There are days I experience, when a rejection slip...

tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10969364.post-1119032814175823862005-06-17T13:26:00.000-05:002005-06-17T13:26:00.000-05:00There are days I experience, when a rejection slip...There are days I experience, when a rejection slip comes through, that I think I won't be able to think of any more words to type or any story. I go through moments like this here and there, but my first submission was the one that nearly knocked me out. I banged my head against a wall, 2 rejections, and put it aside. Nearly drove myself insane with thinking about rewriting the damned thing and I still 'go there'. But in the middle of a shower one afternoon something else came to mind, it was on the subconscious backburner for that week, and I started on that and it did total 65 000 words when I finished. I stared at it thinking 'gee whiz'. I didn't mean for it to be that length, I asked myself whether it was too short. Then I thought, bugger it and it's been a few weeks since I've sent it away and I'm still 'waiting' and I hate the wait. I feel depressed for the same reasons you mention, but it's not a constant state. I don't think that a person realises how much energy they use when they sit there putting something together, typing and longhand notes or whatever, and it hits them later - after submitting it. It reminds me of the times I'd finish exams. Prior to the exam period, I'd dread the exams and say 'Can't wait until they're over, go out, party etc' and after I'd finish the last examination at uni, I'd be totalled in the same way: "Where is this leading me?" "Why do I subject myself to this? (in the case of study and examinations lol)" "Will I make a living out of it?" I have to say I found your entries refreshing to read tonight, and that's due to me deciding to pull the plug on being a member of an 'online' writing workshop (but I did learn from the experience) that left a really depressing taste in my 'mind'. All the best with your novel and all forthcoming novels.Anastasiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03292268023897537647noreply@blogger.com