Mistress Zaynab

busy busy buzz

2009-11-18T21:09:00.000-06:00

It has been quite the busy week so far.

First, Miss Panic's Birthday party was a wild fun trip! Lots of welted pink butts, trampling (7 ladies at once atop one fine gentleman), foot worship, some dolled up sissies, and even some plastic wrapped bodies lying about, upon which My fellow Priestesses "operated." Oh and cake too! And Miss Panic was dressed in almost nothing at all, flowers in Her hair, and flashing her super hot figure all over the place! I love Our play parties! They are becoming more and more exploratory. A big smile spreads across My face as I walk from room to room and witness the enthusiasm! I facilitated all of this! It is a point of real satisfaction and pride.

I've finally been able to get some repairs done on Holy Mountain. I sent photos to the management company of what I wanted done. A suppose a picture is worth a thousand words, because in a rare response, they actually got right on it! It's not been pretty though. Bricks being washed, windows being repaired... the place has been a mess. My slave and I were able to get it into shape again, though.

In general the atmosphere around Me has been delightful. I made a mental turn and firmly decided that I am going to lead us all into waking bliss. We're now welcoming an important new member of our family! It happened so organically that I found it surprisingly sweet. But that's how things always seem to work out in this world. The Ladies of HM adored him already, and now he's expressed a serious interest in getting involved in the business end of the fun. I couldn't be more pleased. With a new influx of resources, My temple is going to be MUCH more visible in 2010.

On top of that I've been so proud of My stable lately! I truly would never be able to get by without My slaves! footpuppy has been an absolute lifesaver, committed beyond all expectations! There would be no HM without him. Rewards will abound! And even My prospective new collared slave, loris, is giving Me his consistent obedience, and making good progress toward our goal of My ownership of him. My dolphin has been at My beck and call, and put his best effort into new house slave duties! His availability has paid off in that the Women tend to like to present their feet to be pampered and worshiped (which I know he enjoys immensely). Tomorrow My big bear of a slave comes by to kneel before Me. There's something very satisfying about Dominating someone so much bigger than One's self, and being able to do whatever One wants with him! And froggy is My buddy! He belongs to Mistress Lucinda, but has become an official Holy Mountain devotee - a real joy to have around, modeling for lots of photos. I just want to pat you all on the heads and tell you how proud I am to be your Mistress! There are a couple of Mine who haven't been around much lately. Come out come out wherever you are! Maybe it's because I have not yet given you your animal names. Maybe I need to do so...

Speaking of Domming big men - I had the unique opportunity to Dominate a big intimidating Dom about a year ago. It was a real thrill. His towering strong body bent to My will and took the strikes of My cane with such pleasure and grace! I loved the look of his dark skin marked with even darker stripes, hot and swelling. Seeing him Dominate others months later, I was so pleased to know he had allowed himself to take what I could give. It was a real self-confidence booster, to be honest. Like riding atop very large proud stallion.

Alright, enough for now... I'm off on Friday for a little weekend road trip through Wisconsin. I could use some gas money, if anyone cares to contribute to My little get-away. I love to leave the city once in a while and see the wonder of trees. You can paypal Me any amount at Mistress@MistressZaynab.com.

I look forward to playing again when I return.

Dream of Me, My pets,
xo,
MZ

immediate issues

2009-10-30T12:54:00.001-05:00

I have been taking photos of all the problems here at My play space. Two leaky windows and efflorescence on the bricks whenever it rains... The management is quite bad, and I am considering moving. They just raised the rent again. Though the view from up here and the location are amazing. It's a tough call. I am just so tired of incompetence.

If anyone knows of a (nice) space where we can make noise once in a while without disturbing neighbors, and has central air, a washer and dryer, and a full kitchen, or if you own such a space and are willing to rent it, please let Me know. It needs to be less than $1600 per month if at all possible. I'm a good tenant and always pay the rent on time. OR if you want Us all (the Priestesses) to set up a play space in your own home and rent it to Us or exchange sessions... that too could work with the right person... Just brainstorming...
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I also need a dentist. I need several fillings replaced. I am willing to trade sessions, and I also have dental insurance to cover some of it.

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Aside from these issues I've been waking up feeling quite well, in a great mood, despite a little bit of the sniffles. I am fighting a cold and I WILL win. My creativity seems to be stirring. After these sniffles go away I want to have some fun! Make an appointment with Me for next week. I just made some minor adjustments to my sessions page to fit my current moods.

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OH, and I do have a submissive female available if anyone would like personailzed instruction on how to Top a girl, or would like to stage a competition to see who is the most submissive or can endure something the longest (it is said that Women have a higher threshold of pain). I will send you a photo if you are interested. She is an adorable young lady with the greatest bum, and a wicked imagination. Smarter than you, too. Find out what it takes to get her into sub space...

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What else? I recently tried a swaddling session combined with sound therapy and foot gagging. Total regression. It was quite enjoyable and the slave emerged so affected that he continued to hallucinate for a bit. Oh how I love altering states of consciousness. The unconscious/subconscious mind is a doorway to the super-consciousness - which is a state that can profoundly improve your entire existence when experienced fully. Altered consciousness adventures (drug free) are My specialty. I try to invent the program to fit the sub. Everyone's mind is different and requires different stimulus to get to the right place.

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By the way if you came to my birthday party and want pictures, please e-mail Me (I won't publish them without consent, of course). I have a few of those who consented to be photographed, including the wall of butts! Gotta love a wall of naked bright pink butts!

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What else? I added some membership options to Holy Mountain. Become My devotee: Click for details.

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And finally, those looking for long distance training - especially through mp3s, written instructions, and photo exchange - contact Me NOW to become a long distance devotee. I can create a specialized program of great depth, and have worked with several people in this way.

As always, I am best reached via E-MAIL at Mistress@MistressZaynab.com

MZ

Thank you!

2009-10-25T17:48:00.002-05:00

Thank you all for a fabulous birthday party!!!

MZ

party!

2009-10-23T22:05:00.000-05:00

See all you animals at My party!

preferred contact instructions

2009-10-23T15:45:00.000-05:00

So, in case I did not make the case in the past:

1.) E-mail is Mistress's favorite contact method (that should be enough for most of you, yes?)
2.) Mistress doesn't like to answer the phone much, and will go whole weeks without doing so. I'm just not the chatty type, and I get bored with the wankers (who always prefer to talk on the phone). I am an assertive introvert.
3.) Anyone can get a gmail account under an assumed name
4.) No one is going to care if you pop into Kinkos or other public business center or public library to check your e-mail for ten or fifteen minutes, then erase the history on the browser. I mean, come on, you're reading my blog right now. How do you get rid of that? Just do the same thing for the gmail page.
5.) Unless your boss or wife is in the FBI or CIA, they won't bother to go into the Kinkos and retreive the erased data, which takes special skill.
6.) Paranoia is no excuse for disobedience.
7.) If you are not willing to give me the few extra minutes to follow the above steps, I don't feel like giving you My valuable time either.
8.) The only REAL reason you would insist on a phone call over e-mail is because you are a wanker. Give Me your number if you want to hear My voice, and leave that up to Me.
9.) It's true, I only communicate on My own terms. I do not see this as a fault.
10.) If you are illiterate or can't type and think at the same time, I really have no interest in you.

Got it? E-mail Me if you are serious about seeing Me or would like to serve in some way, or even if you just have a question. Period. There is no acceptable excuse in the world to do otherwise.

[No one else uses my computer. I don't engage in illegal activity, so the likelihood of my computer landing in the hands of any type of scary authority is slimmer than the corpse of someone who died of starvation. Plus, I securely erase old e-mails to make room for new ones. It is not my "thing" to blackmail people unless I have specificaly arranged to do so as a fetish. I respect kinksters' and perverts' privacy. I believe in karma.]

Thank you for paying attention.

ALSO:

COME TO MY BIRTHDAY PARTY TOMORROW AT 7PM. I HAVE ROOM FOR 4-5 MORE GUESTS! RSVP before midnight.

MZ

busy day

2009-10-20T15:29:00.000-05:00

Busy today, first training a new daytime houseboy at HM, whom We affectionately refer to as "dolphin." This one seems to be working out just fine. But if you are applying for a houseboy, position, don't fret. I still have use for one more, as dolphin is not available at ALL the times that I require assistance.

Mistress Yani and Mistress Lucinda are in the bathroom putting on make-up in preparation for what looks like an amazing video shoot as Our peeon crouches naked on the floor waiting for his instructions. We've brought in a video artist (about whom I've heard great things) to create something unlike other fetish videos. This is where I was hoping to take HM, and now it seems to be happening! I'm quite thrilled! Hooray for fresh blood! Mistress Yani is delightfully creative, inspired, and original in Her approach. This is the energy I need to have around.

I am taking My birthday off tomorrow to relax, read, and perhaps give Myself the gift of time to write. I am still plugging away on a screenplay that I've been sculpting for quite some time. I shall set all responsibilities aside and follow the inspiration wherever it leads. It could mean creating music with My new birthday present (I heart Kaoss!), or sitting meditatively over a pile of raw Sculpey and pushing and pulling it into the most obscene of little figures. In short, it's an art day for Me! And My someone has promised a delicious vegetarian meal at a fine restaurant to top it all off. Ahhhhhhh... The simple pleasures are the most profound. As I get to know My core self, I find I am pleased on a deeper level than ever before. I now strike a good balance between stimulation and interaction with enthusiastic Ladies of debauchery, and the profound indulgence of solitude. This is happiness.

OH! And I got a set of brass testicles as a gift! One sometimes doesn't know what One is missing until One receives it. And the air at HM will now be virus, dust, and allergen free since I also received the super effective air purifier! I do so love practical gifts, and pampering gifts, and fun gifts, and interesting gifts. Oh, let's face it, I am a Lady who loves gifts!

I am pulling out of the pre-birthday funk and landing right inside My birthday joy. Please come and share the pleasures of a lifetime of experience with Me on the 24th!

MZ

I hope to see you there!

2009-10-18T14:58:00.000-05:00

sigh...

2009-10-13T13:38:00.002-05:00

Mistress was a bit down over the past day or two. Just getting through the pre-birthday blues. It is inevitable at times when one takes a critical look backwards at missed opportunities and bits of wasted time. Time is equally forgiving and infuriating.

But a little meditation and a steady flow of energy will bring back equilibrium. Since there is nothing that can be done about what was not done, except to do what one wishes right now. To dwell on wasted time is yet another waste of time.

I am looking forward to working more with the single tail today. I think the thing I enjoy most is the intentional well-aimed wrap around (wrapping is bad in flogging, but can be very good if done right with the signal whip). Snapping the whip backward onto the nipples or inner thigh causes the deepest kind of welt. Is it good technique? I don't know, but it makes Me happy.

Even more than target practice, I need some foot pampering. My busy life has made a good pedicure a less frequent event, much to My shagrin. I am very much looking forward to celebrating an important ritual with a good foot session as dénouement.

And I am hoping to work deeply with a rather anxious potential slave this week. I need to center Myself so I can be most effective at trance induction. I will attempt it after some serious endorphin stimulation before trying to crack the shell. It is time.

And finally, tomorrow will be the last day of fresh flow in My menstrual cycle (it is already beginning to subside). For the ruby shower enthusiast, there is no time like the present to set up a session. If you can't make it this month, mark it on your calendar - My next period starts around November 6 -7.
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The new Dommes at My play space are beginning to schedule sessions. If you have not yet seen their sites (which I constructed), three of the six are live:

http://holymountainchicago.com/yani/
http://holymountainchicago.com/deliya/
http://holymountainchicago.com/alice/

I can double with any of them!

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Please do NOT forget My birthday party on Saturday, the 24th at 7pm! RSVP NOW!

It's BYOB. NO RED WINE! (Don't want stains on My nice Persian rug).
I enjoy fine sake and POTATO VODKA - grain alcohol is very bad for the gluten sensitive Mistress.
Oh, and though all My cooking has been vegetarian as of late, I still love caviar on special occasions!

I'm at home listening to the most amazing sound of metal grinding metal outside where there is construction on a giant high rise. I adore this sound! It's a deep rhythmic moan like a large jungle beast. The echo makes Me aware of the expanse of sky, now bright and sunny, filling My view from floor to ceiling. My mood lifts. Ah... I live inside a J.G. Ballard novel...

(for those who have heard my music on hold)
Happy Nightmare, baby,
MZ

hee hee!

2009-10-11T12:18:00.001-05:00

It's the sound of My shoes...

2009-10-08T13:06:00.002-05:00

BIRTHDAY PARTY

2009-10-06T12:02:00.000-05:00

For all those subs/bottoms/kinksters I have met in person, I'd like to invite you to My Birthday Party. It also happens to be the ONE YEAR birthday celebration for My play space Holy Mountain! Yes, I've been running HM for a whole year now! And what a lovely year of ups and downs it has been. Let's start year two out right!

Saturday, Oct. 24, at 7pm.
@ Holy Mountain BDSM Studio

Suggested Donation is $50 at the door.
Femme Dommes who bring a sub get in for FREE.

If I, or My friends, have not yet met you in person, I will need a verifiable reference form a Pro Domme. OR you may schedule a session with Myself or one of My friends before then and that will secure your RSVP.

I am limiting the guest list to 30 people total. It will be a casual play party atmosphere. All of the Preistesses of HM will be there.
Those who buy Me a birthday gift from My wish lists will get priority!

TOP BIRTHDAY WISHES (Things that are important to Me at this time):

1.) NORDSTROM Gift Cards (I need a shopping spree to update My wardrobe): any amount
2.) Gift Certificate to C Salon (My favorite place to get My hair done): $200 - 300
3.) Gift Card to Zappos (shoes shoes shoes!): any amount
4.) An iPhone 3GS (most coveted gadget)
5.) The Drupal online training course from Lullabot - starts Oct. 16 (So I can create an awesome on-line community centered around Female Domination): $395
6.) Cash cash cash (I have student loans and child support, so cash as ALWAYS welcome)
7.) A Business partner to take over some of the more business-related resonsibilities at Holy Mountain so I can concentrate on the creative stuff.
9.) Super Sculpey for sculpting My figures and dolls.
10.) A flip Ultra HD camera or or the Zoom Q3
11.) A MacBook for Holy Mountain with Quickbooks
12.) Things for My new apartment: a nice very small sofa or loveseat, a small chest of drawers, cases for my LPs and CDs, Queen size sheets (high thread count cotton, blue or rose), a tiny kitchen table ( I do mean tiny). See My wish list for suggestions.
13.) An adjustable dress form for sewing my own fashions.
14.) Anything from my Amazon Wish list (books, books, I love books!)

***15.) Last by not least, a donation to My favorite charities, Women For Women International, or PAWS Chicago.

And of course you may puruse All My Wish Lists for more ideas.

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BY THE WAY, I did receive a lovely Victor Tella Signal Whip and began immediately doing target practice on the giver (how is THAT for a thank you?)! Oh, how I love the nice welts this one leaves! My sweet slave left covered in stripes from nipples to thighs. It has such a nice snap to it! I'm going to be perfecting the single tail before you know it. Any tips for the new Whip Mistress?

MZ

Puja puja puja

2009-09-30T13:53:00.003-05:00

Hello My dear slaves, subs, bottoms, and curious on-lookers.

I am finally well (more than well, I feel wonderful) and having a peaceful day up here on My Holy Mountain. I was hoping to set up some sessions today and tomorrow, but so far I am free. I am willing to see someone tomorrow before I leave once again for another out-of-town event (this time the wedding of a relative).

Using only intuition, I created a homemade oil lamp to use in My pujas today. Ghee smells just lovely as it burns and crackles - like warm baked goods. The lighting of the lamp is an important part of puja (a devotional ritual). It literally symbolizes enlightenment; being lit; being fully aware and glowing with your true self.

What is your true self? How do you know what is really you, and what is just conditioning, nurturing, inculturation? You know because it feels like you are lit from the inside. It is something that many a guru has tried to describe, but that can only be fully understood when experienced.

Tell Me what makes you light up on the inside. Is it service to the Feminine? Is it enduring the mind expanding sensation of pain until you reach your limit? Is it your own ability to persevere under stress? Is is having the ego sublimated through humiliation? Is it that one specific object or action that triggers you and allows you to be free of every pretense of control?

Sit for a moment and be with that feeling...

What else occupies the Mind of the Mistress? I have begun reading a book titled New Theories of Everything. I am reading and re-reading to make sure I grasp the math of it all. But what strikes me as most interesting is the role of infinity in mathematics: how some see it is a mistake - an indicator that you're on the wrong track - and others see it as the key to understanding. This is a question as old as Aristotle, yes? Can anything actually be infinite?

Is there a finite limit to your capacity for devotion? If I were to tell you that the rabbit hole is a black hole, would you jump in for Me? We only die once, but in a vacuum you can live forever. And by live, I mean to be lit, like my homemade lamp made of ghee.

MZ

fighting the virus

2009-09-21T15:44:00.000-05:00

Having a slow and restful day, fighting off something icky. Stuffy head, fatigue. Too weary to be productive.

Luckily I have a number few good books to read!
I just finished Virus of the Mind, and I'm now onto New Theories of Everything.

Sleep well, dream well, enjoy the night,
MZ

today

2009-09-18T23:10:00.000-05:00

It felt wonderful to really have some time to play with someone during an extended session today. Four hours is just about perfect to get me flowing. That's where my creativity gets to expand. Let's just say I experimented with some new things involving chopsticks, a thigh spreader, ropes, electricity and a gong that I will be putting to good use in the near future. I put the mean little gremlin back in the box for now, but I know She'll be more than eager to come out again after a brief rest.

There were moments where I felt like a true artist. I was not only able to coordinate colors and shapes and lines well (cords, ropes, steel, wood, flesh... I only wish I'd remembered my camera!), but also sensations and rtythms... and best of all, reactions. The human body is a wonderful instrument. I came out energized enough to cook an entire vegetarian feast for family and friends.

I truly do love My work. And I hope you do as well.

xo
MZ

Good Advice

2009-09-16T16:13:00.000-05:00

“The important thing is this: to be able, at any moment, to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.”

Maharishi Mahesh Yogi

bang a gong, get it on

2009-09-16T15:46:00.001-05:00

I got My gong! I am so very excited. I already found it's sweet spot and it SIGHS!!! Thank you thank you thank you to the slave of the year!!!

For those who have never experienced a gong bath, I INSIST that you try it. It makes your whole body sing.

I have returned from Iowa, at the center of the universe. Iowa, you say? The center of the universe? Yes. Fairfeild, Iowa. You are just going to have to take My word for it f you have never been there. It is the most broadly diverse group of human beings outside of the U.N. and all of them are in a pretty damn good mood, too.

So at risk of sounding like a new age flake, it is My will to carry on the teachings of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi for the rest of My life. I'm in good company: Andy Kaufman, David Lynch, The Beatles, Jerry Seinfeld...

But what does that mean for My dear subbies and slaves? It only means a little more radiance from your Mistress. And My advice, which is by no means a command, but a very strong recommendation - learn TM (http://www.tm.org). I will be able to teach in within the next few years, but not quite yet...

And with a smile, an embrace, and a bang of the gong, I'm off to do My thing...

MZ

Things things things

2009-09-02T17:49:00.001-05:00

I just realized that I have three desires that have gone unfulfilled for much too long. One is for a simple wind gong (or this one is even better) with a stand and mallet - large enough for a good deep sound. The other two are a mini-bullwhip and a signal whip from Victor Tella - in black and blue of course. I did have the funds for the signal whip at one point but they had to be put toward an emergency expense. Yes, the Mistress is grumbling. But the Mistress also just realized that She has a birthday coming up next month... so take note.

I still have a good number of Preistesses in training that would like to double with Me on a session. I'll have pics soon. I have some time next week.

For tonight I'll be studying memetics and relaxing after a over a week with no time off from the business of running My studio. I'm beginning to see the memeness of the world. Singing memes memes memes. Everything is memes.

Helping the universe find true release, one little subbie at a time...
MZ

a few new interests

2009-09-01T11:48:00.000-05:00

Last night's Kinky Arts meeting was a blast. I did some demos in between figure drawings which added a little special spark to the evening. Dear froggy was an excellent sport as I bound him, flogged him, mummified him and pushed him around.

I just updated My list of interests a bit (see the sessions page). Take note that cuckolding is a bold new flavor added to the menu. If it is your fantasy to simply observe that which you are not allowed to do, it is now a possibility.

As stated before I've been learning new trampling techniques - including the ever so enjoyable act of perching . And I am eager to learn new things, so if you are an expert at a particular fetish or interest, I'm offering a discounted tribute on your session for teaching Me something that I can do to you that I have never done before. I'm curious to see if there are any delighfully sadistic or otherwise wickedly kinky activities on which I've been missing out!

What else? I will be traveling this weekend and next, but I am available during the week. This weekend, I go to visit My grandmother who just endured open heart surgery. Then I will be headed to Marharishi University for a few days to learn Transcendental Meditation thanks to a scholarship from filmmaker David Lynch.

Write to Me.

MZ

teaching, growing, glowing

2009-08-27T22:38:00.010-05:00

Hello My lovelies,

Mistress has been busy busy busy... training SIX new Dommes (Mistresses Alice, Ananada, Azusza, Bathory, Deliah, and Marcelle) to join Holy Mountain as Priestesses. Whew! Thank you to those of you who helped Me by volunteering your time and bodies for workshops. And I thoroughly enjoyed meeting the new gentlemen. I found you all (known faces and new faces) delightful.

I am so very at home doing demos and making sure others know how to do nasty things safely. The teacher/mentor in Me loves to come out and play. Not to mention I got to learn something new! I know know all about perching! Care to play?

I've also made several important decisions. I wish to expand My little "family" here:

First, I am on the prowl for a live-in slave. The slave will pay rent on My Studio, maintain a regular job outside of the space, but live as a servant to Myself and the other Dominant Ladies of Holy Mountain on a daily basis. This slave will sleep in a cage and will be allowed to bring a small wardrobe to store his personal belonging. The chosen slave must be an immaculately clean and tidy housekeeper, follow directions well, and be ready for play time whenever the Ladies please.

Next, I am seeking a female assistant/intern - submissive, reliable, and bondable (double entendre intended). She must know Quickbooks accounting software, have great written communication skills, a pleasant phone voice, tidy appearance and be web savvy. If she likes to bottom to an experienced Domme or is seeking a Mistress, even better. She will work in My front office in the evenings between 6pm and 11pm, and at other times when needed and available. (Sorry boys she must be female in order to make male clients feel more at ease).

Also, I'm going to be offering a one time special deal. If you are a sub who has a specific activity that you enjoy, have experienced it with a lot of different Dommes, know inside and out, and could provide lots of feedback, I want to learn from you! I will be offering a $100 one hour session to any bottom who can teach Me something that I don't know. This can be a specific fetish, technique, etc. I want to add new and exciting activities to My repertoire. Contact Me right now to set up a session.

Plus, learning Drupal is taking up a lot of My time. If you know it well, please contact Me, as I need to get the new version of "Behind the Veil" launched before My birthday in October. I will trade sessions for either Drupal instruction or Drupal building/design.

****Finally, DO NOT forget, I am hosting a Mad Tea Party this Saturday at 2pm. The party will last for several hours. In attendance will be the 6 new Dommes, as well as Mistress Lucinda, Miss Panic, and others. There are only 6/10 slots still available for submissive playthings, servants, human furniture, whipping boys, toilets, humiliation junkies, and foot slaves. We have way too much fun at these parties! Make sure you RSVP right now.

In the meantime, I've been working My way up the ranks at the Fem Domme Society. I am now a Baroness, and My next goal is to become a Countess among the ranks of Dominant Ladies there. You can help increase My rank by signing up for the site from My page, and then upgrading to Platinum membership using my ID #5816. Check it out here: http://mistresszaynab.femdommesociety.com/

Until later, My darling subbies, slaves, servants, and deviants. I do so appreciate your selfless generosity with your time, attention, and devotion.

MZ

Halloo, where are you?

2009-08-12T12:38:00.003-05:00

Where are My playthings this week? Come out come out wherever you are!

you: naked and helpless. Me: smiling wickedly at your predicament.

Also, I am still taking donations for the computer logic board for my big powerful editing machine (see previous post). Almost there, any donation - even $50 -100 will get me closer to getting my editing computer back NOW! Money more nobly spent than on porn and alcohol... and you know to whom I speak.

ALSO, I have marvelous news! A film grant proposal I wrote was just awarded a large production grant from a VERY prestigious Documentary company (for privacy reasons I'm not going to publish the name, but if you're curious you can e-mail Me). That means yet another documentary in the works for My company! This time we're striving for an Oscar! No, I am not kidding, darlings. All the more reason to get this computer in working order (the grant covers office space, cameras and lighting rentals, research services, a cinematographer and an editor, NOT new equipment unfortunately).

I will also be around to accept NiteFlirt calls most afternoons this week. Catch Me if you can. Confess your transgressions, your fantasies, and your desires. I will listen well and speak little. Let my silence arouse and intimidate you. It's like speaking to the divine; like talking with the impartial stranger or contemplative guru; like espousing your humiliation, your devotion, and your longing into the void until you hear a faint echo of acknowledgment; a scouring cleansing of your inner world followed by relief and sustenance.

I will be away until 4:30pm Central time. I will have a brief window of time afterward to hear you.

MZ

today

2009-08-06T15:25:00.001-05:00

Mistrss is taking today off to finish unpacking at My new home. Things are shaping up.

Then, on to planning another Mad Tea Party *insert devious grin here*...

MZ

up^date

2009-07-28T22:57:00.006-05:00

Hello dear ones,

Mistress will be packing and moving in the coming days and will be available on a very limited basis via e-mail, phone, and in person. Please be patient as I make this happy new transition into My new home. I will do My best to keep up with communications, but I require your infinite understanding as I may not get back to you until next week.

Also, My video editing computer needs a new logic board ($800). I am quite inconvenienced by its melt down, and will be taking donations to repair this beloved machine. Any amount will help.
Be well My sweet subbies, slaves and perverts (and don't spend all your money on porno while I'm away - you know who you are!).

your Reason,
MZ

red all over

2009-07-22T18:07:00.002-05:00

I am running ruby red between the legs and have a whole day free tomorrow. I have a little angst to take out on someone, given that my main editing computer's logic board simply quit yesterday. Who can replace my lovely Mac G5 with a lovely new Mac something-comparable?

And just as importantly, who will ask Me to wax them? I giggle every time I see men get waxed to a smooth and painful glow.

Feeling a bit... aggressive.

MZ

P.S. At least I got My friend Miss Panic's video done before the melt down. LOOK

used shoes

2009-07-20T15:21:00.003-05:00

As I am cleaning out My closet in preparation for My move, I will be making my old shoes and boots available for purchase. Old undies and stockings could be arranged as well.

I have a pair of Franco Sarto boots worn for over two years, some worn out old leather sneakers, and some heels... Tell Me what would make you drool and how much they might be worth to you. These will go to the highest bidder. Photos available.

MZ

did I mention?

2009-07-18T22:40:00.003-05:00

Did I mention that I need more fleshy colored super sculpey?! It's quite cheap and readily available at Dick Blick. Hint hint.

But first, the great news. I will now be moving into a luxurious high rise with state-of-the-art fitness center, sauna, steam room, pool, hot tub, game lounge, free business center, free high speed internet, free satellite TV (with movie channels), free central air, full-size washer and dryer, and a deck with BBQ grills. Plus the management company is top rate (according to all the on-line tenant reviews). The building is two years old, and it's IN MY CURRENT NEIGHBORHOOD. The rent is $500 cheaper than my loft. The kitchen is fit for my culinary creations with new stainless steel appliances and real granite counter tops and a nice granite island. Not to mention floor to ceiling windows on two sides, more than twice as many floors higher than where I live now (oh how I LOVE high rises!). I move on the 1st. I am one happy Mistress. Thank gods for decent credit and the sweetest most wonderful rental agent in the world.

Not to worry, My play space has NOT moved. Though if you know of a better (i.e., larger and/or cheaper), relatively soundproof space in or near the West Loop or Loop, I would consider a move in October. Besides big spacious rooms to play in, We need an office, a nice bathroom, washer and dryer, and perhaps a small kitchen. Easy parking might be better, too. We have a minor problem with crumbling bricks at HM. It's annoying to sweep up brick dust every day, even though I'm not the one having to do it...

And now, I must sell some furnishings and buy anew, since My new apartment is a different size and shape.... World Market, Ikea, Nordstrom, and Macy's gift cards would make very thoughtful housewarming gifts. I'm going to need a new vanity and smaller chest of drawers, a couple of nice bar stools, and perhaps a new desk, not to mention new towels and other linens. Oh, and a filing cabinet, too.

And finally, I will be hosting another CFnm Tea Party on Tuesday, July 28 at 2pm. Please contact Me if you'd like to attend. The last two have been GREAT fun. And We'll have two brand new young Dommes to meet!

hard kisses,
MZ