Spexial Place

Damn..

2007-03-02T11:05:00.000-05:00

Well i'll be damned...
in approximately 5 days i'll
officially be an old hag...
i'm fucking turning 27....
jesus in heaven...
where does the damn time
go.....man

anyway..nothing exciting will
be happening ...it falls on a
wednesday for crying out loud

life is good right now..except for this
stupid bitch at my cell block(job)
you know those people that just
talk and talk and talk and talk
about NOTHING..OH MY GOODNESS....
This motherfucker will not shut the fuck
up for the life of her....the day is coming real
soon where i turn around and say, look shut the
fuck up!

then there is the nosy bitch from hell...if this
old bat tries to get in my business 1 more time
there is going to be problems..sit your fat ass
down and do your got damn work!

Dammit

2007-02-18T03:15:00.000-05:00

So i decided to redo the kitchen right...
i go out and get all the stuff
including a drill from walmart.....
the fucking thing wouldn't drill the damn
screws in the wall................can you say PISSED OFF!
hard fucking labor it is to screw those damn things in
to walls that are 3o times older than me...FUCK!!
don't you worry that piece of shyt drill is going right back!

Then the damn blinds i bought.....none of them fit the damn
windows....SON OF A BITCH....

but after all the hard damn work..my kitchen looks fucking great!

Where has the time gone...

2007-02-09T15:49:00.000-05:00

i'm still alive....LOL

Welcome to October

2006-10-01T16:26:00.000-05:00

Well a new month brings new beginnings....
am i ever so thankful that october is here

things are good on the home front...
bey and i are doing well ( i think)
i'm a pisces so i'm always questioning
if things are really ok or not...etc...
i don't know..maybe i expect too much
or maybe i just want what i want when
i want it.....who knows...

i've done a lot of thinking about life
itself and it's funny that just when you
think things are just as bad as they can get
almost instantly things seem to take a turn
for the better....

bey was a part of the teachers strike for 3 weeks and i was out of work
for about 3 months....well the strike is over and i have
gone back to work.....yipppppeeeeee.....

so far the new job is good....no stress, no drama
every ones their own business, etc....so i like it....

so thank God for new beginnings and self reflection.....

Back in Action

2006-09-14T09:46:00.000-05:00

Hello there...
yes i know i have
been missing in action for
some time now...
but the good news is
I'M BACK...lol

everything is ok...
bey and i are just fine
who would have thought we
make it to see a 1 1/2 years together....whew...

Honey and Titan are big as ever
and growing more and more..
and they are sooooo spoiled rotten
it's crazy..but i love them...
i'll post pix of them soon....

tata for now!

2006-05-16T13:09:00.000-05:00

Dear Diary,

ok so how about I had to weigh
in today for the weight watchers
meeting....

*drum roll please*

I lost 1.6 lbs in one week..no excercise
or anything..just following the points
i'm soooooo excited!!! wooooohoooooooooo

2006-05-12T13:03:00.000-05:00

Dear Diary,

Ok so...how about i've got some ill stuff to
tell you about....

ok so i started here in February..i love my job
i love what i do...anyway, my counterpart...
this older indian woman who i thought was
really nice and really cool...we'd go to lunch
together, etc....

Now, you know that i am about my business
when it comes to work, and i get my work done
by any means necessary....so i basically started
this job in february and i'm pretty much running
the department....

So little miss counterpart has been kicking my back in....
yes..the same woman who can't complete her job without
me..the same woman that asks me 50 questions in a day,
the same woman that cries, curses and has fits all day everyday
because she can't handle the job....
yesterday she needed my help and went to go look for this
email and she opened up the wrong one...so my eyes just
saw who the email was sent to (our "acting" boss) and i just
saw my name on the 1st line..so i made a mental note...

so left out of our office to go to the file room..so i jumped
on her computer to see what she had sent about me...
come to find out..she sent an email talking about i take 2 hour
lunches, etc..........so, i nicely had to check her...1. it's impossible
for me to take a 2 hour lunch, 2. even if i did why in the world
is it your business, 3. who in the world are you 4. you don't know
where i could be or what i could be doing.

i simply sent her and email basically telling her to mind her
business and if she'd like to know what i am doing or when,
ask me and i'll be ever so happy to tell her trifling self...

that's one thing about me..i can't stand a snake..don't smile
in my face and then be kicking my back in on the sneak tip...
sooooooooooooo not cool in my book.

Then today i was talking to another one of our
co-workers and she was telling me that little miss
counterpart has been telling her about how jealous
she is of me, how i'm not stressed out by this job,
my relationship with the higher ups, etc....whatever

honey if you focused more on you work and less on me
you wouldn't have so many errors and your payrolls would
run smooth.....stupid!

yup i'm upset about it.....but in the long run..she'll need
me before i ever need her!

Peace,
~Spexial~

2006-05-05T07:38:00.000-05:00

Dear Diary,

Well May is here and
so far we're off to a good start...
things are really starting to look up...
at first i wasn't sure how i was going
to handle a lot of stuff/issues...but
i must say, God has truly answered my
prayers.....i'm so grateful....

I told you that i opened the bank
account with Chase....well how about
yesterday they sent my a credit card...
oh myyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
yup a credit card in addition to the
check card....i'm on a role.....

things with bey and i are ok..
i'm working on somethings
within myself that may help
us to grow closer...

work is still driving my insane
yesterday i felt like walking
right out of here with no 2
weeks notice or anything...
hopefully it'll get better once
they hire me a boss.

that's all for now....

Peace,
~Spexial~

2006-04-27T07:38:00.000-05:00

Dear Diary

So far life is good....
except for Tuesday
but we'll get to that in a minute...

Bey and I got a new truck...
2006 Ford F150..which I
have rightfully named
"The Monster Truck" (lol)
I like it..it's big as ever
I have a little trouble backing
in to parking spaces, etc..but
nevertheless i like it....

Also, i opened a bank account..
yes me...the one against banking
I had a bank account when i was
younger like in high school
and i had deposited $700 thru the
atm...and ummmm the bank was telling
me that there was no deposit made, etc...
did a whole investigation and still said
that there was no money deposited....
that was it for banks with me...
but, now i am an official banker with Chase....

Now on to Tuesday....
my job has a weight watchers
program that is free to anyone who
works here...so i decided i needed to
join after realizing that i no longer
fit a size 6..the 8's that i have been
wearing are a little snug these days...
so my reality check..I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT...
so my co-worker and i decided to
join...first meeting was tuesday and i
got on the scale.....lord have mercy...
i was so depressed after getting off...
i couldn't believe I gained soooooo
much weight....
(and no i won't be saying how much until i lose it)
let's just say i'm on a strick diet and
i'm going to lose all of this weight =)

Peace,
~Spexial~

Breakthru...

2006-04-24T09:04:00.000-05:00

Good Morning...

I wanted to take a minute to share with you my personal testimony.....

Yesterday I woke up and felt like I really needed to go to church....so Tiff and I got up, got dressed and headed
out to find a church that a friend of Mya's recommended. However, we pulled up to that church and immediately felt like we didn't want to go there....so we drove on....

Previously we had looked up on-line, "gay churches." We had never been but yesterday I suggested that we ride by there to see if we wanted to attend. We ended up going there.....

The scripture was Daniel chapter 3....In short, it talks about King Nebuchadenezzar and how he ordered all the people
to worship him and this statue. However, Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego had refused saying they only worshipped God.

So the King was furious and had threatened to throw them in a blazing furnace. They, with no fear, told the King that their God would rescue/save them and even if God did not save them...that they would never worship him or that statue.
The King turned the flame up 7 times hotter and had his strongest men tie the 3 of them up to throw them in the flame....However, as the King looked at the 3 of them in the Flame..he saw a fourth which looked like the Son of God. The 3 of them were brought out of the fire without any burns, not even the smell of smoke..for their God had appeared and protected them.

For some reason, this message really hit me....as the sermon ended, the choir began to sing, "My soul's been anchored" and my heart felt something tugging on it....i stood up with tears in my eyes and just started thanking God for all he's done for me...as the tears came streaming down even faster I felt the Lord speaking to me....so I got up out of my seat and walked
down the isle....the minister asked me what I needed prayer for...I said, "i need prayer for my soul, i know the devil is/has been working on me...." as the minister placed her hands on my stomach and on my head....i immediately felt a burning sensation within me
it permeated thru my entire body...and before i knew it..unconsciously, I began jumping up and down screaming, shouting thanking God..

Now of course I grew up in church, in our household, if you didn't go to church on Sunday you didn't go outside all week...
so i always went but i never really got "in" to church,etc.....I would see people shouting, etc and look @ them as if they were crazy....well now I happen to be one of the crazy ones....

Yesterday I decided to renew my faith.....and start my journey in walking with God..I ask each of you to please pray for me and I will pray for you....

~Spexial~

2006-04-14T08:30:00.000-05:00

blogger makes me fucking sick...
i typed up this long ass posts about
what has been going on with me...
and of course..it's not fucking here....
i'm not typing that shyt all over again
DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-04T08:12:00.000-05:00

Damn can’t believe it’s april already….
Well here’s what’s been going on..

Last weekend(not the one that just passed)
But the one before…I took bey home to meet
My crazy ass family….all went very well
They like her and she likes them…WHEW…
I was a little nervous because my family is
Far from normal so I was just hoping that the
Weekend would run smoothly and it did!

Then this past weekend I flew home by
Myself and spent it with my best friend
That I miss dearly…

It sooooo felt good to get home to see my
Family and my friends…

I can’t believe I up and moved a year ago…
Wow….

Blog Anniversary

2006-03-23T08:55:00.000-05:00

Well well well…..
Today is my 1 year blog anniversary…
Yesterday I spent some time reading thru
Old post and wow….i’m amazed @ myself…

In one year I have managed to fall in love
Move half way across the damn country
And to top it off…I’m still maintaining…

Simply amazing for real…just when I
Thought I wasn’t going to make it
Or didn’t know what the hell I was
Going to do with myself…

Here I am living in Michigan with
My bey…and for once in my life
I can actually say…I’m happy….

And that’s alright with me….
~Spexial~

2006-03-07T08:32:00.000-05:00

Happy Birthday to Me!!!!!

2006-03-06T08:58:00.000-05:00

dear diary,

Well well well…
The weekend was great…
Friday night Bey and I went to
the kirk franklin And mary mary concert….
I swear if by chance you have the
Opportunity to go..this concert is a
Definite must see!!!! I loved it and would
See it again if they were still here…

Then after that we stopped by the
Bowling alley where her friends
Were having a b-day celebration…
Let’s just say that I don’t particularly
Care for her friends well this particular
Group..can you say GHETTO FABULOUS…
But whatever, I went with my bey…blah

Saturday I went to get my hair done…did
I mention last week I had it dyed and highlighted?
Well it’s a lightbrown color with blonde streak going
Thru it…it’s hot as hell..i love it! After the hair
Dresser we went to Missy’s(7 year old niece) game..
Missy is a cheerleader.

Sunday we went to this church and I really liked it
But I’ll have to go a few more times to determine
If I really like it….so we’ll see…

Anyway, I’m a little down in the dumps…
My best friend in NJ car got stolen from
The damn gas station Friday night…how
Angry am i….but I told her to just pray about
It and be thankful that nothing happened to her…

Can you believe I’m turning 26 tomorrow…
Good grief…

Spexial Tribute

2006-03-03T08:30:00.000-05:00

TODAY IS KIM'S BIRTHDAY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMMIE!!!!

well well well...today you turn into
an old hag but i love you just the same...

I am so glad that we became friends..i enjoy
all of our talks, im's emails, etc..thanks for
being there to listen to me...and know that i'm
here for you as well....

i hope you enjoy your day..it's all about you babe...

i love you...

love always,
~Spexial~

ps 4 MORE DAYS TIL MY B-DAY!!!!!

2006-03-02T13:22:00.000-05:00

dear diary,

wooooohoooooooo 5 days to go! hahahahahahah

nothing much to write about..everything
seems to be going good...but time will tell!

2006-02-28T08:25:00.000-05:00

dear diary,

the countdown begins....

i'll be 26 in 1 week!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-27T08:25:00.000-05:00

dear diary,

i have just a few middle fingers to give out today...

1 - to the indian restaurant that bey and i frequent
-- how dare you fickers have the audacity to change
management and not have the fucking food taste the
same....fuck yall and we aren't ever coming back ever!

2 - my car
-- for scaring me half to death thinking you were finally retiring
don't ever do that fucking shyt again do you hear me...bytch
when i turn that motherfucking key your job is to start..get it?
(but thanks for finally getting it together though)

3 - the dumb ass that pulled out in front of me goin 5
-- you better thank your lucky fucking stars that i was driving
bey's truck..if i was in my fuckign car i would have ran in to the
back of your stupid ass simply to teach you a fucking lesson you
ignorant piece of shyt...

ok i think that's it for now...the weekend was great
bey and i shopped..we went to see our 1st movie alone
we saw madea and it was funny as hell!!!

Peace out,
~Spexial~

2006-02-23T08:33:00.000-05:00

Dear diary,

Ok so bey is coming back today..
Or shalli say in the morning
I have to pick her up @ midnight
I’m soooooooo happy..
I actually thought I would enjoy some
Time to myself..but to my surprise
As well as hers..i really didn’t..i missed
Her like crazy..i’m so used to it being us
And then it was just me…that wasn’t fun
At all…but that all comes to an end…
Yiiiipppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeee!

ON A SADDER NOTE…the 1st girl
That I ever experimented with is now
Married to a girl.but that’s not the sad part
The sad part is that the girl isn’t treating her
Right…that breaks my heart because she is
Truly a sweet girl, and loves her wife
Unconditionally….and it simply ain’t right…
So I’m praying that things get better for her
Because she deserves it…

As for my job, it’s cool I’m liking it…
Not to fond of being on the 29th floor
But I’ll get over it..i’ll have to wait to
See what my first paycheck looks like
Though…lol just kidding but shyt I
Damn sure ain’t happy that I get paid
On the 15th and the last day of the month…
Lord have mercy…what the hell is that all about…

Peace out,
~Spexial~

2006-02-20T08:45:00.000-05:00

Dear Diary,

Blah blah blah…I’m sad..
Bey left on Saturday to go and
Visit her sister..she’ll be gone
Until Thursday…
This is our 1st time being apart
From each other since I got here…
Good grief..i hate it…

Anyway, here are a few middle fingers..

1. Michigan weather – this fucking shyt is the worst…
it was 4 fucking degrees Saturday morning..
what the fuck is up with that….

2. My Old Job – hurry the fuck up and send me my notary
stamp that I left there before I get pissed the fuck
off and come up there to tell yall something.

3. City of Detroit – how the fuck are you not going to pick
up bulk trash..what the fuck am I supposed to
do with it just sitting waiting to go somewhere..
you fucking people are so got-damn backwards
it’s amazing how you have a fucking job..fuckers…
then you have the fucking nerve to say that we can
call to find out a location that accepts the bulk free of
charge…WHO THE FUCK CAN LIFT THE SHYT
TO EVEN FUCKING GET IT THERE YOU ASSHOLES…

Ok inhale and exhale…..peace out..
~Spex~

2006-02-15T08:33:00.000-05:00

Dear Diary,
ok so valentine’s day was a success..
I didn’t want to write about it here in case
Bey read…

Ok so how about she had already gotten her
Gift early because it’s hard for me to keep
Secrets from her..but of course I got her an
Enyce outfit(her favorite).

Then yesterday I went to the nasty store
And got a stripper outfit…and yes..how about
I lit candles all around the room..place a chair
In the corner and I put on a strip show for her..
SHE LOVED IT!!!! Wooooohoooooooooooo
Hot damn!!!!! I was nervous as hell
but I managedTo pull it off!!!

That’s all for now..

Peace,
~Spexial~

2006-02-07T16:55:00.000-05:00

dear diary,

all is well! the new job is good so far!
i think i like it..but you know me..
i change like the damn wind...

but i do happen to like it thus far..
i need to stay my tail here...so that's what
i'll do!!! ha..we'll see....

peace,
~spexial~

2006-02-02T12:57:00.000-05:00

Dear Diary,

hot damn!!!! i got the job..,
so i called out of work monday,
tuesday, then i went to the doctor
on wednesday when i was leaving
the doctors office...the lady i interviewed
with called me and offered me the job...
so i start on monday!!!!

everything else is cool..detroit will be
completely off the damn hook this
weekend with the super bowl being
here so i'll be sure to celebrate my new
job!!!!!!!!!!!!

wooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Peace,
~Spexial~

2006-01-26T08:11:00.000-05:00

Dear Diary...

ok so i'm down in the damn dumps today...
the lady that i interviewed with wants to
offer me the job but she needs a reference
from ADP (which was my last job before i
left NJ)...

there's goes that job offer..because i don't have
a reference from that job...blah...

i'm upset about it..but not sure what else i
can do @ this point because i simply don't
have one....UGH...

nothing else to say...

Peace,
~Spexial~