehow what life is about.

I had planned to go from here and talk about the rest of our year, in a kind of annual review way, but I really am struggling to figure out how some of the other stuff is important in light of Lynne's passing. I'll come back to this...
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Work

2008-12-08T13:54:00.006Z

Man. The working life is tough. I mean, not tough as in persecuted christians in the far east, or famine struck countries in central africa. I just mean tough relatively speaking. Today is Monday. I feel tired, work's pretty slow, I haven't even any excuse for feeling this way (this does not however mean that these feelings are insignificant.)

I get the bus home. It usually takes 45 minutes. And it really is depressing. And I usually feel nauseous by the time I'm home, then I'll sit down for a while with a drink of water. Then I'll think about tea, except usually my wonderful wife has thought about it long ago, and has it underway. Then it's 8pm, I'll need to go to bed in a couple of hours. Let's watch TV.

What a crappy existence. I need some of this "life to the full", cos I really ain't feeling it right now.

And I hate this thing that is slowly seeping into my life, that says the weekend is going to be OK. And living for the pay packet, it's just the rat race, and I'm getting sucked in.

Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy my weekends, but enduring the week so I can enjoy my weekends isn't exactly life to the full, is it? And does my enjoyment even come into it?! Does God care that work-life is dragging at the moment. I need to live for him. Each and every moment.

I've got a cousin called John, who's in the states right now (check his blog). His attitude to jogging was just great:

I have always found running to be kinda boring especially just running
around and around a track but iv [sic] decided that in order to teach myself
discipline and all that type of thing that i should stick at this thing. Iv found that while im running my mind can be cleared and so iv had some really
good times of prayer and fellowship with God. By making the run a spiritual
thing it becomes so much more beneficial and enjoyable.

What a guy. I need that. It's real, intentional, I'm gonna make this day about God attitude. This is what is not only going to make the day more enjoyable for me, but more beneficial to others. I really think my benefit is completely secondary to the needs of everyone else, and serving God through love of people. God's got a salvation plan for mankind, to hell with how I feel about life!

That's got me thinking anyway, and already I feel like I've been dragged out of that pit of self-pity/self-doubt I was in. Thank God.

Back in the game

2008-12-03T11:03:00.002Z

Blogging game that is. It's been a while, I know, and I'm not gonna promise to do this like every day for the next 20 years, cos it just ain't happenin'.

Update on life:

Working in LIT, an IT firm in Belfast town centre.
Married for nearly 2 months, to Carla, who is just wonderful.
Live on the King's road in East Belfast, which is wonderful, nice area, if you're thinking of moving, come to the east, it's a real place where real people live, with their families! (Unlike the Lisburn road for instance, where pretend people live...only joking I used to live there with great people, some of whom have in fact moved to east Belfast too, making them real people again.)

So that's you all up to date.

That'll do for now. I may blog again today, unless I get busy at work.

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Football

2008-09-07T00:03:00.003+01:00

Flip me the champions league is great. Just watchin the Champions League Weekly magazine show on Sky Sports, I cannot wait till it kicks off for proper.

Now. The Berbatov transfer. I was so cross. United make me cross. They are rule breaking, drugs cheating, vomit inducing pricks. They agree an illegal transfer with a player without asking permission from his rightful club, and then bribe the club not to take up their complaint against united. How is that ok??? In terms of the premier league rules, there is something awry there. The victim club has to raise a complaint against the offending club in order for the governing bod to step in and punish said offending club?! Also, this offending club is the very one who complained about the threat of another club doing the same to them! In my book that is the equivalent of a person going to the police having received a death threat in late June, then later in the summer going out and shooting someone. And not only that, but the authorities cannot act unless said murder victim lodges a written complaint!!!

The Man City story brought a welcome side story to the day.
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So this is like 18 months late

2008-08-29T23:54:00.002+01:00

Richard Dawkins. Believers enemy number one. He believes that there is no God. No God at all. He feels about Yahweh how we feel about Thor. A non-issue, he believes he just ain't there. And he's written a very interesting book called The God Delusion in which he states that religion is not only a delusion but a destructively powerful one which has a negative impact on the world. So therefore we should hate him completely and reject his claims outright...or should we?

I believe (having not finished The God Delusion) that every believer should be made to read it, and made to consider Dawkins' very powerful arguments about why he believes God does not exist. I don't know about you, but for me, I was brought up in a great christian family, with parents who wanted to teach me well, but I grew up I think, adopting their pretty skeptical attitudes towards scientists, their advances and discoveries, and science in general. We tend sometimes, to try and figure out which bits of scientific theory we should reject, which is quite a task for your everyday person like me. I have since learned and changed a lot. I believe my skepticism was irrational. What have we to fear from science? If we believe in God, that He is an objective reality, then nothing science ever discovers can contradict this, moreover, if we believe in the creator God of the bible, then what science discovers is precisely that which was made by God. So therefore we should rejoice in scientists and the work they do in unraveling just a tiny part of what the hand of the father has created. Yes. Brilliant. Science is OK.

(Obviously there are scientific issues that have biblical complications, including work on human embryos, some genetic work, and stem cell work, but I refer here, only to the traditional "discoveries" of science - the history of the earth, the expanding edges of the universe (red shift, microwave background), the theory of evolution.)

So now that we can take a step back from it all, we no longer have to ask ourselves which bits of science we will reject, and can now ask ourselves how what science has discovered fits with our chrisitan faith. And when the two seem quite far seperated we have to take a deep breath and say, "God, we're only discovering what you have created."

I don't really know where this goes from here. On one hand I want to talk about the intricacies of integrating science into my relationship with God, on the other I think it's of utmost importance to deal with the issue of ill-considered rejection of science.

Probably the best example of the issue we face is the theory of evolution. Some parts of evolution are unavoidable. Natural selection for instance, best adapted breed survives longer/better, reproduces more, crowding out other less well adapted breeds, leading to possible extinction. This stuff is completely logical and follows reason, and whilst it's bigger-picture impact is not completely unquestionable, to reject this process is madness. Yet some of us do it. Skepticism is good, and it's good to make up your own mind on things once they have been considered, and we are very good (and sometimes too good, as I've said) at applying this skepticism to science, but we are reluctant to be skeptical when it comes to church, and religion.

We are prepared to accept anything that someone says from the pulpit at face value. Why? Let's not be afraid. God exists. If anything be scrutinised and found wanting, then let it fall by the wayside, if it's not truth it's not truth. I recently heard a minister doing a presentation, he started with "Why should we believe the bible?" And then proceeded to quote 4 passages of scripture to answer the question. What? You're expecting someone to believe the bible because of what the bible says about itself? Poor reasoning. Now, I believe the bible, but ot because of what the bible says of itself, but because it concurs with other historical record of the time and I find it more difficult to believe that these stories were made up, and that all these people were wrong rather than right.

That's also poor reasoning, I need to put more thought into that, but I hope you see my point.
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Back in the game

2008-08-29T23:33:00.002+01:00

Like a previously incorrect Catchphrase contestant, I am back in the game. My last blog came in the wake of Liverpool's loss to Barnsley in the cup. Quite some time ago indeed. So please, lend me your ears, get involved, let me hear your thoughts. Sorry for my inconsistency. My thesis kind of took over for a bit, then factor in thesis and exam recovery of approximately 3 months and we get to roughly here. Stuff has moved forward very fast, so let me fill you in a wee bit.

Since exams and thesis stuff in May I did a lot of jobhunting, interviews, applications, telephone interviews, assessment days, aptitude tests...thank God he has set me up with a job. Possibly the weirdest interview I've ever had ("why are manhole covers round?") and I was half an hour late for the aptitude test, but I'm delighted to be starting work on Monday week. So in the meantime I did try to look for some temporary work but nothing doing, so just LOTS of wedding planning then.

I have been seriously out of the game for a while. The online game that is. Bebo hasn't been happening at all, and I've missed the Facebook revoltuion, so I want to return here to post my musings. Please interact.

So that's that. Stay tuned.
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He's still the man

2008-02-19T11:11:00.003Z

Just a quickie.

Benitez is still the man. He's still a top rate manager. He's still relatively new to the league.

He's still the man.

We lost to barnsley.

12 Shots on target
11 Shots off target
8 Blocked shots
15 Corners
1 Offside
58% Possession

How can anyone say this result was Benitez fault? He set the team up well, picked a team that should have comfortably beaten barnsley, they dominated the game in all but the goals. There's just no explanation sometimes. This is certainly not an opportunity to blame Benitez. You have to look at the players in a game like this. We had to take our chances. We didn't. We lost. Freak results like this just happen. The explanation is certainly not manager related.
End of story.
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HOME

2008-02-12T12:47:00.000Z

Home. Honey I'm home. Isn't it time we were going home? Are you going home this weekend? Are you going home after class? Driving home for Christmas. Make a house a home. Home is where the heart is.

Home is where the heart is.

What the feck does that mean? Really, what does it mean? My heart beats regularly, pumping blood around my body. It's complicated, I don't know much about it except that if I don't treat it well, someday it'll just give up and I'll die. Where is it? This seems to be the key question in my investigation into what or where a home is. Well, truthfully it's located somewhere roughly in the upper half of my body, surrounded by my sternum, my ribs and a whole bunch of other stuff down there. Not much good in my search of the notion of home.

What is home? It's not where the heart is anyway. Unless of course we're talking about the romantic notion of a heart. The notion that your heart can be given away, broken, warmed, cold, loving... Not your physical heart, but a romantic notional heart. I think we're onto something.

I guess I've started this because I feel a little "homeless" at the moment. It's the weird period of transition when you go to uni in Belfast, go home most weekends, and end up not really feeling "at home" in either place. I also reckon I'm just ready to be done with this time of life. I'm not a wanderer. I'm not meant to be homeless. I love the feeling of contentment, and I'm just struggling at the moment with the "unsettlement" I'm going through at the moment. But I guess maybe it's all pointing towards October when I start a new chapter in my life, and I form a new home with my new wife. But then, are we supposed to be settled?

Jesus never settled. He never had a house, and certainly during his "ministry years" he didn't spend a significant time with his family, or "at home". Is that supposed to be the way of it? Is the idea of being settled, with family, in familiar surroundings maybe the product of our cushy westernised church society? Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I have this sorted. I want to be settled and content with a family and a home just as much as the next person. But what I'm suggesting is that maybe this desire is misplaced.

Discontentment is constructive. Frustrations birth vision out of which futures are shaped.

The home is not the pinnacle. Maybe the pinnacle in life is discovered in the abyss of unbelonging. Please God let me find a pinnacle in my wanderings at the moment.

What's home?
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We're playing WHERE this weekend?!

2008-02-11T11:55:00.000Z

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHA...

that's my (slightly understated) reaction to the "39th game" crap.
that is all.
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Generally annoyed with the soccer world.

2008-02-09T11:26:00.000Z

and football365 in particular. The amount of anti-Liverpool bias in the media at the moment is simply unbelievable. Mind you, it's not just at the moment is it? We've been getting rotation in the neck all season, and last season too. Anyone who believes in "Rafa's rotation policy" I urge you to please read this article. So, yes, Rafa's excessive rotation is a myth, but then, who let's a few facts and figures get in the way of sensationalist reporting?!

Now, if we're not getting bashed on the head with rotation then it's Rafa's spending. Since he took over Rafa has spent £132,796,000. Almost £133m since he took over, on 46 players. You'd think that should be enough spending to buy the league. That's in the Chelsea realm of spending (except it's not, but let's just pretend so this newspaper sells better). Let's just look a little closer. Now, Benitez has bought his fair share of turkeys, but who hasn't? (Except Arsene Wenger apparently, a quick glance at his spending 2-3 years ago reads pretty much like today's team sheet). But of those turkeys, there really aren't very many who Benitez has lost money on. Notably recently Sissoko was sold for £8.2m at a profit of £2.6m. Thank you very much Juventus. Benitez first purchase at Liverpool was Josemi. £2m. Rubbish. He was exchange for Jan Kromkamp. Rubbish. He was sold for £1.5m, that money went towards buying Daniel Agger who is awesome. I'm not saying Benitez doesn't get it wrong sometimes with players, but rarely rarely rarely does he waste money.

We've made money on Sissoko, Bellamy, Antonio Nunez (who remembers him? Think Carling cup final v chelsea), Gonzalez, Barragan. And that's only those who have been both bought and sold by Benitez. He also raised funds selling the likes of Baros, Cisse, Owen, Diouf, Cheyrou, Traore, Kirkland, Pongolle, Mellor etc.

What's the bottom line?

£133m spent. £71.6m made.

Net Spending: £62m

Two Shevchenko's. One Juan Seba Veron and one Rio Ferdinand.

So don't give me that crap. I'm done hearing about it. Don't tell me our squad overhaul hasn't been good, we're in a much better position now than when Benitez took over. Young talented squad. Benitez deserves another 3 years. At least.
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Wedding Blog!!!

2008-01-30T00:45:00.000Z

Check out my wedding blog, linked on the right. I'm gonna try to keep it as informed and as frank as possible. It's good for me to write this all down, I'll have forgotten everything by Christmas...
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That's karma, K-A-R-M-A.

2008-01-29T17:31:00.000Z

So far in the FA Cup, Man United have been drawn against Aston Villa, Tottenham Hotspur and now Arsenal.

You have no idea how much of a smile I have worn on seeing every draw so far. Karma indeed. Makes a change from united being given a bye into the final every year. Does this really mean that the FA Cup draw ISN'T fixed, maybe, or maybe they just fixed it wrong this year.

United are still in the cup. I haven't checked but I'm fairly confident they are favourites to win it. If they do, it'll be the hard way.

But I really really hope they don't. I think we might just nick it against Barnsley.
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Havant and Waterlooville

2008-01-28T17:28:00.001Z

Let me clear this up.

Havant played particularly well on saturday afternoon. This is not to say Liverpool played terribly badly. They played well.

Now the Liverpool line up as well. Only Steve Finnan and Mascherano can be remotely considered first team regulars, with a possible argument to be made for Yossi Benayoun. Other than that a complete set of reserve team players. Our keeper was poor. Idtanje is not a top class keeper, a long way short of what Liverpool ever expect of a goalkeeper, certainly from what I've seen of him, but if Reina stays injury free, there's no reason for Idtanje to be required for the next 8 years. Our defence. It was Skrtel's first appearance for Liverpool, and he made a couple of mistakes in the first half, but he made a great recovering tackle in the second. I'm sure he'll be a great player, but it's easier for a debutant in any other position outside centre half, so far from being a disaster I think he shows promise. Sami is done. Completely and utterly. He was absolutely at fault for H&W's first goal, seeming to lapse out of zonal marking and preferring to mark the man, missing the ball, leaving a free header.
It was an experimental lineup for Liverpool. Because they could afford to. Lucas is one of the most promising talents in the league, and I am positive his reputation will grow and grow as he more and more becomes an influential figure in the Liverpool team. Ryan Babel was given a bit more free rein to go where he liked and use his pace, power and skill to change the game. He too will become an imposing figure for Liverpool, he's got the works, pace, strength, a fearsome strike, and he has shown glimpses of his deft skill. Ronaldoesque without being as near the finished article as the Portugese winker.Now I am not one to make excuses. Havant played well in the first half, they had a number of chances to make it 2-0 and 3-1. but the tie was never in doubt. The fitness of the premier league players was always going to tell in the end. Liverpool did win comfortably in the end. 5-2 is comprehensive no matter what way you dress it up. So next time you are talking to a Liverpool fan, if this weekend's cup game comes up, don't mention it with those raised eyebrows that everyones gives. They didn't come close to winning the match. Give the credit to Havant and Waterlooville. They played the game of their lives and they scored 2 goals in front of the kop. Well done to them. Don't do them the disservice by saying Liverpool were terrible. Liverpool won 5-2. Well done Havant for grabbing 2 goals.
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Exams

2008-01-21T16:22:00.000Z

So I sat my exam on Friday. Terrible. It went really badly. Possibly the worst exam I've ever done, and trust me, it beats off stiff competition. It was just really hard stuff. I guess in an ideal world I would have worked harder through the term, handed in all my non-mandatory homeworks, attended every lecture and every tutorial, and brought any queries to my lecturer, but let's get real. But I worked for that exam. I worked my ass off. Days on end locked away in my room revising, going over homeworks, doing past papers, I did know it was going to be hard, but another day another paper and it could've been so much different. I don't know. Dare I bring God into this?

I prayed hard, and I know there were others who prayed for me in that exam. Yet it was a disaster. Is it because God's got a greater plan? It's still annoying. Is it just because that was His plan, it was always gonna be tough no matter what? Or is it a lot more practical than that. Work harder, attend more, try more and it'll go better. Does prayer make a difference?

This has been going round in my head for some time now. Not, is there any point in prayer, but does it change the course of history? There is point in prayer. No doubt about it. Develops your relationship with God, puts God in His rightful place as personal King, I am merely man, but You are God, the creator of everything. As we consider others prayerfully, our heart for them is expanded, and we grow in love for them day to day.

Does prayer change the course of history? I guess it comes back to where we stand on God's plan. Does He have a one dimensional plan, where the choice we make is the choice He has already made for us? I tend to think not. I believe He made us beings with choice. Real choice, not just the choice between God and something else, but just choice. Choice with different outcomes and different implications, without either being a better choice than another. Just a choice. But God is sovereign, He is in control. I have not yet satisfied myself with how these two things coexist. But they do, somehow. So does prayer change the course of history? Yes. When we discipline ourselves to pray regularly, we more regularly acknowledge God as King. This will tend to lead us to having more of a God perspective on everything in life. We will see more as God sees and act more a God would have us. This changes history. Pray.
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Football Today...

2008-01-16T17:42:00.000Z

I actually can't believe Mike Ashley has given the job to Kevin Keegan. This is hilarious. Unless you're a newcastle fan of course (they thought they could get Jose!), except for some reason they all seem to be delighted at Keegan's signing. He's nuts! Well maybe i'm a bit harsh, things can only get better for nufc, but seriously, kevin keegan?

I thought it was going to be Houllier. He would have been a good man for them. Do for them what he did for Liverpool when he took over, not a title winner but a solid improver. Well it does bring back a man with real character to the league, lively, honest, not unlike Jose Mourinho.

Except he's very unlike Jose Mourinho. Keegan managed to throw away a 12 point lead in the league, newcastle played flowing football, ginola, beardsley, shearer, asprilla. Lots of passion, no tactics. You see the big difference between Mourinho and Keegan is that Jose could tell the difference between training, tactics and football, and the rest of his life. Keegan's half times are exactly the way he is the rest of the time, Jose had an air of mystery. He was thinker. Keegan clearly isn't.

Well at least today took the spotlight off liverpool, and the two pricks that run our club.

Rafa Benitez, you are my hero.
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Blog off dave...

2008-01-15T19:03:00.000Z

Hey, first post, find myself ironically lost for words. Just want somewhere to post my thoughts, it's a change from bebo (http://www.bebo.com/davemiller86), is it as accessible? I guess time will tell. But I will post my ramblings on here, I want this blog to entertain, enthuse, anger, irritate and infuriate you. Anything but go unnoticed.

So when I throw out a few things, comment, discuss and subscribe. Stay tuned.

For now let me talk a bit about myself and where I am right now. I'm confused about stuff, and I have other stuff sorted (though the stuff I think I have sorted tends to be eroded). I'm in a place of great searching at the moment in life. I love God. I love the scriptures. But these are always easier said than done. And they are infinitely difficult to define.

I can be quite controversial, those close to me will know that I can often get under their skin, constant questioning, challenging and nagging. Not for the sake of annoyance of course, more for the sake of solid foundations. This life we live is one great journey, there are no laps, once round and that's it, whatever we find out on our way is critical, let's explore. Explore life, explore God. Everything here is made by Him. So when we come alongside each other and get interested in each others lives, it's a stepping stone to ultimately knowing God better.

Key question: why are we here?
Science? Well from what I can tell science has great answers for how we got here (whether we are creationists, evolutions, big bang theorists, or some combination of these), but these things do not explain the why, only the how.
I'm not gonna take this question any further right now (perhaps an illustration of my scattered mind at the moment), but think on it. Is God the only possible explanation for the why? If it is, then what are the specifics? Was He just lonely? Does He have a greater purpose?

So apart from that. Marriage, finals and job interviews are preoccupying my mind at the moment.

Back to work...