mei vita...may god bless this mess...

same?

2008-09-05T18:33:00.002+08:00

Some pics

2008-09-04T10:33:00.005+08:00

the bed faces exactly the mirror! what a horror! luckily in the end I delivered in OT and now here!

taking pics all over the delivery room while playing the waiting game....
the lights... and clock... lol at this time still relax ah... can take pics all...

senget pics... still have other pics... can see my facebook for them....

and here he is! my little prince!!! Baby Siddiq!

aww.... he's so yummy! :P he really look like his father! maybe cheeks tembam like me a bit... hehe

sleepy tot!

botak a bit ah he?

oh my... so pucat my face! this is a day after tau...

31.08.08 - The Day My Little Prince See World!

2008-09-02T18:50:00.004+08:00

5.30 am - My alarm rang. Need to get up for prayers. Slept again, will wake up at six to pray.

6.00 am - Woke up... put my legs down from the bed, got up on my feet, water flowing between my legs!!! For one minute I was thinking, Am I dreaming? Or am I urinating? Erm... I can control urine can't I? Oh my god! Is this it?! YES I think it is!

6.02 am - Went to toilet and check if I can urine. Yes I can.. I got up from the toilet seat. More water gushes out! Okay this must be it!

6.04 am - Called NUH Delivery Suite 24 hours hotline. They confirmed that my waterbag broke! They say to slowly take my time and come. Don't rush and hurt myself. Hm.. okay. So before I got ready I thought I shall call my mom and Umer first. There was no one at home with me in Hougang, Yes I was alone.

6.05 am - 6.15 am - Tried calling my mom and hubby in Pakistan. No one picked up the phone! Okay never mind. Just go get ready. Got ready. Water leaking all the way.

6.30 am - Got into a cab and went to NUH.

6. 58 am - Reached NUH. Told the receptionist that my water bag broke and that I've already inform the delivery suite I'm coming in that morning. He quickly wheeled me to A&E, A&E wheeled me to delivery suite.

7.05 am - Was in delivery suite, stripped and changed to my hospital gown, took out all my jewellery.

7.15 am - Doctor came to give a vaginal examination. Water gushes out again! He said I was already 3 cm dilated. So confirm that I'll be delivering today! Their main concern... I am only in my 36th weeks only!! I have 4 more weeks before baby fully mature. But doc says it is still fine for delivery.

7.15 - 11.00 am - The following events happen:-

Waiting
I was given soap in my anus to clear my bowels. I immediately went to toilet and cleared my system.
They gave me anti-biotics on drip to prevent any bacterial infection and some other things were inserted into the drip to bring my contractions nearer.
Watched Superman and The Mummy on HBO.
Doc gave another vaginal examination, I've dilated to 4 cm at 11 am.
Took photos of the delivery room.

11.00 am - 12.15 pm - Was on drip so can't go toilet. Have to urine in bedpan! Oh my gosh I was so embarrased! Luckily I didn't spill all over the bed! Actually the nurses were very helpful and darn professional. I really thank the whole team! And they cleaned me up well too. I don't feel so unclean also. So I was glad.

12.15 pm - My mom came. My battery phone went dead. Hubby called mom like a million times. When she came in, he called. Got to talk to him. He was giving me a whole speech about if I can't do it just go for operation, I can't afford to lose you, I'm so sorry I am not there, I love you and all sorts of things... while I try to calm him down and say that I'm perfectly fine. Well at this time my contractions was still ok. It felt like normal cramps during my periods. So I was really steady. They kept asking me if I need to go on any pain relief. I said no. Because honestly I didn't need it... THEN! hahaha...

12.15 pm - Mom came and accompanied me... at this time... Contractions begin to become more frequent and more painful. But I still can tahan. The nurses commented that well my pain threshold is not bad. They shouldn't have put a bad eye on it!

1.00 pm - 3.00 pm - The contractions got more painful that I had to squirm around, like those bad period cramps days... so I asked for the oxide. Some kinda thing to make it less painful and it was really a god-sent! Cause it really brought the pain down like from a 5 pointer on the pain scale to 2 pointer. Doctors (Dr. Shakina and Dr. James) came and asked again if I want to be on epidural. I told her and him that I want to try it naturally. No pain relief, probably just the gas.... Dr. Shakina even commented, "Are you really sure babe?" I was like YES! And by this time I was dilated at about 6 -7 cm.

3.00 pm - 4.15 pm - Pain just got worse! I was badly squirming on the bed and screaming my head off into the gas mouthpiece each time contraction came. What started off with a three mins interval has become 1 min of interval by now.

4.45 pm - It got too much for me. Phonecalls kept coming in through my mom's phone. I told her to shut the damn thing off. I manage to talk to my hubby only during times I was not having a contraction. Or else I know I am going to be such a bitch to him without me or him being at actual fault. He was comforting me and I know he really felt bad that he couldn't be there with me. But I also know he won't be able to take it if I was in that much pain. he would have probably decided for me to take the epidural straight away!

4.50 pm - I signed the damn form for epidural. I was having faster contractions that it was difficult for the anesthetist to adminster the epidural for me as I need to be perfectly still and it was impossible cause each time I had a contraction I had to squirm and grip on something to release my pain. My mom told me to be strong and told me that she'll be there to hold me. She was praying for me all the way. Holding my hands. Rubbing my hands to keep me warm because I was getting chills from the air-con despite it was turn off a couple of times during the whole duration. I was blessed that my mom was there with me. She was such a strength for me. I am thankful for everything she did for me throughout. I love you mother.

So she held me close with my oxygen mask near me so that I can access to it whenever I am going to have a contractions. The anesthetist seemed a bit anal at first but he too was professional with his job. He truly encouraged me that I can take this if I could have withstand the contractions for the past ten hours... So I held on to my mom tightly and got the epidural done. My mom really held me tight as I crouch/bend for the anethetist to insert and get the whole procedure done. By 5 pm I was on epidural. The difference was crazy! From a scale of 9 -10 pointer to a complete 1 I will say. My contractions became easier than my menstrual cramps after a while and about 10 minutes later... I couldn't feel my contractions at all! Dr. James was begining to get worried. I begin to shiver uncontrollably like an addict after that. I couldn't talk and just simply curled up and shiver. It was apparently one of the side-effects of the epidural. He also realise that each time I was suppose to be having my contractions, the baby's heart beat decreased tremendously (they had a thing attached to my tummy which monitors the baby's heart beat.) And my contractions was replaced with my shivering.

Before the whole epidural was administer, Dr James stopped it. He told the nurses to remove the epidural drip from my back. And let the shivers died down.

5.30 pm - Dr. James said that the baby's not looking too good :( That his heartbeat is slowing down and each time I was having a contraction, he was suppose to head further down into my birth canal but he was not. They suspected that his cord could be around his neck and preventing him from reaching down. By this time I really feel like fainting hearing all this. He told me that he'll shift me to the Operation Theater. He said he'll get me to try natural delivery first and if there is any signs of distress on the baby then he'll get ready for a C-section. So another whole bunch of forms to sign should I need to go for C-section though I was really praying that I don't need to go through all that!

6.10 pm - Was wheeled into the OT, then a whole team was preparing me for the delivery. All were so encouraging! They were all holding and hugging me telling me that I'll probably get through natural birth... AND I DID!!!

6.48 - Yes it took me about whole half hour to deliver my darling shezada, Siddiq into this world once I reach the operation theater. LOL I think he needed to be in that environment before he decided to come out into this world. I had four hard pushes and he was born! The nurses and doctors were really so sweet. Their encouragment were the number one thing that help me go through this and the thought of bringing my baby quickly and preventing him from further harm being in the womb without the water any longer.

6.50 pm - They stitched me half way and then told me to give another one hard push to get the placenta out. Then it was done! Delivery was over... and they begin stitching me up fully. And I saw the pediatrician pick him up and put him in a cot about 2 metres away from me. He wasn't crying much. Only responded when they pat him on the back and gave a faint cry each time. Something wasn't quite right and he looked really small to me... :( He was also shivering a lot. They then quickly rushed him to the nursery in the delivery suite with a more comfortable temperature for him.

7.30 pm - 12.00 am
I was sent back to delivery suite and on my way to the normal ward, they put the baby by my side as we got wheeled back together to our ward. That was the first time I held my little one in my arms. He is really tiny and he saw me with his small tiny eyes. He is so like his father!! :) He was then again taken away and place in the nursery.

I met my mom, dad and brother in the ward and calls kept coming in from Pakistan. They were all so happy that everything alhamdullilah went fine. Hubby was so happy that I got through it all.

BIL came and azan for my baby. I was with the baby till midnight, then the nurses came and took him away to keep him in the nursery.

01.09.08, Monday
I tried breastfeeding. It went quite okay but his feeding was rather slow. Then doc did tests and found that baby had low blood count and very jittery. He also can't sustain his body temperature in normal temperature room and constantly needed to be under the warmer. :( He has to be brought to the special ward to be under the warmer and under the observation. My poor baby.

02.09.08, Tuesday
I am able to discharge but baby is still in hospital. He looks much better today. Went to say bye to him before I left the hospital and will see him tmr again. I'll be bathing and try feeding him again inshallah.

I'll be putting up the pictures up soon. For now I need to go rest. I'm doing fine alhamdullilah. Dear loved ones and friends... please pray for the fast and healthy recovery of our little prince, Agha Saiyed Siddiq Zaheer Shah. Thank you.

For some pics taken on the birth date--> click here!

the not-so-little-anymore tot in the tummy!

2008-08-30T21:53:00.009+08:00

Manage to capture some videos today when he was kicking and moving... usually when he does this I don't have the camera with me or I'm just too lazy to go take the camera... and obviously I can't take a video while I'm praying, in the middle of my class or in the bus/train right? Cause these are the times when he wobbles and jiggles a lot in the tummy....

And I thought I'll never have the chance to do so! hehe but got lucky today! He was constantly moving for hours tonight! Wish I can put up more videos I have like 8 or 9 clips of him moving like this but this was the smallest in size so manage to only put up this one... Or else it'll take me ages to upload all the movie clips of the little kung fu terror! The baby has been so active these days! Mashallah! :) Really an active baby.... Even while blogging this entry... the baby was wobbling left and right in the tummy.... lol my tummy looks like a shaky wobbly agar agar! I have no probs clocking in my Fetal Movement charts these days...

These shoulder jabs and kicks are the more gentler ones mind you... I've had those that he pokes left and right here and there... like right now... while I'm typing away...

The Kung-Fu Baby in the Tummy... and other updates...

2008-08-30T18:33:00.005+08:00

I don't know if the vitamins are beginning to work or what I've been eating or drinking... or whatever it is... to cause the baby to have a sudden burst of energy and stamina level!

Yes he's starting to get really really strong! Even though suppose to have less space... he's been doing his punches and kicking regularly and religiously everyday... hmm... training hard for the delivery eh? Shouldn't mummy be doing exercises instead? haha...

He's in the LOA position now... His butt is sticking high up just below my left breast... and his head is down there.. but doc told me that his head is not engaged yet! Sigh... well she say not to worry the engaging part can happen even just before delivery... and no more scans till much later because she say the baby can't be seen too clearly at this stage anyways cause its big and all be blurry to me... sigh and I tot I could see him and how much he has grown... well from what people see and say to me... they are all suspecting I'm having twins! Oh my goodness! is it really that big?! Maybe cause it suddenly grew that's why! And by the way I've not even reach my 20kg gain yet... I've gain a total of 17.5kg so far....

By the way his arms are at my right hand side lower abdomen and his legs are the one always kicking and jabbing my ribs! It is really getting sore there! And once he start kicking and punching... it can continue up to ten or fifteen minutes... imagine my agony...sigh... but at least I know the fact that he's growing really well and being a healthy bouncy baby! hehe...

My hubby could feel the kicks/nudges/movements too when he hug me or when we sleep... and even he's amazed at the energy the kiddo has...

Oh and the kiddo has began to really recognize its daddy's voice! Everytime the hubby talks or sing to him he moves and nudges at his daddy's face... hehe I thought it is really cute! Hubby always sing "Chamke Chamke Chota Setara" Urdu version of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star...hehe

But sometimes I think he sides with the daddy too much! Cause sometimes when daddy touch the tummy and say to kick mummy.. the kiddo will kick me hard! So unfair the dad-kiddo team is bullying me! Sigh and adding to the kicks and soreness I feel on my ribs... I'm getting really painful pelvic cramps that last 5-10 mins.. and when it happens at night it feels the worse! Sometimes when I go toilet I have to sit on the toilet seat for a whole 5-10 mins after peeing cause the cramps come during those time too.... and I simply can't move....

Sigh other than all the pregnancy ailments and stuff going on... I have lots of assignments due!!! arggh.... one thing why I'm glad that hubby is not around for the next two weeks is because then I can concentrate on my work without him having to complain that I don't spend time with him! :P hehe... but I still miss him though!!! Miss waking up and having him by my side! Miss having him to snuggle up to in the night! Okay okay... it's going to be just two weeks compared to the months I've spent without him around so I have to stop complaining eh?

He's gone to Karachi to settle some admin stuff for his sailing contract and visit Ami and Abu... can't wait till the 13th September when he's back! The day before he left we went to Orchard and eat Swenson's! So long since I've been there! Then we walked around and bumped into old friends whom we have not met for ages! What coincidence! They were all excited about the pregnancy too! So nice of them! Okies here's more pics of me and the hubby!

in the bus on our way home from Orchard...

hungry hubby! mm.. he always eat the same thing! BBQ half-chicken...

my 49er's burger!

waiting for ice-cream!

lol..this picture actually I'm pretending only... ice-cream still not here yet!

more poses in the bus.... lol by the way the girl sitting just right behind me in the pic.... is one of his gfs back when he was in Singapore Poly!!!!! Hahaha... I found it so funny! That night we bumped into so many familiar faces!!!!

the beng from pakistan!

2008-08-27T19:43:00.005+08:00

I'm worried now! Me and the BIL thought just for fun we'll dye my hubby's hair... after all he has lots of white hair... we chose a dark golden brown thinking it won't be so obvious on him.. My hubby wanted blonde!! Pagal! Anyways this was the outcome.... still turn out bright and didn't cover his white hair!

front view --> see the poser beng! action siah!

back view

This was when the hair was still wet... when its dry its super bright!! And I'm worried cause he has an interview tomorrow with Maersk Line... a Singaporean based shipping company which I really want him to get! And I was so contemplating dying his hair back to a dark colour! And cut off his hair... even though I really love it! Sigh... anyways told him to gel it up... and insyallah he'll get through the interview tmr... Keep us in your prayers folks! And he's leaving for Pakistan the very next day on 29th August... boo hoo!!!! And will only be back on 13th September... Sigh... that too don't know if the company wants him to join straight away... whatever happens happens...

Till laters this is for now...

lol we and our poses in public transport.. I can start a collection already!!! Pictures taken on public transport!

This is like super cool!!! The whole set up is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We want this in our home! That is if we have one of our own in the first place... This selfish person was playing throughout.. then when I want to play.. some other kid came and ask if he can play... my hubby told me to get up and let the boy play! So unfair! Can't the preggo play also!? And it was GRAN TURISMO tau!!!

BUT GUESS HOW MUCH THIS WHOLE SYSTEM COST W/O THE LCD TV???

FREAKING EX LA!!!!!!

7 Weird Facts About Me!!!!

2008-08-26T20:53:00.004+08:00

Lol this is the first time I got tagged!! I like doing this sorta thing! Thanks Jus! Yeay!! Hear it goes...

1. I hate bar soaps!!! This is a bit of OCD on my part I think... but yeah I get totally... utterly disgusted by bar soaps! I only use liquid shower scrubs or foams... most people who knows this about me think I'm weird for this...

2. I have three incisors (there should be four central teeth at the top between the canines!!!) naturally!!!...unlike most people I know! Cause dentist say probably due to a small jaw structure!! huh? really got such reason? see pic!

3. I love everything that is of GREEN TEA! It's an obsession about green tea! Don't know if this is considered a weird fact but I thought it can be considered as one... :) Oh yes I love drinking green tea too! Things that I have that is of green tea fragrance or scent:-

i. dish washing liquid
ii. toothpaste
iii. air freshener
iv. hand washing liquid
v. olive oil
vi. wet tissues and lots more but most of the things are at my mom's place I can't remember all!
vii. oh yes tea tree oil!
viii. lip gloss etc. etc.

4. Oh if I eat double cheeseburger or cheeseburger or any other burgers with pickles... I will purposely NOT ask the pickles to be taken out... I like to play a silly game by myself with that... haha this is so going to be weird... If I happen to see the pickles in between my bites... then I'll pick them out..(yes I would never eat pickles that I see sticking out of the burger!) and smile to myself and says "The pickle has been picked!" If I happen to bite them and is already in my mouth.... I'll just eat it up! :)

5. I can't handle most burgers... If I do eat burgers like McSpicy or Chicken Sandwich from BK....I always ask for FORK & KNIFE... yes I eat my burgers using fork and knife.... I hate being messy with my hands!

6. I have songs running across my head whenever I see interesting people on the streets or anywhere in public. Lol! Sometimes you can see me swinging my head to the song going through my head when I spotted my victim...

7. Weird Fact No. 7 is that I have probably more weird facts about me and my habits (that is weird to any other person but me) that I have failed to really recognize because I'm just sometimes in my own world thinking that it is of perfect normality to be what I am! :)

There it goes!!!! There are so many others... but that is the 7 off my head now... :)

After so long!!

2008-08-24T19:04:00.003+08:00

yeah its been ages since we took some pics together... well technically two months ago... but all pics were gone since my phone got lost in Pakistan!

Few pics taken in the bus on the way home from my parents' place...

Looking all serious watching the Olympics on TV Mobile :P

Monkeying around as usual! Oh my I look so sickly!!! And gosh pigmentation all over the face.. can't wait to go for facials after delivery!

At least much better now... posing better here! :P I still look sickly!!!

Ah this pose pulak he learn from mua!!! The sexy side pose! Perasaan eh budak ni! And he claims he hate the longish hair I ask him to keep! :P Liar! I so know u baby!

The ruggard look is gone anyways... haha he is now clean shaven and hair is dyed! Am waiting to wash off his hair soon... let's see what colour it will turn out to be! More updates soon on the dyed hair laters!

Ten Things I Wish I Don't Really Wanna Hate About You...

2008-08-22T23:26:00.007+08:00

I hate it when you put others before yourself...

I hate it when you make decisions thinking of everyone else's happiness except for your own happiness...

I hate it when you sacrifice your own wishes for others...

I hate it that you're in so much pain and yet others are so blind to it...

I hate it when you plead me to understand with you for all of the above...

I hate it that I'm willing to agree with everything so that I can see you happy...

I hate it that we can't pursue what we really want cause we are always making sure everyone else gets what they want...

I hate it that you are so kind and yet no one appreciates you...

I hate it that you smile so much in front of others but tearing up inside...

I hate it to be only standing by to support you and not able to do anything else to ease all of these.. I know I've only made it worse by highlighting each of this to you... I'm sorry...

I'm having all this hatred... cause I just love you so much...

All about the Admin stuff and the "Count-to-ten" Fetal Movement Chart

2008-08-15T12:14:00.003+08:00

Yesterday when I went for my check-up, I had to do my pre-registration.

Meaning book my bed and get the hospital ready for me going into labour anytime now.

I decided to stick to a 6-bedder ward instead of taking the Deluxe Room. The Deluxe room indeed look super luxurious and spacious and pretty... But it would mean we would have to fork out cash deposit of $1,700 (non-refundable nor deductable from the CPF). Well of course la special treatment right? And you get a round-the-clock peditrician and consultant by your side and you don't need to practically do anything for the baby... there'll be someone to do all the necessary which is not something I want anyways cause I want to do all things and start taking care of my baby by myself straight away inshallah... gosh I sound a bit obsessive eh?

Hmm... well hubby told me to go for it... but I didn't want to. I thought that probably I'll be there for 2 or 3 days. The delivery will still be done in the labour ward its only where you rest that differs. Initially I thought I'll need the single bedder because of my super noisy relatives and the fuss they make can drive anyone up the wall or maybe into the ICU.... but my mom thought that probably it'll be better to get the relatives to visit once I reach home instead of the hospital and that I should just concentrate on recuperating while at the hospital... And I won't want the hubby to stay overnight with me as well at the hospital... cause he gets nervous there, he doesn't say it but you can literally see his face turning white when he steps into a hospital. Gosh we were just there for check-up yesterday and he was like all nauseated looking and stuff... lol that's why he was talking incessantly as well... to calm his own nerves. I think too many bad memories for him there...

Still don't know if I want him to be with me in the delivery room... will update once I've decided... Lol suddenly I don't know if he can take the whole scenario or not...

Then the nurses were talking to me about all the pain-relieving methods... Honestly the epidural does sound scary and painful... What if I move? I am the kind who if you say don't do it and if I'm nervous I might just do it!! Lol but one thing for sure maybe I won't need the laughing gas cause I know hubby will surely make me laugh or the G-mama and G-papa will do that honour... These folks have this natural talent of making a tense situation into a giggle-fit situation with just the things they say about the surroundings... so as a matter of fact I'm counting on them to make the pain less painful should I go through labour pains while at the hospital... Just going through the possibilities you see...

Anyways should I change my mind later about the room or the choice of pain-relievers I can always do it... :)

Then they handed me a bunch of forms and stuff... for the registration of birth of baby and baby bonus, donate cord to the blood bank... yadda yadda... etc.

Finally they gave me the "Count-to-ten" Fetal movement chart. Which I am suppose to complete and show my gynae every week from now onwards... Sigh... So LECEH when I first saw it! First of all I thought a series of movements can be inclusive of the so called ten movements... but apparently one series of twenty movements will still mean ONE movement... and its suppose to me like at least ten movements within 12 hours... Then I was thinking what if the baby's movements are more active during the 12 hours that occur when I'm sleeping at night?! Then I won't be able to keep track properly would I?

But so far from yesterday to today... I manage to clock in religiously the baby's movements into the chart and it looks pretty good. BUT I don't know how "rajin" or discipline I'll be later on... hehe... But I think as long as the baby moves at least once every hour it counts right... and somehow I think the baby know that I'm keeping chart of his movements... He seems to make his movements felt every specific time of at each hour that passed... hehe good good.. keep it up kiddo! Oh by the way do I count his hiccups as part of the movements? He seems to go through the hiccupping at least once or twice daily.... Because my belly do jerk gently when he has the hiccups.... Sigh these questions will not come to my head when I'm with the gynae! Always comes to me only when I'm at home! Silly me! Well I'll let her know on my next visit or maybe I'll find the answer out soon! :)

34th Week!!

2008-08-15T12:07:00.003+08:00

What perfect timing... Today marks my 34th week carrying the kiddo and this came in from the PregnancyWeekly subscription... hehe... let's see if me and the daddy shall follow it through..shall be no problem I guess ;)

Week 34 Pregnancy Tip
Rekindling the Romance During Your Pregnancy

Hi Suryati,

The anticipation of your newborn and the added stress of pregnancy can take a toll on your love life. Here are some tips to rekindle the romantic spirit during your pregnancy:

Take a long, leisurely bath together. Enjoy a glass of non-alcoholic sparkling cider or sparkling water with juice.
Take turns giving each other slow, sensual massages. Try using oils scented with jasmine, rose, or musk.
Play soft music. Dance slowly by candlelight.
Rent a romantic video and snuggle under a soft blanket.
Feed each other. Try chocolates and fresh fruits.
Look through photos taken when you first met to remember how you felt when you first fell in love.
Return to the scene of your first date or re-create it as closely as possible.
Sit together in the moonlight and just hold hands.

Lol we did some of the above in just one day already on our own accord... maybe the rest shall be in our agenda :)

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NO NEED FOR DECISION MAKING! :)

2008-08-14T20:16:00.006+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

HUBBY CAME DOWN TODAY!!! YES HE IS IN SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm OUT OF THE WORLD!

I'm SIMPLY ECSTATIC!

I'm LOST FOR WORDS!

I MISS MY BABY SO MUCH! I'm just so very happy he's by my side again... I don't want to start being rational for the moment and thinking of the future that is yet to come... For now I'm basking in my baby's attention and love...

And despite the 20 hours flight from Johannesburg to Singapore (he can rarely sleep on plane..no matter how long the journey is).. He insisted coming with me for my checkup today! Poor baby... That's why now he's sleeping like a log!

Oh yeah... lol when he first met me at the airport guess what he said!!

"oh my god! You found out the sex of the baby didn't you?!"

Oh man I can't hide anything from my man can I??
oh well... he didn't make a big fuss out of it... and he kinda bribe me into telling it to him anyways... haha.. so he wanted to know as well!!!!

Shall I be selfish or shall I be the understanding and supportive wife?

2008-08-11T10:34:00.003+08:00

We had a long conversation yesterday...

He's not been feeling well... he always get sick when he's homesick or not feeling good emotionally...

He says he wants to come back to Singapore sometime in October... That means he will be cutting short three months of his contract and also would mean his present company won't take him back... As it is, one of the best companies ever is already not going to take him back and they were paying him darn well... His present company pays him so-so but prospects of promotion is higher...

Maybe he was just being such a baby like he always do when he is sick... so I don't know if he had said all that cause he needed pampering since he has a tendency of talking out of his mind when he's sick or was it really coming from his heart... But he was insisting that he will simply sign off and stay with me for a few months and maybe join again later... Hmm.. part of me want him to do so... but I'm just so worried it will look bad on his resume... So far at his present rank he has less than a year of sea experience and each sea time was less than the expected 6 months... and this was also due to his leg injuries.... this I think will really reflect badly on him... and we need him to be earning for the next few months at least cause of the arrival of the baby... and his family needs the financial support as much as they can... especially since the youngest sister is of marriageable age... I can't simply agree to him signing off so that he can be with me... He will listen to what I'll say.. cause let's just say that I usually make the more rational decisions... and he tends to be more rash about them... But I can be swayed by emotions as well... and he has been there to help me through them too... so what do I do for this situation? Do I tell him that I need him to be here? Or let him know that he can always finish of the contract first and be with me later? I just want him to clock in that 6 months contract in... so that the chances of his promotion will be higher... I want him to do as well as he can in his profession... it took him so long and much effort to get where he is... and I want him to succeed...

Decisions! Decisions! ARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

:) Baby's back in Durban and Happy 43rd Singapore!

2008-08-09T19:28:00.003+08:00

Why am I so happy that hubby's in Durban? Cause that means we can communicate more often than when he's in any other parts of the world.. Cause the ship was from there and they usually stay in port for a long time... and he has a local number there hence communication is much better!!!!! :)

We can call each other often and we can sms each other any time of the day!!! In fact he's been calling every day and we've been smsing every day since Thursday... Except for the first day he reached (Wednesday?) and was trying to call when my phone gone crazy and nobody could call me neither could I make any calls out! It always happen when I charged my phone for too long...and I charged my phone.. cause I was paranoid that the phone will die out on me should he call! Ironic isn't it?! Sigh.... yeah it's a crazy phone alright!

And just as I suspected he WAS trying to call me the when he reached Durban and couldn't get to me the whole day! In the end he decided to call my sister at 2 plus in the morning.. my sister didn't picked up till she stirred awake from sleep and I wasn't at my parents place either... So she called me at Hougang to call him back cause he's been calling everyone else when he couldn't get me!

Luckily and coincidently I told my other sis to get me a calling card that evening itself! (its much cheaper to call that way... and for the amount of $8 I can talk to him for 25 mins!)
And now the crazy phone is working fine again... it's a cheapo Samsung phone that I've been using since I lost my very beautiful Korean mobile phone that hubby bought for me... Lost it in Pakistan in a cab while I was coming back from my check-up there one morning... and that's another story... Makes my blood boil thinking of that! That MOFO of cab driver had the cheek to pick up the phone and said he won't return the phone to me... well I didn't speak to him, my hubby did and my hubby threats didn't affect him..well what can we do? I didn't even activate the GPS when I arrived there to detect the position of the phone... yes the phone had that feature and even able to telecast TV channels of the local network! So cool right! I bet that MOFO don't even know how to use the bloody phone! Sigh what was the saddest part was... we took so many pictures of us in India and Pakistan using that phone... the downside of my holidays this year! Sadly that was the second time I lost my hp since the day I started using one.... in a span of 9 years! Hmm don't know if that is a good or bad record... but anyways... hopefully I can get a better phone when the stipend comes in... though I have so many things planned out for that sum of monies... maybe I can squeeze in a couple of hundred bucks to get a phone as well... Will see how it goes....

I am watching the NDP '08... and I'm sorry but its really boring and its getting unbearable to watch it as the years go by..didn't use to be like that when we were younger... I use to buy my favourite snacks and drinks before the NDP start and sit in front of the tv waiting for it to start... then happily sing to each and every song...I still enjoy watching the choir and singing along... but that's it...I don't really fancy the performances and other things... Well I'm suppose to watch it for my tutorial on Wednesday... I don't know what I'm suppose to look for but yeah we're to watch it and prepare for discussion for tutorial... and yes Monday we are having a National Day break so that's another thing to look forward to! No MONDAY BLUES for me this week! Yeay!

Have a great weekend ya'all!

It's all about the money! Its all about the dum dum duh dee dum dum....

2008-08-08T21:36:00.004+08:00

I can safely say that I've always been thrifty with my finances for the past year... except for this month!!! I blew more than half of my allowance liao!

Sigh... I just received monies from my hubby for this month's expenses... and... I'm left with less than half of it to last me till the end of the month!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh boy...I hope I can survive with 2 check-ups that are scheduled for this month with what is left!

But its inevitable... since I did lots of shopping for the baby and his stuff... and somehow I think I'm not even half done with that! I shall get the rest in the early week of September...

So yeah this month's expenses include:-

House Rent
Hybrid Tertiary Concession for my Ez-Link
Baby things (and I just have to get something for my niece as well if I'm getting it for our baby and I can't resist getting all the nice clothes for them when I see the clothes! Yeah.. I'm obsessed!!! I think I bought over 25 new rompers already.. and I intend to get more... :S)
Mommy things
School stationery (Bloody hell... I didn't even get my discount that day cause I thought I left my Popular membership card at home... only to reach the bus stop and realize it was in my purse all the time!)
School notes
Home groceries (spend more since I'm living at my own place since school started and stocked up the house with my junkies and I-really-can't-live-without-these! kinda food....)
Glasses (Yes I got a new pair of spectacles... Need to la.. the old one is full of scratches... but when I already got the new pair my optometrist clean my glasses so well...the scratches were gone! I wish she had done it earlier...lol then I would have simply gotten the lenses and left! Apparently my shortsightedness has increased as well due to the pregnancy but she didn't want to increase my degrees cause it will stabilize back to the previous level after delivery..luckily...)
Lenses (yeah.. the thing I first went to see my optometrist for!)
Phone Bill
Daily expenses

Phew.... luckily there is no one's birthday or anniversary coming up this August... hehe... can save on that a bit... not being stingy... sigh but there's just so many things to get suddenly and since school started expenses are expected to rise... shall I ask for more allowance? But I'll feel so bad later! Sigh... hopefully it is only for this month! I'll survive eh! Inshallah...

baby's been trying to get my attention :)

2008-08-06T21:24:00.005+08:00

Ok I admit I have been busy with school for the past three days... to really notice baby's movements and stuff... Sometimes out of nowhere in class when I am concentrating on the lecture or tutorial he will give me a hard kick! Either that or he will shift continuously from left to right.. and recently a new movement... when he goes really down under and starts squirming!!! Ouch! He will do this when I am seated and not moving much myself... And will only calm down when I rub the tummy... naughty naughty!

Or else also when I wanna go to sleep he starts kicking my ribs or he moves his head here and there... and yes its really a weird squeamish feeling there!!! I feel like as though he might be trying to squirm his way out.... and lol and my immediate tendency is to close my legs really tight! PARANOIA la! Not really ready k! Still about 7 weeks more!

Lol again today a couple of my friends came over and made conversations not really with me! But the little kiddo in the tummy! hmm and he seems to be enjoying the attention... immediately shift here and there... when somebody touch or talk to the tummy!

:) Oh yeah another thing... yesterday I went for High School Musical on Ice and I think the kiddo loves it!

Yeap... I didn't felt any movement from him the entire day while I was in school and just as the show started and music blasted... he moved!! Felt like happy movements... lol I didn't expect to enjoy it myself but it was awesome!! I love the way the skaters moved! So beautiful! And the guy who played "TROY" looked so masculine despite the agility and gentleness of ice-skating...So nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My niece enjoyed it too! Lol at first she was asleep on the way there....and only woke up just before the show started! Luckily she woke up or else so wasted!!! Enjoying so much by dancing and singing... and then making me get up from the seat to join her in dancing and singing also!!!

It was fun overall! Lol I take back what I use to say to my students... High School Musical is not so bad after all... Go WILDCATS!

I'm SWELLED up!!! Where's my ankles?!

2008-08-06T20:50:00.005+08:00

Earlier when I was at the bus stop and wondering why is my fav Birkens hurting my feet now?! I realized that the front part of my feet hurts like hell...so I plopped myself on the seat at the bus stop and looked down.... and saw that my feet has swelled! Like really swelled and purplish looking!!! So fugly!!! Argggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

Oh gosh... not only my back hurts like mad nowadays since I have to sit in the train on a hard plastic seat everyday for one hour each to and fro school... Now I have to deal with giant feet! And I've lost my ankles!! Yes the swelling thing is that bad... I've officially lost my ankles among all the swelling! I literally could feel my "payals"(anklets?!) are tighter now around my ankles! Boo hoo!!!!!

Sigh I think it's due to all the walking I have to do on campus as well as climbing up and mostly down the "BATU CAVES" stairs that lead down to the bus stop or up to the classes... And stomach too has swelled up I can't see where my feet is stepping and have to really look out where I'm going... and my mind plays a morbid scene every time I go down that flight of stairs.. in fact any stairs or escalator for that matter... Going up is still not so bad... Going down.. or man... ok ok TOUCH WOOD for even saying such things... but I can't help it... Look at it! And some portion of it is not even captured in the picture! And can you see the squarish dark opening at the end... LOL there are still flights of stairs up there before you reach the canteen! And then when you reach the canteen... there is another flight of stairs you need to climb to go up to the tutorial classes! No KIDDING!!

School is not so bad I guess.. (Though I dread going to school for an hour only tmr!!!)
And I just love it that Jane is teaching the Curatorial & Exhibition module! Yes! We are having a number of field trips for this class and one of them is the Biennale!!! But I don't know if I can make it... tentatively its been scheduled for the 22nd September and my EDD is on 26th September... lol but they said they will record it for me! Hehe... thanks for all the extra effort really! Other than that lots and lots of readings to be done!

School's Out! Yeah right... I wish! :P

2008-08-05T23:09:00.009+08:00

Well it has only been two days since school started.... hmm... still can't really judge how it'll be for the rest of semester...

I had my Maths class... which I LOVE!!! Woo Hoo! Really count my lucky stars that my Maths profs so far have always been the best! They are the joker kind but still can teach interestingly instead of those who just drone on for hours and don't make sense at the end of every two-hour tutorial! I can't say much for my art subjects though... Oh man... the first tutorial for this particular module was a real torture honestly... but I don't blame the Prof cause the topic is just plain boring and dry... and technical and blarrgghhh..... sigh... and the readings! Oh my goodness! Tons of it!

Still have three more days before I can totally deem this semester as to whether it is SURVIVE-ABLE... or CANNOT TAHAN....

On the other hand I've been getting reactions and notice from my fellow student teachers in school...

LOL those who knew I was pregnant thought that I was already going to give birth! Some even exclaimed in surprise when they saw me in lectures, "Sue! What are you doing here? I thought you gave birth!" haha... blur sotongs! Others were really sweet....always offering their assistance to me and assure me that I can always bother them if I need any help... :) Thanks my dearies!

And some of the art students whom I met today in class were really cute too! They didn't know about the pregnancy and when they saw me with the tummy today they got really excited! :) Were congratulating me and making conversations with the little one in the tummy... LOL lucky boy! So young already getting attention from so many ladies!

Hmm...there was one other thing also on my mind when I went back to school, to see if there was any other women in their last term of pregnancy... but so far I haven't spotted any pregnant ladies on campus... Last semester we had a bunch of them with their tummies all out... hmm... must have already given birth and on maternity leave I guess.... I thought I will have some kakis in school... but looks like there might not be any... well no matter I'll still keep a lookout... he he... at least I won't feel like everyone's eyes are on me all the time! Yes sometimes I get people staring at me and the tummy... I don't know what is on their mind or what is going through their heads... but it doesn't make mm feel comfortable... if there're others around then I won't feel so bad or alone... :)

Must start preparing my emails to send out to the lecturers and tutors... Hope they all come to a consensus to let me go on maternity leave for at least 4 weeks! Wish me luck folks!

I just realised...

2008-08-03T20:03:00.003+08:00

Was reading PostSecrets like I always do on Sunday evenings...

And came across one of the postcard that made me realize how I myself came to learn about "FAITH" in practically everything in life...

Yes... it's true...

I never really understood FAITH until YOU had faith in me...

Life turned a full 360 degrees since the day I met you. Thanks for believing in me...

I love you baby. :)

I love it that you call me at random timings of the day to just say how much you miss me and wish me a great day... whenever you call it is always a wonderful day!!

Missing you baby...

2008-08-02T23:08:00.005+08:00

Maula Mere - Anwar

The song you always sing to me... and the one you included in our wedding video... :)

Jiya Dhadak Dhadak Jaayen - Kalyug

The song you sing to me all the time when we were dating...

And every time you do... I just melt...

It’s been nearly two months baby… I’m missing you as ever…

I miss the times when we are together… even if it just means sitting beside each other watching tv with our fingers entwined, me lying on your lap or you lying on mine…

I miss the way you play with my hair… even if you purposely tugged at it sometimes…

I miss you playing with my fingers…and the way you love to crack my knuckles even the ones on my toes…

I miss when we act so silly that we get on everybody’s nerves…

I miss how our feet touch when we sit at the dinner table…

I miss the way you rub my tummy so that I feel better from my gastric pains…

I miss snuggling up to you every night… hearing your heartbeat lulls me to sleep in your arms…

I miss your whining and behaving childishly so that you can get my attention… and I miss doing the same to you...

I miss pampering you and being pampered by you…

I miss the kisses that you plant on me and whispering, “I love you” in my ears thinking that I’m asleep…

I miss kissing you every morning when I wake up…

I miss you singing to me…

I miss the sight of you… your scent… your presence… your touch… your aura… your voice and laughter…

Despite the calls… I still miss you every millisecond… not a moment pass without having you in my thoughts….

It seems as though all my senses have gone numb since we last hugged and kissed at the airport...

Waiting for your return for you to wake my senses up again…

I miss one thousand and one things about you…

And all the million of little things you do that bring a smile to my face…

Missing you is making me yearn for you more than ever…

Can't help missing you so my love…

I hate my time-table!!!! I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!

2008-08-02T00:47:00.004+08:00

The school's admin has been known for their ridiculous timetables that they arranged for the students. So far I've not been the target of such lousy timings for the last 2 1/2 years till now! I'm so darn pissed la... What kinda timetable is this?! Is the situation of classes really that bad that they can't fit me in classes that occur later on some days or earlier on the others?! And some of them get free days on Thursday... Sobs!!! I don't even get that!

Take a look at my monday... Tell me how not to have MONDAY BLUES???? I have four freaking hours free and then I have a one hour lecture?! You expect me to do what during that time?! Breathing exercises to prepare for my labour?!

Thursday lagi best! Sheesh... It takes two bloody hours to reach from either Hougang or Bedok to Boon Lay... and how nice just for a one hour tutorial! CAN I LIKE REALLY SCREAM OUT LOUD!!!!!!!! EEESSHHHH!! So irritating... and like every semester... they have to spoil the Fridays for the art students... by putting classes late on a Friday...Worse I have to wait three hours some more before my Friday just ends like that! Alamak... really already dreading to go to school....

I'm gonna make do with my Thursdays and change all my gynae appointments on Thursday instead from now onwards... At least it won't be a wasted trip to the west on that day every week...

Sigh... hope the weeks fly by and I can go on my maternity leave liao!

Kiddo's Progress :)

2008-08-01T22:56:00.006+08:00

This was taken in the morning... when G says that my tummy is still kinda small @ 32 weeks...

I find it very bulat...

And I still can see my feet :P

But see what happens when the baby decided to stick his bum way out of my tummy.. I literally feel like bursting out of the clothes! Sometimes he snuggle deep inside and sometimes like in the night he likes to stick out...

the same day at night...my tummy looks like this! Looks kinda outta shape too doesn't it? He really moves around a lot despite being head down...

I like this pic taken from the front...lol looks like a full moon! (this is the nick-name my MIL give...)
Looks a bit compact eh from the front.. No wonder G thinks it looks small... maybe slightly...

Anyways....I forgot to take my scan pic of the little tot @ 32 weeks!! Sigh... by the time I went back, the sonologist said that they don't keep it anymore in the system! ooh man....but anyways the kiddo can't be seen clearly today.. maybe cause for once I didn't follow the rule of drinking lots of water and making your bladder full so that the scans will turn out clear... And the only thing that I could make out clearly today was his spinal cord and other than that mostly I couldn't figure out anything else... but hey I was impressed by God-mama though... she could make it out on the screen! She actually even knew where the umbilical cord was and detected the amniotic fluid in the placenta! She saw the bubbles and said that....I think it was a lucky guess though :P.. haha but nonetheless good going babe! Hope you are having a good time there in Laos by now! :)

Oh yeah one other distinctive thing about today's scan was that at some points we could also see the bone structure of the baby... and the thigh bones really stood out.. It seems as though the kiddo has really long legs! and he had folded it to his chest... kinda hugging his knees.. Hm.. a tall kid maybe?

BUT Alhamdullilah overall everything is good! Strange thing is I have not put on any weight since my last visit! So far I've put on roughly about 11 - 13 kgs maybe? So the weight since then must have gone to the baby... hm... I wonder... and yup baby's have grown...

Baby's at a healthy weight of roughly 2kg. Lol God-mama couldn't believe it cause she feels my tummy is still way too small for 32 weeks and the baby to be weighing at 2 kg! She even had the cheek to ask the sonologist if its alright that my tummy is that size! Aiyoh make me malu only! Lol but understandable it was her first time in a maternity clinic and in front of a sonologist... :) Actually I think the baby might be on the heavier side as well... Even my mother thinks so too...cause she called me during the check-up to see how things were.... Well well... sonologist said its perfectly fine! So there you go! :P I shall not worry myself silly... at least not at this moment! Maybe he has heavy bones right??

And the baby measures at about 16.4 inches now. Blood flow is all good. He is facing down. YES! And facing my insides which is good and liquid level in the placenta is all good.. He still shifts from left to right....I think sort of like a rocking motion... And he hates being nudge.... Two sonologists attended to me today... The first one was nice... She was pointing to all the internal organs of the baby and scanning me with care... The second one was more aggressive and the baby showed its disapproval immediately as she scanned me... She poked me so painfully! I mean how much are you going to poke into the already so tight tummy....Of course the baby didn't like it one bit... When she nudged on the right... he shifted to the left... pointing his cute little butt into the screen... lol and when she nudged to the left... he moved to the right! I could understand the baby's discomfort cause even I felt she was putting too much pressure! I even did yelp ouch! Cause it really was that painful! And I was so hungry some more at that time. So the two things didn't really go well with me at that time! But I manage to tahan a bit more. The whole thing took about like 20-30 minutes but sure felt like longer....

Then had a check-up with the gynae... Erm... she was looking at the cervix opening and stuff... sigh she commented that the muscles down there is not loosen enough... BUT said it should be alright since this is my first child...and probably will loosen up when the baby is heavier... OK... but how can I loosen up if you probe something down there and its like stiff cold?! Of course I get tense! Erm... ok don't let any thoughts run wild... let's leave it at here...

Then she said she'll see me every week when I reach my 36th week and if by 41th week I still have not shown signs of labour, she will induce me... I'm like must I wait till the 41th week?! Then she said not to worry probably it will be earlier... WHY DOES SHE DO THAT?! She delivers the negative possibilities and then tell me not to worry.... ?! Sigh... weird..

What is in their milk these days?!

2008-07-31T17:44:00.004+08:00

This is my one and only niece.... Nur Eiliyah Sisca

It's not because I'm her auntie that I am amazed by how smart this kid is... I beginning to think most kids nowadays are getting smarter at a much younger age than maybe my generation was? I seriously think it has got to do with the milk she drinks... And she doesn't drink any ordinary milk.. She is lactose intolerant and drink only Friso Soy. She is 20 months old only.

She has a very wide vocab both English and Malay. For example, she can differentiate between watch and a clock. Yes she does! I don't know if I'm the one so suaku or what... but its been long since I had a kid around me a lot at her age. When my bro was growing up I was just 11 years old so I couldn't see his development as I am with my niece now.

She can name most body parts both in English and Malay.

She knows her numbers independently from 1 to number 12. I don't know why up to that number but she does. And when she count she shows her fingers too!

She knows the Incy Wincy Spider Song with ACTIONS, she can sing Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star first two lines very clearly and with actions too. She can do Hokey Pokey. She knows her Head Shoulders Knees and Toes. She loves a lot of actions songs. Oh yes especially "If you're happy!' She knows a lot of songs thanks to this DVD called the Singing Babies.

She LOVES everything from Barney to Noddy to Mickey Mouse to Handy Manny (oh god now I'm scared by myself) and can sit in front of the tv switch on to Disney Playhouse the whole day! She even knows what show is on at what time. If we switch it on to other channels and out of the blue she would ask us to turn on the channel and claim that Noddy is on. In fact she will scream to turn it on at that time. And true enough Noddy will be on!

She knows when or where to use certain words.

E.g. Hello, How are you?, Please (overly used nowadays especially when she wants things her way! with batting eyelashes and dimpled smile), Thank you, Why? Can, Cannot, Aiyoh (when someone does something wrong), Sorry, Ee! Malu! Sssh! (with fingers to the lips when someone makes too much noise) Jom! Let's go! Gimme dollars! No cents! Dollars!(when she wants to go out!) Alah! (complaining) Esh! (fed-up) Sighing...yes pandai at sighing! when told to do something she don't like doing... She can pick up the phone and ask "Hello, Where are you?" "Dah makan?" "Balik cepat!" And lots more... she's a bit of mak-nenek at this age also.

Oh yes the most irritating one sometimes... "I don't knnooowww...." with rolling eyes! When we ask her about stuff. She knows where things are and can go get it for you if you ask her. And if she really doesn't know where there are, probably cause she hasn't touch it that's why, that's when she'll do her trademark... "I don't knowwww......"

She can address everyone at home correctly and with absolutely perfect pronunciation. Nenek, Atuk, Auntie, Uncle and Me as Peiriyama (means First Auntie in tamil, my mom taught her to say that to me! sheesh... but we are all so use to it liao) Kakak and Abang for people she don't know.

She corrects those who don't show the correct manners. She would say "Thank you" when she give things to people and say "Welcome" to them after they say their thanks. And when she feels someone is behaving inappropriately.. for e.g she thinks my mom shouldn't dance... lol she will say Nenek! Don't dance! or if my sister took something she was holding... she would "Tsk tsk.. Auntie!" "Nak pok?" (you want to be hit?)

She can differentiate colours... thanks to my brother's magic cube thingy. Colours such as blue, green, yellow and white.

She recognizes animals such as horse, monkey, peacock, seal, lion, elephant, mouse, snake, crocodile, giraffe, hippo thanks to Eric Carle's book "Do you want to be my friend?"

She knows who to go to and when to go to seek sympathy and for people to side with her when she does something wrong! And when people go out she screams her lungs out to follow... but when she goes out and we are left behind at home. She will proudly announce she's leaving and no one is following. She will say bye and say stay at home! And close the gates on us. Lol!

She knows what is the prayers for sleeping, eating and reading bismillah and greeting with salams. She'll prepare our prayer mats when she see us taking our wudhu. She will join us for prayers. This started way earlier too. She wants to sit with us and read Quran everytime and sometimes on days we don't read the Quran she will insist that we have to. Then she will ask us to get her muqaddam and spend half and hour flipping the pages and repeating "Allah" throughout as though she is reading. She knows some of the hurufs inshallah she will learn them all.

And she also knows what make-up to be applied where. Mascara, Eyeliner on eyes, Lipgloss and lipstick on the lips and of course blusher on the cheeks. AND we rarely wear make-up at home! Maybe once or twice she might have seen that's all. She is a typical girl too. She wants to take out her clothes once in a while and re-organize them all the time! Putting them in sets she like them to be! Be in colours, tops and bottoms... whichever she feel like on that day! She is more organized with her clothes than I am!

She loves to draw... That stage of drawing everywhere has begun too. She use to be obedient by drawing only on the papers... but soon she discovered drawing on walls are easier... She leaves her trademarks full circly things which she claims to be flowers or the sun or sometimes just circles she say. Then sharp pointy things which she claims to be stars or sometimes the moon.

Honestly she doesn't have much toys. The toys she has are mostly stuff toys which she doesn't play with often. She has lots of books (cheap ones less that $5 each type but full of pictures) and she's free to draw all over them. No restrictions, cause like I said she doesn't have much toys and she enjoy reading and seeing pictures on the book and trying to copy them by herself. My mom says this is a good way for mental development. She did that with us too. No wonder all the books and encyclopedia are filled with scribbles! And the other thing that keeps my niece busy is Playhouse Disney. It's really educational despite yes it being a television channel. She picked up most of her vocabulary from the shows and repeating them. And it is good that sometimes they repeat the same programs because thanks to the repetition she remembers and can relate better to it.

These are just some of the things that I've notice of my niece. She is learning at such a fast and at a humongous rate that I can barely catch up and relate each and every account of it. But I understand kids at this age are very much like sponges and absorb a lot of what they see and observe. I hope I'll remember all of this and guide my tiny tot when it comes to his turn and it'll be nice to have a elder cousin to help him along! :) Aw... I'm starting to fantasize about the future again!

She is also one very sociable kid. She can talk and impress anyone! She will say hello how are you to strangers in the lift and give them her shiny smile.. Lol my mother is so terrified that she is so friendly that she might go away with strangers as well... I know its scary but somehow we are always with the kiddo so inshallah nothing like that would happen!

Masyallah honestly seeing this girl at home makes me amaze by the dexterity that kids have seem to acquire over the years...since my time at least. To the kids of this generation! Cheers for surpassing us at such a young age and I'm sure they will do proud to the future of the world!