lightning is my girl

start a new, point and shoot...

2009-06-15T14:36:00.000-07:00

... heading in a new direction,

opening a new cyber location for grey matter.
please visit me here now

merci,

xMAdMx

A CONNECTED HEART...

2009-05-17T15:21:00.000-07:00

... what a machine!

in awe of the deepest red,

of the magic pump.

have you held one in your heart and hand lately?

my virtual one,

in form of music, film, visual, web and more is alive and pounding,

on your virtual door, calling to you.

finally, the final body of work is being given a birth plan.

i apologize on behalf of life for the delay x

ooom is coming,

from me, directly to you.

xMAdMx

when in texas...

2009-03-25T16:49:00.000-07:00

... do as romans do.

this past month my bass brought me to rome and austin.
this magic month of march opened a few doors of exchange-
and it's about time!!!! man and woman, it's been too long.
my hands on, out of the box vehicle has slowed my carpet ride down,
but it has been scenic and educational.
my decision to be the mistress of my own musical destiny has broadened my expression (hence OOOM's multi layered mode of communication)
but has also required some learning curves.
what's a girl to do without a record label?
make her own and make friends with cutting edge tech pals like topspin!
what's a girl to do when the right manager has not presented him/herself? manage yourself!
and when you are invited to play scandinavia, rome and austin without a team? put your captain hat on!
in other words friends near and far- as always my fire to connect is raging,
and my skills to make the connection are improving!
i guess i've always wanted to know how you get from a to z,
and when i embarked through the looking at the top of my music ride,
i skipped a few steps, and have been making up for lost lessons.
not to mention: the exciting, ever changing scape of the music "business"-
the shifts that have been affecting the "deal" with music.
it has encouraged everyone to go out on a lim and try new things out.
this past week at sxsw music fest,
i was blown away by the open minded ways of all people.
the change and "collapse" has liberated us-
forced us into change and experimentation.
good times to be knee deep and head on in music.
i was also blessed with amazing friends
who accompanied me along the way on my busy bee week in texas:
cecil at the helm, NARDWUAR, jeff, raja, the webb sisters, mark, little radio, jason, claire, dave, phil, stacey, seb, katie larkin, two friends from mexico, 2 friends on their 4 hour lunch break, two philly pals and last but not least,
my musical trinity: chris, adam and joe with their two guitars and drums.
all of these music lovers were there with me.
all there for the right reasons and all there for each other..... pretty wicked.

(rocking red curtains at red eyed fly bloody mary party)
xMAdMx

p.s. i did have the pleasure and honor to go to the amazing world of rome earlier in the month,
to play a classy evening at a bass player festival.
they offered me my own evening to do whatever i'd like to do-
so i showed the film, played a rock show
and then discussed my love of bass with the crowd. pretty dreamy-
especially because i had enough leisure time before to visit sistina chapel,
the coliseum and much more roman wonders....
i still can not believe that 4 strings bring me to such places.
hopefully i will get to you soon....
here i am with two fountains i liked very much.

THE VIKINGS TAKE NYC

2009-03-11T22:04:00.000-07:00

"SEVERED WAYS: THE NORSE DISCOVERY OF AMERICA"
Tony Stone's Vikings have alas landed the silver screen.
If you are in NYC please come to the Angelika film center this weekend
and explore this one of a kind raw Norse epic.
It's not everyday that a hand made,
1000 year old period piece,
dripping with black metal while exploring the pre-Columbus alt history that could've been,
hits a big screen near you and your kin- or ANYWHERE for that matter!
From my dream collaborator on OUT OF OUR MINDS-
comes THIS!
OPENS IN NYC THIS FRIDAY THE 13TH - PASS IT ON...
SEVERED WAYS will hunt you down wherever you may be!
not to mention the two 13s in a row.....

everyone listen to Danzig's "Thirteen" this day,
and visit www.1007ad.com

xMAdMx

celebrate the NATURALIST

2009-02-12T10:07:00.000-08:00

if it wasn't for open minds,
the chase for knowledge,
and explorations on ships,
i surely would not be communing with you today via virtual log.

200 years ago, a role model for all of us was born.
charles darwin was born with a hunch in the gut-
that life was more than the upper class english culture he was raised in.
at the age of twenty he boarded a ship called BEAGLE,
and sailed around the world for 5 years,
collecting fossils, writing and engaging fully with the natural world.
changed man, changed world.
a life committed to understanding the natural world,
and how man has evolved within it,
sounds like a mission to me.
the darwin naturalist mission,
inspires me to wonder, what an active explorer should be doing now.
we have sailed the sea and gone to space,
scientific studies are often now in laboratories in our minds,
not aboard ships exploring desert islands...
we have an obligation to explore unchartered territories,
but so many adventurers have come before us.....
the pressure is on- so wether you explore in song or thought,
by foot or by air....
find your ship, a partner or two, and eat it up x
i am aiming to do the same..... eyes open everyday.
some titles to ponder in honor of a man who sailed for us:
Descent of Man to Emotions
The Descent of Man, and Selection in Relation to Sex
The Formation of Vegetable Mould through the Action of Worms.

xMAdMx

MAdM vs Auf der Maur

2009-02-01T13:58:00.000-08:00

dear you,
this is a cyber update.
you must forgive your rusty freckled old fashioned friend.
the web is not my most clear and instinctive home,
but it is the only way i can swim across oceans,
and fly over mountains and planes to get to you.
so the fluidity of my exchange with you is key,
but not fitted yet..... first there is the name game:

as i sit on the edge of a hopeful new year and the unveiling of my new project,
i find myself stumped by my own name. dating back to my early childhood,
and memories of learning to spell and pronounce my name,
it continues to be a regular correction i must make everywhere my name goes.
as with my first album- this has been three years in the making,
thriving on collaborations and support by endless talent and generosity of my creative folks-
so these are not "melissa auf der maur: singer songwriter solo albums"-
but these could not live under a fictional title like "orange rubber duck".
a while a ago i decided, as the captain of the projects, i would use a variation on my name...
using just my last name for my first album in all of it's germanic, patriotic-ness-
was a nod to the ancient family, the "father's of rock" who cam before us,
and amplified the HEAVY i was going for.
this new album has taken many twists and turns,
including the embracement of multiple creative outlets, and the reoccurring theme of
THE ETERNAL FEMININE HUNT FOR THE HEART.
a connected but polar opposite title was needed for this one.
luckily, my initials are MAdM,
and i often had signed my name as initials because my full one is just sooooo long.
this naturally made sense- however back into this reality,
i have been confused on how to unite the old and the new world as far as names go.
i opened xmadmx.com and myspace for the birth of the EP,
but this long established aufdermaur pages are getting lonely-
so i am addressing their concerns....
although my new project is MAdM- but i am still me.
the "x"s frame it all over the interweb, because MAdM was not available to me.
this is the last and only introspective name game essay i will write,
but i welcome any suggestions you may have. is it good to evolve and change names?
will people be confused or will people sort it out? what to do?

meanwhile, xmadmx.com is under construction, that's why it has not been updated...
a computer programming melt down occurred, but eventually this "blog" will live in there!
for now i am dancing between various places, and waving as fast as i can HELLO!

hoping 09 has been a smooth ride so far,
as well as being the year that finally gets my album out of my hands into yours.
thank you for visiting and riding the wave of the new MAdM chapter in our virtual club house-
see you out there soon! i am preparing for shows in the spring....
the bass can't wait!

xMAdMx
ooom

HOPE WITH A VIEW

2009-01-01T22:53:00.000-08:00

THE FUTURE IS HERE AND SHE IS BEAUTIFUL.
i rang in the new year with a smile from ear to ear,
and shed myself of fright by the christmas lights.

the cold air and snow reflect the hope i know is there.
glaring white- almost taunting us because she KNOWS how much we need her.

i hope for us all the be able to tap into that light this year,
and to trip the fear off it's feet. we must.
as individuals and as a team.

fight the good fight, like there has never been another.
reborn into the future - freak out and enjoy the madness of this life.
put on your helmet,
whip out the wand and break open this opportunity titled:
2009

i look forward to getting my channels straight
to show you what i've made to commune with you.

love

xMAdMx

V ...

2008-11-03T17:34:00.000-08:00

VOW TO PARTICIPATE IN THIS
VERY URGENT
VICTORY.
VOLUME OF INNER CHEERS WILL RISE
VOLTS OF EMOTIONAL ELECTRICITY WILL SURGE WHEN YOU
VOTE.

MAY THE FORCE OF TRUTH AND ACTION BE WITH US ALL
TOMORROW

xMAdMx

WITCHING HOUR

2008-10-24T22:18:00.001-07:00

must warm up those rusty bones and strings-
can't think of a better way to do it:
eve of samhain,
sneak sneak spook peek,
MAdM
i am crawling out.....
xMAdMx

MAdM OOOM

2008-10-22T21:16:00.000-07:00

the sneak peeks they creep

into cracks from here to there.
beginning with photos tomorrow in NYC

my visual and musical buddy conrad,
offered me a wall in an empty space.
so more portals into ooom will hang there
from 6-9 thursday- my favorite day.
jupiter day.
come by and peek:
34 east 1st st @ 2nd ave
october 23rd
6-9

wine and eye treats

miss you....
but MORE coming sooooooooooon
ooom
xMAdMx

WALK THE EARTH THIS AUTUMN

2008-09-28T19:56:00.000-07:00

"MAN IS NOW ABLE TO FLY THROUGH THE AIR LIKE A BIRD,
HE IS ABLE TO SWIM BENEATH THE SEA LIKE A FISH,
HE IS ABLE TO BOROUGH BENEATH THE GROUND LIKE A MOLE.
NOW IF ONLY HE COULD WALK THE EARTH LIKE A MAN,
THIS WOULD BE PARADISE"
T.D.

this autumn brings many opportunities
on a personal note,
i will follow my bass to the stage for the firs time in three years.
on a north american note,
both my home countries are given the opportunity to change
bringing us back to the personal note: VOTE

on a larger scale,
mother nature will do her most romantic trick of all,
fall into her gentle white sleep.
may the trees take fire
and i hope to see you there.
merci

xMAdMx

trying to keep up with my new cyber arms......
this is the original interactive beauty beast,
but i just gave birth to www.myspace.com/xmadmx

FEEL THE BREEZE

2008-08-29T14:07:00.000-07:00

feel the need.

wow. those flags fly with determination don't they?
i guess things have to be really broken
to kick a group in the ass towards change.
hop on the wagon and hope.
bouncy bouncy we shall wake up?
blue team all stars speaking up
clearly speaking for a group in fear.

eat a banana
light a candle
talk to your neighbor
call your friends
register to vote
remind others to if you don't

back to school
looking good
believe it or not,
the sharing comes soon.
hilariously late but true....
i will be connecting with you in ether form
before the blues take over the white

xMAdMx

THE WOLF INSIDE

2008-08-14T13:22:00.000-07:00

An elder Cherokee Native American
was teaching his grandchildren about life.
He said to them,
"A fight is going on inside me...
It is a terrible fight, and it is between two wolves.
One wolf represents fear, anger, envy, sorrow,
regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment,
inferiority, lies, pride and superiority.
The other wolf stands for joy, peace, love, hope,
sharing, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence,
friendship, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion,
and faith.
This same fight is going on inside of you
and every other person too."
They thought about it for a minute
and then one child asked his grandfather,
"Which wolf will win?"
The old Cherokee simply replied,
"The one I feed."

OUR EMOTIONS CONTROL THE OCEANS...

xMAdMx

WOODS TO THE...

2008-07-27T19:15:00.000-07:00

... MOON MACHINE

was it the underside of ourselves,
the dreamers in the woods,
or was it the chase of machine minds?

the sun side or the mother side?
the moon side or the son?
the OTHER is the dreamer,
if there was more MOON in us-
we could bath in true light at night.

THE OTHER
THE MOTHER-
THE MOON
OOOM
coming soon

xMAdMX

in the grey

2008-06-14T13:44:00.000-07:00

there is a beauty that comes in black and white.
it is very strong.
unlike ornate beauties full of color and shapes,
it is very simple and straight forward.
it seems to speak of action more than feeling.
you can only visit there within a frame.
i want to step in,
ride that horse,
and this there ship.

hello from me to you,
this new season.
it's been slow around here-
but this season will change that.
may the heat melt the red tape~ in black and white!!!!!!

xMAdMx

04/08...

2008-04-30T15:37:00.000-07:00

... it was a big one i tell you.
it marked the 10 year anniversary of my father's death,
and the most stunning images ever captured in photographs:
COLLIDING GALAXIES IN OUTER SPACE!
i was speechless.....

opening my cyber mouth for the first time in a while,
i say this:
i want to share.
looking for the way.
my extended hand will come.
the wait creates a heavier weight on the shoulders of my imagination.
it will make me stronger.

please.
thank you.

xMAdMx

13 YEARS OF THOR

2008-02-14T15:17:00.000-08:00

13 TEARS OF LOVE

On a late afternoon, in the early summer of 1994,
I walked up St. Laurent Blvd. towards Leonard Cohen's house
near the sweet Portuguese park on Marie-Anne street.
I had a small basket in one hand
and intentions of unconditional love in the other.
Lorca, Leonard's beautiful, tattooed and mysterious daughter,
had told my best friend Steve about the batch of kittens she needed homes for.
I come from a long line of feline friendly family.
There has never been a day in any of my family's houses without a cat.
When I came into the world, my mother had a cat named "Red Fuzz"
who ultimately was training for her perfect mothering
she provides me and my brother Yves.
Cats are equal to family in our homes.
So there was a big batch of perfect fuzzies, all long haired,
some multi colored, but only one red.
Be it the ancient memories of Red Fuzz,
or my own red head identity,
there was no question that I was walking out with that red ball of fluff in my basket.
"Thor" was of course destined to be his name.
The god of thunder spent most of his first week
under my bed curled up in the basket he came in.
He never tired of that habit of sleep and retreat,
and my mother always kept a basket on the ready for him.
He had another irresistable pass time, sucking his toe.
Yes, like a child sucking his thumb,
he would get really comfortable and sooth himself by sucking his back toe.
In hind sight, I think I took him away from his mother a little too soon,
and he never gave up trying to nurse.

Within a month of adopting this ball of magic, I was asked to join the band Hole,
for their world tour in support of their latest album "Live Through This".
My decision to accept this extreme musical invitation changed my life forever.
The United States of America, and it's inspired world of alternative rock music,
became my home and I have never lived in Montreal full time again.
Leaving my rich and intimate life was dramatic.
In this over night break from my life long home of 22 years I left behind;
my then band "Tinker",
my photography degree,
my very close community of family and friends,
and of course, Thor.
As I began my new life of travel, absolute strangers and no particular home,
Thor moved in with my family.
Thor became a kind of a totem to that time and place.
He symbolizes that big break, and represented my youth that I left behind.
He was a cat of "little brains" my mother called him.
He didn't have an ounce of that independent feline aloofness, more like a puppy,
he wanted love and affection from anything, any time
(it is said that male red cats are always like that).
As he followed the action where ever it went, he had no fear.
He'd wander into the street, while flirting with dogs, cars and plants.
He was truly irresistible as a teddy bear.
People would gasp with an overload of cuteness.

Thor had more medical problems than the common cat,
probably because he was part fancy cat,
and fancy cats always have weaker genetic make ups
(rumor has it that Thor's parents may have been siblings...).
Last year while suffering from a bum problem the vet noticed his irregular heart beat,
turns out his heart was slowly falling apart.
A slow degradation of heart was in process,
threatening the usual age of 18 that cats under my mother's care live.
2008 arrived, and so did Thor's first seizure.
His heart was not pumping the blood correctly,
resulting in clotting and eventual failure.
Luckily I was visiting Montreal last week,
when the cat cardiologist explained
his heart was in such bad shape that he could more or less die any day.
Instead of risking a stroke like seizure that could be incredibly painful
and leave him paralyzed,
we decided to put him sweetly to sleep as the seizures increased.

Pet love is from another dimension of the cosmos.
All they want is love (and food) and that is what they give.

I dedicate this Valentines day,
to Thor's heart,
and to anyone who has ever loved an animal (including a human) to death.

xMAdMx

wild horse...

2008-01-12T09:56:00.000-08:00

... and me.
the beauty you see when exploring abandoned houses.

love to thee

xMAdMx

2008

2008-01-02T21:39:00.000-08:00

time time time

snow, friends, fireworks and HA HA called in the new year.
this even number of a new yearly home feels yummy.

love love love

Isis, Queen of the Throne.
a feline survivor chose a new home in my heart.
magic eyes, part wild, part alien,
in the spirit of ancient myth,
she gives all.

our lives are framed by time and love.
greetings from mine to yours

xMAdMx

introduce yourselves HERE please ...

2007-11-13T10:56:00.000-08:00

http://www.xmadmx.com/hunters.html

new info collector.
post crooked ancient world of copy and paste.
let the machine do IT.
xMAdMx

suspect.....

2007-10-26T20:28:00.000-07:00

...as you do, i have been out of the loop with you...
far too long.

yes there is a climax trying to wrap up the project,
and getting a small teaser out to you...
most of you have come into contact with xmadmx....
i promise there is FAR more.
i am onto the serious next phase:
HOW CAN I SHARE THIS WHOLE HEARTEDLY WITH YOU????
i am hatching a plan.
it will slowly unfold.
i am thankful for your patience, and perseverance.

there will be some explosive chemistry exchanges in 2008.
those of you here first (yes, you) will get entangled foremost.
i have an experimental plan of how to make this EXCHANGE.

to begin, would you please leave me your email addresses....
i know this is crooked, and i don't have a "mailing list" section,
but i'd like to start a log book of my visitors,
so you are sure to be notified when the GAMES begin.

if you can post a comment, leave your contact please.

i saw my soul hero morrissey tonight.
i cried twice,
and freaked the guy next to me when i had to share
"that was my high school yearbook quote"
during "stretch out and wait"

wow. thank you universe.
thank you fellow humans.
we have a lot to live for.
i am emerging from my creative cocoon daily.
on my way.
stay in touch.
long for more!
xMAdMx

101

2007-08-30T15:39:00.000-07:00

post #101
this intimate cyber dialogue began in winter of 2005
post my 189 shows in 2004 for my first album
it has been a long time coming for sharing beyond here.
i am itching to do soooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
i am closer to a place where i could climb out of this cave of creation,
but there are still so many grey bows to tie and red ribbons to cut through.

the tiny teaser has given you a tease........
eat that for now,
but most of all, enjoy the last days of summer
(except for you guys and gals down under!)

how fucking good does it feel to be alive?

xMAdMx

sneak peak please

2007-08-03T11:06:00.000-07:00

www.xmadmx.com

coast...

2007-07-16T17:59:00.000-07:00

...to coast, long and fun.
the west coast is the host of the most for several creative stages.
the sounds, visuals and concepts,
are living large in this cocoon of OOOM.
bursting at the weaved seams,
bleeding to tease and please.

xo

xMAdMx

WELDING...

2007-06-10T12:26:00.000-07:00

...IT TOGETHER

WELDING,
SOLDERING,
GLUING,
EDITING,
CONCEIVING,
MAKING,
PIECE BY PIECE.

COMING TOGETHER
ON MY WAY...

xMAdMx