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Receiving is hard!

2009-12-21T05:11:00.003+05:30

All my life, I have given love. To my parents, to puppies, to my husband, to my kids, to friends and to random strangers. I am trying to condition myself to receive, and you have to really break a lot of ego boundaries to receive...

Struggling to understand how to receive graciously, humbly, lovingly...

Would love your advice!

Love,
Jhilmil

Yogi Tea Recipe!

2009-12-16T02:48:00.000+05:30

At Yoga Yoga in Austin, Texas, students are served a delicious yogi tea (also called chai) after each class. The recipe they use comes from Yogi Bhajan, who introduced Kundalini to the west in the late 1960s. Yogi Bhajan is also the founder of the "Yogi Tea" brand, which is easy to find in health food stores. It's very simple to make this tea at home and it fills your house with its wonderful aroma.

Prep Time: 00:05 Cook Time: 03:00

Ingredients:
2 quarts water
15 whole cloves
20 black peppercorns
3 sticks of cinnamon
20 whole cardmon pods (split the pods first)
8 fresh ginger slices (1/4" thick, no need to peel)
1/2 teaspoon regular or decaf black tea leaves (approximately 1 tea bag)
Dairy or soy milk and honey or maple syrup to taste

Preparation:
Bring two quarts of water to a boil. Add cloves and boil one minute. Add cardamom, peppercorns, cinnamon, and ginger. Cover and boil for 30 minutes. Reduce heat and simmer for two to three hours. Remove from heat, add black tea, and let cool. Strain and store in the refrigerator. Reheat when you want a cup and add milk and honey to taste.

Recipe courtesy of Yoga Yoga.

Excessive Force... from the about.com blog

2009-11-24T17:58:00.005+05:30

I was forcibly locked up for 46 days in New Delhi, India, by my parents and husband for being a little abusive in a stressful situation. 10 policemen came and dragged me to a mental facility. It was the single most traumatic and devastating period of my life and I live now in fear of being locked up again. To be locked up, abused, violated and punished by people you love and trust is the biggest form of betrayal. I don't care what they were thought, and what advice they were given by the medical fraternity. I still have nightmares and fears of being locked up again, and I have to live with that in my bipolar head...

I hope this makes some families consider their actions when they feel they are acting in the best interest of their bipolar disordered loved ones. What we need most is love and understanding. Lack of that makes us go more crazy...

Love,
Jhilmil

Read what is on the Bipolar Disorder blog today from about.com

Excessive Force?
Tuesday November 24, 2009
That's what the family of Michael J. Gibson is saying after a San Francisco Bay Area Rapid Transit (BART) officer shoved him into a window of a train station, breaking the glass and injuring both. According to The Raw Story, Gibson has been charge with "felony battery of a police officer, obstructing and resisting an officer, disorderly conduct and public intoxication." Gibson's sister, however, says the officer was way out of line, and that her brother suffers from "bipolar disorder and schizophrenia."
The incident was caught by a passenger with a cell phone and the video posted on YouTube, where it gained widespread attention. (Warning: there is a lot of foul language in the video.)

It is plain from the video that Gibson was out of line, and that the officer could not have determined the man was mentally ill. Regardless, it appears to me that there was absolutely no reason for the officer to slam Gibson into the glass. And would the officer have treated Gibson differently if he had known about the man's mental illness? What do you think?
~Marcia

Dear Diary...

2009-11-21T04:40:00.003+05:30

So, as I decide I feel like writing today, there are no burning issues to discuss. It's just a simple peace, a happy existence, and a feeling of pure love... is this why comedians and writers stay angry and full of angst so they can create?? Maybe. But I feel, at this time of peace, I am the most productive I have ever been. Just like what Goenka ji of Vipassana or Master Choa Kok Sui say... if you meditate, you become much more productive and people are just left gaping...

So, fellow lovers, meditators, yogis, and friends, what do you think? Are you truly living, laughing, loving? If not, why do you wait? Start living in the moment, meditate, look inward, become a witness, and live in bliss! And that is The Secret.

Love,
Jhilmil

An amazing letter to me from the author of the DaVinci Method

2009-11-13T04:24:00.001+05:30

Dear Jhilmil,

You are amazing. Many do not understand your bipolar nature; but
you can rest assured ...

The bipolar experience is no more than this:
A heroic soul born inhumanely sensitive,
desperately in need of true connection.

To you ... a touch is a blow, a misfortune is a tragedy,
a joy is an ecstasy, a friend is a lover, a daydream is a
premonition, strictness is suffocation, and completion is death.

Add to your brutally sensitive soul the overwhelming need to
heal, create, and transform -- so that without the outpouring
of honesty, the creating of music or poetry or something of
meaning your very breath is cut off ...

You must create, must pour out your entire being in each and
every encounter. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency you do
not feel truly alive unless you are risking everything through
your divine expression.

Thank you for having the courage to create ... to transform ...
to be ... in a way other souls don't.

For without your courage and your light
the world would grow listless and dull
and the rest of us who are like you
would not have your courageous acts
to inspire our own.

Rock on,
Garret LoPorto
Author of The DaVinci Method
www.DaVinciMethod.com
Twitter: twitter.com/garretloporto

The above message by Garret LoPorto was inspired by Pearl
Buck 's poetry.

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Intimacy, marriages and expectations

2009-11-03T20:07:00.003+05:30

Is it right to stay in a marriage just for the kids when all intimacy is gone?? This is the question I grapple with tonight as I have had a fun day with my stuff, done healing for a small child with a disability, and then been Mommy to my kids. At 8 pm, my husband walks in, much later than normal, with not a single call or explanation. He serves himself dinner and then takes it to the TV room. I ask him to sit with me but he wants to "relax'... I keep doing my work then...

What does all this mean? No intimacy, no sex, no cuddles, no talking... Is this what I have in store for me for the next 40 years? Looks pretty bleak to me.

Maybe this is what Kahlil Gibran meant when he talks of marriage?

Help me to figure this one out!

Love,
Jhilmil

On Marriage
Kahlil Gibran

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.

Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

Chronotherapy to Entrepreneurialism – Coping Strategies for Living with Bipolar Disorder

2009-10-03T01:41:00.000+05:30

For those with life-long illnesses such as bipolar disorder, coping strategies are vital for achieving and maintaining stability. However, Dr. Charles Raison, a Psychiatrist at Emory University Medical School, hits the nail on the head when he comments that "bipolar disorder is too difficult to succumb to any single type of 'magic bullet.'" And this is why we see coping strategies as varied and different as the individuals who have this disorder.
Dr. Raison discusses the pros and difficulties of keeping a routine to help control bipolar symptoms. "I have personally had great luck with using routines (or more formally chronotherapy) to help people with bipolar disorder. One of the sickest patients I ever cared for was able to completely turn her life around by committing deeply to establishing very strict routines that helped stabilize her sleep."

Margaux Salcedo, with Sunday Inquirer Magazine, reports that Jetro, owner of the Van Gogh is Bipolar restaurant in Quezon City in the Philippines, has found his solution in food. "Diagnosed as being bipolar since he was young and having experienced medication that made him feel worse, he began experimenting with his diet, cooking with ingredients that made him happy and avoiding food that would lead him to spiral into depression." He has taken his coping strategy and turned it into his business.

His menu is comprised of cuisine named after celebrities who have bipolar disorder. There is an Axl Rose Egg Shot, a Sting Hot Cherry Potato and Larry Flynt's Cabbage Experience. And of course, Van Gogh rice.

Do you have any solid or unique coping strategies for living with bipolar disorder? ~Kimberly
(from the about.com newsletter)

Like Water For Chocolate

2009-09-30T02:41:00.005+05:30

Many years ago, I read this book. It is a love story of a life long love between Pedro and Tita, set in Mexico. Each chapter begins with a recipe and as Tita cooks it, the food takes on her mood. Like if she is weeping when cooking because her heart is breaking for Pedro, when the guests eat the food, they all start crying inconsolably too!! I loved that book when I read it and am going to go and buy 5 copies tomorrow to give to the ladies who are coming to the Karma Pies Chocolate Lovers Morning!

So, today, at 2:30 am, while I was making Karma Pies first batch of chocolates, dark chocolate, some plain and some with walnut centers, I was weeping. Just weeping for possibilities, choices, and also for gratitude for the abundance in my life.

I wonder if the people who eat them tomorrow will also weep like the people who ate Tita's desserts?!!

Love,
Jhilmil

Editorial Reviews (from Amazon)

From Publishers Weekly
Each chapter of screenwriter Esquivel's utterly charming interpretation of life in turn-of-the-century Mexico begins with a recipe--not surprisingly, since so much of the action of this exquisite first novel (a bestseller in Mexico) centers around the kitchen, the heart and soul of a traditional Mexican family. The youngest daughter of a well-born rancher, Tita has always known her destiny: to remain single and care for her aging mother. When she falls in love, her mother quickly scotches the liaison and tyrannically dictates that Tita's sister Rosaura must marry the luckless suitor, Pedro, in her place. But Tita has one weapon left--her cooking. Esquivel mischievously appropriates the techniques of magical realism to make Tita's contact with food sensual, instinctual and often explosive. Forced to make the cake for her sister's wedding, Tita pours her emotions into the task; each guest who samples a piece bursts into tears. Esquivel does a splendid job of describing the frustration, love and hope expressed through the most domestic and feminine of arts, family cooking, suggesting by implication the limited options available to Mexican women of this period. Tita's unrequited love for Pedro survives the Mexican Revolution the births of Rosaura and Pedro's children, even a proposal of marriage from an eligible doctor. In a poignant conclusion, Tita manages to break the bonds of tradition, if not for herself, then for future generations.
Copyright 1992 Reed Business Information, Inc. --This text refers to the Hardcover edition.

Positive People and Money...

2009-09-27T00:52:00.006+05:30

I know this person, Ms. X. She has come into my life recently. And though she calls herself a yogini, she is so money minded and petty... What is that all about I wonder? How can you be so mean, so negative, and so obsessed with money and on the other hand, talk about empowerment, the power of positive thought and transformation?

I don't get it. But maybe that is just me. Maybe that is her work persona, what she would like people to believe and she is actually petty, insecure, and mean within.

Oh well, blogged it out, and got it off my chest! I'll write something more interesting in a bit.

Love,
Jhilmil

To Live in Fear...

2009-09-25T02:42:00.005+05:30

I wonder how many people live like I am living now. To be scared that anything they say will be the trigger needed for their family to lock them up. 2 years ago, when I was locked up in Vimhans, a psychiatric facility and worse than a mental asylum for those who do not know, I saw many women sent to Vimhans as a punishment for not being "good wives". There was an older woman there, Radhika, whose husband would just send her there every year for months on end. Money was obviously not a problem for them, and this woman was so gentle, so sad, and so bewildered at being locked up for months on end. The doctors would come and ask me every day, "do you feel guilty yet?" And though initially, I used to say No, later I started saying Yes, just hoping that maybe if I could fool the doctors into thinking I was a "surrendered wife", they would let me go home.

For 2 years, I have been grateful for life's simple pleasures. A shower in a bathroom I can lock (even the bathrooms there are not private...). A cup of tea brewed my way on my pretty balcony overlooking an old neem tree. A morning hug from Liam every morning as if he has not seen me for years!!

But now I question, all this at what cost? At the cost of truly being free? Because I am constantly evaluating the words that come out from my mouth. There is a constant mental dialogue in my head and I am scared of speaking because I am terrified of being locked up.

What do you think? Is it good to live in fear? Is it worth it for the sake of making your family happy to not be true to yourself? And should I keep putting up with being put down just because I have bipolar disorder and others don't? I don't put people down if they have diabetes or high blood pressure. Why should people feel they can put me down just because I am bipolar???

Love,
Jhilmil

PS: Shopping for a better psychologist and psychiatrist I can trust, hate Dr Nagpal at Vimhans... though my husband loves him! Should we see psychiatrists for us or for our families???

Baking is like Meditation

2009-09-24T04:52:00.003+05:30

3 am in the Karma Kitchen...

Take flour out, take out zucchini, start grating, start beating eggs...all done so mindfully and consciously it turns into meditation.

What is meditation? Not the mindless chanting of some mantras or staring fixedly at a point while your mind wanders in all different directions. Meditation is being so engrossed in the activity that you block everything else out... like I heard the Dalai Lama say at a talk I was fortunate enough to attend. How do you eat an orange and turn it into meditation? When you are peeling the orange, just think about that action. As you eat each slice, just think about the taste, the texture and how the orange feels in your mouth. Don't let your mind wander. And that is meditation!

So, fellow travelers on this searching journey, meditate. It is so good for you! And it does not have to be a spiritual or religious meditation which most people try. When you run, just run. When you eat, just eat. And when you play, just play.

Simple? Maybe not... but with practice you'll love it.

In the zone. Focused. Sure. Everything else in your life will start seeming so easy...

Love,
Jhilmil

PS: Check out this interesting yoga class: baking like meditation!
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September 7, 2009 · Filed Under Living Yoga

Bread baking…a quiet meditation

September 4, 2009 · Filed Under Living Yoga · Comment

Back again this fall- our popular breadbaking as meditation workshop.

Noodle Zoo will share their kitchen Zen Sept 28 at 7pm. The workshop will begin with hands on mixing and kneading of dough and then proceed to relaxing yoga stretches and meditation while the loaves rise. After baking, we will break bread together and spend time reflecting on the transformative process of creating bread and the possible parallels to life itself.
Baking not only demands concentration and presence but also offers a bit of sanctuary. The process of making bread creates a shift in awareness, becoming absorbed- not thinking of yesterday or tomorrow- but giving your attention to the bread, focusing on the dough in your hands.

call Sandy 515-210-8138 or email sandy@balanceyogalounge.com
(limited to 8 participants)

Our Goddess Group Coffee Morning!

2009-09-23T05:22:00.002+05:30

10 am, Cafe Turtle.

Tania and Lora and I had arranged to meet... What a delightful morning it was! Tania, so spiritual and so conscious of the goddess and the shakti within, Lora so completely unaware, and me in between the two. Over coffees and my drink (Fountain of Youth!! a combo of fresh pineapple juice and coconut water), we whiled two hours away.

Talking about magic, crystals, beauty, men, food... all the stuff women like to share and chat about and which men are clueless about, we revelled in our Goddess Group morning.

Have set up to meet again next Wednesday, and we've all written Goddess Group in our planners!! Can't wait, look out world, the power of three Goddesses is being unleashed!!!

Love,
Jhilmil

Feeling trapped...

2009-09-22T04:18:00.002+05:30

I am slightly manic. Okay, so I know that. I love the deliciousness of mania. I love the energy and the boundless enthusiasm, the flavours and smells that seem more enhanced, the colours of life.

But why is it that my family hates it? Why do they keep threatening to "take me to the doctor"... concern is one thing. But I am being careful and watchful. A good mother and wife and entrepreneur. Why do they only want to "take me to the doctor" when I am slightly manic? Why not when I feel quiet and suicidal??

Families the world over use hospitals and doctors like an invisible sword hanging over people like me. And we are so terrified of being locked up again that we bow under and bite our words and hide our delight at being manic.

I think it is a crime. To live constantly looking over our shoulders, to not be ourselves because husband and watchman does not approve...

What do you think?? Write in with your thoughts, at least I'll feel I'm not alone.

Love,
Jhilmil

Delicious Mania

2009-08-19T08:00:00.002+05:30

After 2 years of feeling stable, boring, and slightly depressed, delicious mania is gradually seeping in. I am watchful, aware, meditative, as I play with mania. So it's enough just to have a little fun, but not so much that it takes me into an avalanche of destruction.

I think awareness, more than medicine, is the key to staying well. Just knowing symptoms, and then being watchful, is better than gulping down tons of medicine to numb you from either the highs and lows. And while Depakote, the medicine I have been prescribed is good for "controlling" mania (read keep a person low), it does nothing for helping with depression and getting you up when you feel down. So why is it called a mood stabilizer? It should work both ways, right...?? I think families and doctors care more about keeping a happy person down than getting an unhappy person up.

What do you think? Have you any experiences with Depakote you'd like to share? And isn't the start of mania deliciously divine??

Love,
Jhilmil

Bipolar Disorder: A Shame?

2009-05-06T10:55:00.004+05:30

I have always been open about being bipolar. I have often liked some aspects of being bipolar, the creative surges, the amazing energy of mania... I read today a post by NightandDay on another website and thought I would share it with you. What do you think?

Enjoy,
Jhilmil

From: http://forums.about.com
NightandDay (KindraLH)
Posted: Apr 28 09 05:16 PM
Message: 60722.1 (1 of 11)

I'm young (and perhaps some will say "dumb" after hearing what I have to say) and bipolar.

[I should preference the following by saying that this came across as aggressive and angry and I WHOLEHEARTEDLY did not mean it that way and it is NOT in response to anything that was said or mentioned on this board, it is a little bit of a "pissy" outburst about something that I read and heard somewhere else and I just had to yell my sentiments "from the mountain top" or I thought I was going to explode!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry to anyone who may feel a personal attack or be offended by my harsh/cutting words or tenor. That is not my intention.

I would also suggest that if you are in a low or vulnerable state you should probably refrain from reading on. I'll probably regret the whole thing tomorrow (most likely later today); I tend to be a little hot under the collar and most definitively impulsive (imagine that!).]

I hear many people speak of the stigma surrounding it and the shame they have about this disorder. They often say that they keep it to themselves because they fear repercussions or being viewed as somehow different and “defective”. Many speak about how mental illness is not viewed on the same level as a “real” disease, something with an intrinsically physical nature and cause, and how this makes us feel a measure of disgrace that sufferers of those other diseases and illnesses do not feel.

For those of you arguing that people with cancer, heart conditions, more "tradition" physical illnesses do not feel ashamed you may want to ask one of them about that sometime. For the former beauty queen who now has to walk around with a completely bald head do you think there is no personal shame? Certainly, none should be necessary, just as with us, and she should be applauded for her courageous battle, and with “most” people she is, but, more often than not, she still feels embarrassed every time she walks outside her door and feels the breeze hit her naked head.

For my athlete friend who has spent nearly all of his adult life (he turns 70 this year) as a long distance runner and has always prided himself on his 45 beats per minute at rest heart rate, do you think he feels no embarrassment about the fact that one day, on a simple warm-up run, he had a serious heart-attack and nearly died? He could barely breathe yet insisted that everything was fine and that he didn’t need to go to the hospital. In the end (after open heart surgery) the surgeons confirmed that the ONLY reason he was still alive was his excellent physical condition. He had a strong family history of heart trouble and had done everything within his power to avoid dealing with such a situation, but that was not enough, and now he feels like a failure. He has told me more than once that he feels a distinct pang of humiliation each time he looks at his running shoes, gets his Runner’s World magazine, or hears about a local marathon. It’s a disappointment in himself and, for some foolish reason, his character that he has absolutely no reason to carry, but he does and always will.

How about the heterosexual man with HIV? “I don’t have that...it’s a “gay” disease!” How many of them do you think tell even their closest guy friends that they have it? How many tell prospective sexual partners? Unfortunately, not as many as you would hope!

Nearly everyone who has an illness feels some form of shame at some point in time; the real trouble comes when society as a whole backs this personal feeling up. Most of the time society’s ignorance plays a major role in dictating what is a shameful or “acceptable” condition. You must remember, it was not that long ago that MOST people viewed many of the widely accepted and understood illnesses of today as something to be kept hush-hush and only shared with others on a need to know basis. The simple reason that those societal views changed is that those struggling with whatever the illness may have been spoke out, told their friends, family and co-workers, demanded recognition, organized parades, spoke to congress, and did all the things that generations before them, seeking equal rights and respect, had done in order to combat stigma. As of now, mental illness is one of the last vestiges of such rampant ignorance and stigma and it will not end until we stand up with one voice and say that we may “have” this or “be” this or “am” this or “suffer from” this or be “diagnosed with” this or “deal with” this but that we are not any different than any other person who contends with ANY disease.

Many of you, especially those who have battled this cruel disease for much longer than I, gone undiagnosed for years, burned bridges at every passing, reducing your life to ash and rubble, lived through archaic treatments that often left you sicker than when you started, and confronted the uneducated paranoia of those around you simply may not have the desire or strength to fight the “stigma machine” that continually churns out a new crop of people who only garner their understanding of mental illness from sensationalized news headlines or Hollywood movies that usually focus on the worst of the worst and forget the “average” loony. I respect that and will not prod you to go any farther than you feel comfortable, you have earned the right to do what will and I have absolutely NO right to even suggest otherwise.

On the other hand, I, and many of my generation, still hold on to a hope (perhaps naively) that we can make a difference. We still have the drive to yell it from the mountain tops that we “have/are/suffer from/deal with/are diagnosed with” bipolar, or any of the more colorful terms that we may want to use. You may want to grab me before I run out into the street, but please don’t; if enough of us run out together the traffic will HAVE to stop! I won’t ask anyone else to do it, so I’ll take the risk and be the first “lemming” off the cliff.

In this vein, I should say, that I already do many activist things. The first (and most effective in my opinion) of which is speaking with nearly 2,000 college students in an academic year. I am young enough that they see me as a peer, someone who could be their sister, dorm mate, girlfriend, cousin, classmate, or any other girl walking down the street who may share their interests, lifestyle, hopes, dreams, and experiences. They could easily be standing right next to me in the fruit isle and ask me how to tell if a melon is ripe and they would have NO idea that I have spent months in the “puzzle house”, seen, heard, and felt things that were absolutely NOT real, and done, thought, and experienced things that they could never imagine. I am a “real” person who leads a “real” life and I am a perfect example of the “reality” of people with a mental illness.

I can articulate what it’s like to stare down the barrel of a gun and pray with all your might that it will NOT misfire, to scream and thrash about and let out the basest guttural cry of desolation about waking up and finding yourself still alive, to find yourself a month or two later incarcerated against your will and being held by people wearing hospital uniforms and talking in hushed voices, but whose faces seem strangely distorted and who you just know, no feel, are planning something against you, who won’t make any sense, and who insist that there is something wrong with you, that you must take these pills, that if you don’t you won’t ever be normal and you won’t ever go home. I know what it’s like to be pumped full of so much medication that a horse would not be able to stand and still look the orderlies defiantly in the eye, yelling obscenities, and daring them to come get you while wielding a chair, to have a pile of daily medication so deep that you can’t actually see your own hand when holding it, to spend $10,000 in the course of a day and have absolutely nothing to show for it except a credit card bill that you can’t pay.

I’ve seen the terror on my friends’ faces as they watch me break onto the roof of a building and attempt to jump off and the disappointment in my parents’ eyes as all my hopes and dreams (their hopes and dreams for me) slip between my fingers. I’ve watched the tears stream down my mother’s cheeks and my father’s resolute stare as long term hospitalization and commitment is suggested, resisted, and then discussed. I know this, I’ve lived this, and I have absolutely no qualms telling anyone about this.

I won’t ever escape these horrors of my past or the uncertainty of my future, but they are something that I do have to offer to others who will never, by God’s grace, have to face them and who may take my story and watch the man living under the bridge, washing car windows for spare change, or pushing a cart full of cans down the street and know that someone like me, someone who for all intents and purposes looks and acts mostly normal most of the time, is just one hair’s breath away from being that person. I tell them that, although I was sick I was not THAT sick, until I was a freshman in college. In the matter of a month I went from someone with an emotional problem, perhaps a little moody, someone a little chaotic but mostly dependable, together, and fun to be around, to an unrecognizable mess of psychotic frenzy. I want them to know, however scary the thought may be, that they, or the person sitting next to them, could be me and not even know it.

Bipolar I w/psychosis: Abilify 45mg, Depakote ER 2500mg, Lamictal 200mg, Seroquel XR 600mg

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. Robert Frost

So Many Lonely People!

2009-04-28T15:49:00.002+05:30

I am suddenly bombarded by requests to heal people. Like I was hibernating, and have suddenly awakened to this spring of people needing healing. And the healer in me really wants to respond... but I'm being cautious.

So I'm gently sending them healing and pink light and love, nothing major because of the promise I made to my husband to stop healing. Just gentle healing and wellness.

And it feels great! I hope I can help them and make them feel better.

Snow in Summer?

2009-04-23T17:17:00.004+05:30

As I was driving home in the afternoon today, I was struck by the beauty of freshly fallen cotton bolls flying through the air. It looked like a snowstorm in the sweltering heat...

Oh, to be free like that. To just float where the wind takes us... Seemed like a beautiful thing, to just flow with life. Maybe we should all take a lesson from that simple cotton boll, just flow.

Bipolar or not, happy or sad, just flow. Beautiful. Simple. Perfect.

A Morning At An Aurobindo Retreat

2009-04-23T08:01:00.003+05:30

For several weeks, my friend Namita*, has been saying she'd love to show me the Gnostic Centre, where she volunteers. Finally the day comes, and we meet at her charming home in Gurgaon. Sitting among her lovely plants, sipping cooling ginger lemon (made at the Aurobindo Gnostic Centre), her Golden Labrador nuzzling me, I wondered what could be better...

And then we went to the Centre. Set inside a stud farm somewhere in Gurgaon, we passed through various security gates. And then the car stopped. Birds, the fragrance of the flowers, it was as if we had left Delhi and its suburbs and reached paradise. She showed me around. A beautiful meditation hall where the ashes of Sri Aurobindo are kept—I silently bowed my head and made a simple prayer to keep my family, my loved ones, and everyone well and happy. A library so peaceful that it made you want to delve into the books. A gym looked strangely out of place, but there were people using it... A beautiful room which would have shamed my yoga teacher's pretty nice yoga studio... but no one using it.

A cafe called Alchemy where we sipped freshly brewed iced tea after a small meditation.

A perfect morning with a lovely friend!

*Name changed.

Everyday Grace

2007-11-28T11:18:00.000+05:30

After two months of my husband being very unwell (dengue) and then me needing hospitalization for my bipolar disorder, I have decided this morning that I will be grateful. For the simplest of life's pleasures. A shower in my own bathroom. Breakfast that I cook to my own taste, not some hospital food. A luxurious phone call with a friend. Things that I always took for granted... things to relish now.

Simplicity. Freedom. Everyday Grace. Thank you, everyone who sent me prayers and wishes, I needed them all...

I'm happy to be back!

Love,
Jhilmil

Feature Article - Enhance Your Life with Gratitude

2007-11-20T07:31:00.000+05:30

Many of us underestimate the power of gratitude. As we constantly strive to add more and more to our lives it is easy to forget about being grateful for things and talents we already possess. Making gratitude a habit will enrich your whole outlook on life, even in the most turbulent circumstances.

What we focus on grows. The more we focus on what we appreciate, the more we will have to appreciate!

Gratitude is a learned skill that must be practiced daily to develop its full potential. Practicing gratitude does not require elaborate rituals or a huge amount of spiritual awareness; simply taking a few moments to note every time something goes right is enough.

At first this may take a conscious effort, but as the habit takes root, seeing things to be thankful for becomes as natural as breathing.

Although grateful people tend to be happier people, being grateful is not the same as being happy. When life is turning out all wrong, being grateful allows you to focus on that ray of sunshine coming through. It allows you to take an honest look at a situation and say, "even in this there is reason to hope."

Do not confuse being grateful with settling for less. Gratitude should never interfere with your efforts to improve and grow. Expressing gratitude simply gives you a better outlook on life, making it easier to attract the true happiness you deserve. By focusing attention on what is going right, more things work out for the best.

Be grateful even for the trials in life. Your trials are what made you the person you are today. It is those very same trials that you strong enough to cope with the difficulties in life.

Grateful people have a way of looking at the misfortunes and failures in their lives and turning them into opportunities. These opportunities may not be readily apparent at first, but when the pain and frustration have passed, there they are. Every cloud has a silver lining if only we take the time to look.

Enhance your life. Take a few moments right now and actively notice things you can be grateful for. In the spirit of Thanksgiving, pass the gratitude forward. True gratitude involves action. Make a gift. Give your time. Listen to someone in need. Embrace gratitude as a habit!

© 2007 Francine Allaire

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On Indian Parenting

2007-11-14T10:42:00.000+05:30

Do Indian parents think they have the right to still be controlling our lives even when we are almost 40? I just do not get it...

What do think?

Write in to me, I am finally back from Rehab (bipolar disorder type 1)... 43 days being locked up (on my father's whim was not a pleasure).

Love,
Jhilmil

More thoughts on freedom...

2007-09-27T16:37:00.001+05:30

Jhilmil Breckenridge
to jaideep
More options 4:36 pm (0 minutes ago)
Sure, Jaideep, I am a tough cookie to deal with. Just as I respect
your views, it would be nice to do the same to mine, however crazy my
views may be!

I believe in dreaming... and maybe making a positive difference. We
cannot choose who our neighbours are (aka Pakistan, China, etc.) but
we can control how we as a nation view them.

No one is forgetting Dr Kalia, it is after all his son's tragic
killing which led to the two of us discussing this issue... maybe one
day we will meet and enjoy understanding our different viewpoints.

With love,
Jhilmil
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On 9/27/07, jaideep ghosh wrote:
> Hi,
>
> I think it is difficult to explain to someone who cannot distinguish between
> Nationalism
> and religious patriotism. As for fanning this Hindutva issue, considering
> that you
> broaced the topic, I fail to see where I come into the picture. After all,
> it is you who brought this
> Hindutva question on. No one is condemning Pakistan as a nation, but a
> military dictatorship
> is hardly an ideal neighbour to have, especially considering the cost to our
> youth in terms of
> life and our economy in terms of money. Also, if someone went on TV in
> Pakistan and said 'Hindu first,
> Pakistani later', he'd be shot and/or lynched.
>
> No borders, no religion, no wars is a idealistic situation, which will
> happen by the next ice age, hopefully.
>
> Making the world a better place sounds great. I would start with India, and
> maybe try to get some closure
> for Dr. Kalia, who seems to be forgotten in this swathe of idealism.
>
> Cheers
>
>
>
>
> On 9/27/07, Jhilmil Breckenridge wrote:
> > Thanks Jaideep.
> >
> > I understand you feel you are not spreading Hindutva, but this fanning
> > of our patriotism and condemning a country like Pakistan, whether you
> > want to or not, will spread a religous patriotism, akin to Hindutva,
> > no?
> >
> > I believe in world peace and love for all. No boundaries, no
> > religion, no politics, no war.
> >
> > You have your role models, I have mine. Together, we can try and make
> > the world a better place.
> >
> > With my love, and with One Heart,
> > Jhilmil
> >
> >
> >
> > On 9/26/07, jaideep ghosh wrote:
> > > Hi,
> > >
> > > I read them. Just a couple of things:
> > >
> > > 1. The issue was if that letter was spreading Hindutva. It wasn't.
> > >
> > > The rest are below:
> > >
> > > On 9/26/07, Jhilmil Breckenridge < jhilmilbreckenridge@gmail.com> wrote:
> > > > Hi Jaideep!
> > > >
> > > > Thanks for writing back. My comments are below...
> > > >
> > > > Love,
> > > > Jhilmil
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > On 9/26/07, jaideep ghosh < jdghosh@gmail.com> wrote:
> > > > > Dear Jhilmil,
> > > > >
> > > > > Hi. I have been to Pakistan also, and I have not heard any such
> stories.
> > > I'm
> > > > > sure they exist, and like I said, if you find any such 'martyrs', do
> let
> > > me
> > > > > know.
> > > >
> > > > Okay.
> > > >
> > > > > PS: This impression about not forgetting, I am pretty sure is
> likewise.
> > > >
> > > > Sure...
> > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > PPS: In a country where you can be assaulted and even killed for
> writing
> > > > > your opinion on something, where someone can come on national TV and
> say
> > > he
> > > > > is a Muslim first and an Indian later, where people are blown to
> bits
> > > from a
> > > > > distance for reasons that they have no knowledge about, or not
> concerned
> > > > > about, I'm sorry, Hindutva is not a only problem. But I guess it
> > > fashionable
> > > > > to be a 'liberal' and dump everything in one yard. As for these
> > > > > organisations, they too are pretty unnamed, and to quote you,
> 'perhaps
> > > you
> > > > > have done research on
> > > > > them...? Please do enlighten me. I am all ears'.
> > > > But what about our country where we pretend to be liberal and secular,
> > > > and we torch a Christian missionary and his 10 and 12 year old sons
> > > > sleeping in a jeep? What about Muslim women and girls being raped
> > > > enmasse to teach them a lesson???
> > >
> > >
> > > So what would you prefer, people being pulled out of buses, identified
> as
> > > Hindus,
> > > and then machinegunned? Or being surrounded like in Akshardham temple
> > > and then fired upon from four sides? There were 10-12 year olds there to
> > > but no one knows their names. Or is it OK to plant bombs in commuter
> > > trains and blow people to bits, or leave them maimed forever?
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > > > >
> > > > > PPPS: Great to know that you have four sons, and one of them wants
> to
> > > be a
> > > > > fighter pilot. Will wait to congratulate him when it happens. Dr
> Kalia
> > > had
> > > > > one son. That does not make the email inflammatory, by any stretch
> of
> > > > > imagination. It is about War Crimes and Human Rights, which I gather
> you
> > > > > reserve for select people. The power of God is to have a detonator
> in
> > > hand,
> > > > > and decide who lives and dies, and in this country, and outside,
> this
> > > power
> > > > > has been violated, time and time again, and we have been victims.
> God
> > > may
> > > > > forgive, but as Indians, it would be a sin to forget.
> > > > I am not asking you to forget, but forgiveness is important. Only
> > > > when we can forgive, can our healing start. I am a divine healer and
> > > > heal Hindus, Muslims, Christians, kind people, bad people, killers,
> > > > rapists, children, infants... I have no choice in who I heal. They
> > > > come to me and I heal them.
> > >
> > >
> > > I think for us people, who are the fringes, to talk of forgiveness is a
> bit
> > > silly.
> > > Ask the affected parties. It would be superhuman to expect them to be as
> > > charitable
> > >
> > > > >
> > > > > PPPPS: I am an atheist. I believe in being an Indian. You?
> > > > I am very much an Indian. Fiercely patriotic. My role models are
> > > > Gandhi and Mother Teresa. Yours??
> > >
> > >
> > > My role models are lesser mortals, people who are trying to live a good
> > > and decent lives, always under the threat of being blown up by some
> > > offshoot of our intense desire to be politically correct.
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > > > As far as religion goes, it's all muddled, but I do like to go to
> > > > Mehar Baba's samadhi near Pune when I find life a little harsh... For
> > > > the rest of the time, I live in Delhi.
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > On 9/26/07, Jhilmil Breckenridge
> wrote:
> > > > > > Thanks Jaideep. I have just been to Pakistan and many parents of
> such
> > > > > > martyrs have shared their stories and hearts with me. I will make
> > > > > > sure I keep you in the loop if I hear anything.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > With One Heart,
> > > > > > Jhilmil
> > > > > >
> > > > > > PS: You did not know me until yesterday, I think (else join me on
> > > > > > Facebook!). Now you will never forget me...
> > > > > >
> > > > > > PPS: I think Hindutva is the main problem in our country. So are
> the
> > > > > > so called missionaries who target Christians in Southern India,
> and
> > > > > > the honour conversions in Gujarat and the North East. I do not
> know
> > > > > > the name of such organisations, but perhaps you have done research
> on
> > > > > > them...? Please do enlighten me. I am all ears.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > PPPS: All my love and condolences are for the Kalia family. The
> loss
> > > > > > of a child (I have 4 sons, one of whom is determined to become a
> > > > > > fighter pilot...) must be the worst loss in the world. But that
> does
> > > > > > not give us the power to play God and send out inflammatory emails
> > > > > > like these. God will love. God will forgive. God will give
> grace.
> > > > > >
> > > > > > PPPPS: I believe in One World. One Heart. One God. You???
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > > > On 9/25/07, jaideep ghosh wrote:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Hi,
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Just a couple of questions and observations:
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > 1. Do I know you?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > 2. You think only Hindutva is damaging the country?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Also, this mail, spreading 'Hindutva', has been signed by Iqbal
> > > Ahmed,
> > > > > > > Murtuza Rohawala, Murutza Shiyazi, Leelamma Jose, Neetu Mathew,
> > > Praveen
> > > > > > > Varghese Isaac, Thomas P. Varghese, Koshi Thomas, HOMI J.
> > > TREASURYVALA,
> > > > > Cmde
> > > > > > > J Postwalla, Cdr JN Vivek Miranda, Joseph R Kishore, B. Barnabas
> > > Rex,
> > > > > > > Marinstine Fernando, abdullah siddique, saif tazir, anwar
> hussain (I
> > > > > have
> > > > > > > surely missed a few names), who, thankfully unlike you, tend to
> > > think
> > > > > that
> > > > > > > this is an issue of Human Rights (a luxury never ever forwarded
> to
> > > our
> > > > > > > soldiers and cops) and National pride.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > I fact, I think this is one of the most telling reflections of
> > > > > indignation,
> > > > > > > beyond religion, spread across India, and aborad.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > To answer you question, no I have no evidence to the contrary,
> but
> > > if
> > > > > you do
> > > > > > > come across any such mails, feel free to send it across, maybe
> I'll
> > > sign
> > > > > it
> > > > > > > too.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > As for forgiveness, I have met Dr. Kalia (Lt Saurabh's father).
> His
> > > > > son's
> > > > > > > body couldn't be brought home in an open casket because of the
> > > condition
> > > > > it
> > > > > > > was in. All of 22 years old. Which God is he to turn to, and
> what
> > > > > > > forgiveness can he afford?
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Best Wishes
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > Jaideep
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > >
> > > > > > > On 9/25/07, Jhilmil Breckenridge <
> jhilmilbreckenridge@gmail.com>
> > > wrote:
> > > > > > > > What proof do you all have that Indian army does not do all
> this
> > > and
> > > > > > > > worse to Pakistani soldiers?? I think this is a disgusting
> way to
> > > > > > > > spread Hindutva in our already damaged country!
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Please think before you all just sign these disgusting
> propaganda
> > > type
> > > > > > > emails.
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Love, and blessings be to all, and God, please forgive these
> 729
> > > > > > > > people, if you agree with my point of view...
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > Jhilmil
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > On 9/20/07, Vedika V < v.spirited@gmail.com> wrote:
> > > > > > > > > Dear Sir/Madam ,
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > SPARE 5-MINUTES from ur busy schedule .PLEASE !!!
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Lt. Saurabh Kalia of 4 JAT Regiment of the Indian Army laid
> down
> > > his
> > > > > > > > > life at the young age of 22 for the nation while guarding
> the
> > > > > > > > > frontiers at Kargil.
> > > > > > > > > His parents, indeed the Indian Army and nation itself,
> > > > > > > > > lost a dedicated, honest and brave son.
> > > > > > > > > He was the first officer to detect and inform about
> > > > > > > > > Pakistani intrusion. Pakistan captured him and his patrol
> party
> > > of 5
> > > > > > > > > brave men alive on May 15, 1999 from the Indian side of LOC.
> > > > > > > > > They were kept in captivity for three weeks and
> > > > > > > > > subjected to unprecedented brutal torture, evident from
> their
> > > bodies
> > > > > > > handed
> > > > > > > > > over
> > > > > > > > > by Pakistan Army on June 9, 1999.
> > > > > > > > > The Pakistanis indulged in dastardly acts of inflicting
> burns on
> > > > > these
> > > > > > > > > Indian officers with cigarettes, piercing their ears with
> hot
> > > rods,
> > > > > > > removing
> > > > > > > > > their eyes before puncturing them and breaking most of the
> bones
> > > and
> > > > > > > teeth.
> > > > > > > > > They even chopped off various limbs and private organs of
> the
> > > Indian
> > > > > > > > > soldiers besides inflicting unimaginable physical and mental
> > > > > torture.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > After 22 days of torture, the brave soldiers were ultimately
> > > shot
> > > > > dead.
> > > > > > > A
> > > > > > > > > detailed post-mortem report is with the Indian Army.
> Pakistan
> > > dared
> > > > > to
> > > > > > > > > humiliate India this way flouting all international norms.
> > > > > > > > > They proved the extent to which they can degrade humanity.
> > > However,
> > > > > the
> > > > > > > > > Indian soldiers did not break while undergoing all this
> > > unimaginable
> > > > > > > > > barbarism, which speaks volumes of their patriotism, grit,
> > > > > > > determination,
> > > > > > > > > tenacity and valour - something all of India should be proud
> of.
> > > > > > > > > Sacrificing oneself for the nation is an honour every
> soldier
> > > would
> > > > > be
> > > > > > > proud
> > > > > > > > > of, but no parent, army or nation can accept what happened
> to
> > > these
> > > > > > > brave
> > > > > > > > > sons of India. I am afraid every parent may think twice to
> send
> > > > > their
> > > > > > > child
> > > > > > > > > in the armed forces if we all fall short of our duty in
> > > safeguarding
> > > > > the
> > > > > > > > > PRISONERS OF WAR AND LET THEM MEET THE FATE OF LT.SAURABH
> KALIA.
> > > > > > > > > It may also send a demoralising signal to the army personnel
> > > > > fighting
> > > > > > > for
> > > > > > > > > the Nation that our POWs in Pak cannot be taken care of. It
> is a
> > > > > matter
> > > > > > > of
> > > > > > > > > shame and disgust that most of Indian Human Rights
> Organisations
> > > by
> > > > > and
> > > > > > > > > large, showed apathy in this matter.
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Through this humble submission, may I appeal to all the
> > > civilized
> > > > > people
> > > > > > > > > irrespective of colour, caste, region, religion and
> political
> > > > > lineage to
> > > > > > > > > stir their conscience and rise to take this as a NATIONAL
> ISSUE
> > > !!!
> > > > > > > > > International Human Rights Organizations must be approached
> to
> > > > > expose
> > > > > > > and
> > > > > > > > > pressure Pakistan to identify, book and punish all those who
> > > > > perpetrated
> > > > > > > > > this heinous crime to our men in uniform.
> > > > > > > > > If Pakistan is allowed to go unpunished in this case, we can
> > > only
> > > > > > > imagine
> > > > > > > > > the consequences.
> > > > > > > > > Below is the list of 5 other soldiers who preferred to die
> for
> > > the
> > > > > > > country
> > > > > > > > > rather than open their mouths in front of enemy -
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > 1. Sep. Arjun Ram s/o Sh. Chokka Ram; Village & PO
> > > > > > > > > Gudi. Teh. & Dist.
> > > > > > > > > Nagaur, (Rajasthan)
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > 2. Sep. Bhanwar Lal Bagaria h/o Smt. Santosh Devi;
> > > > > > > > > Village Sivelara;Teh.&
> > > > > > > > > Dist.Sikar (Rajasthan)
> > > > > > > > > 3. Sep. Bhikaram h/o Smt. Bhawri Devi; Village
> > > > > > > > > Patasar; Teh.
> > > > > > > > > Pachpatva;Distt.Barmer (Rajasthan)
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > 4. Sep. Moola Ram h/o Smt. Rameshwari Devi; Village
> > > > > > > > > Katori; Teh. Jayal;Dist.
> > > > > > > > > Nagaur(Rajasthan)
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > 5. Sep. Naresh Singh h/o Smt. Kalpana Devi; Village
> > > > > > > > > Chhoti Tallam;
> > > > > > > > > Teh.Iglab; Dist.Aligarh (UP)
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Yours truly,
> > > > > > > > > Dr. N.K. Kalia (Lt. Saurabh Kalia's father).
> > > > > > > > > Saurabh Nagar,
> > > > > > > > > Palampur-176061
> > > > > > > > > Himachal Pradesh
> > > > > > > > > Tel: +91 (01894) 32065
> > > > > > > > >
> > > > > > > > > Please sign in by writing your name and then copy and
> > > > > > > > > paste it again to forward it to your friends and relatives.
> Let
> > > us
> > > > > give
> > > > > > > a
> > > > > > > > > supporting hand to Dr. Kalia in his efforts to get justice.
> > > > > > > > > Remember, Lt. Kalia and his colleagues died on the front so
> that
> > > we
> > > > > > > could
> > > > > > > > > sleep peacefully in our homes.

I LOVE FREEDOM... but at what what cost???

2007-09-26T06:37:00.000+05:30

Vedika V
Dear Sir/Madam , SPARE 5-MINUTES from ur busy schedule .PLEASE !!! Lt. Saurab...
Sep 20 (6 days ago)

Jhilmil Breckenridge
What proof do you all have that Indian army does not do all this and worse to...
9:13 pm (9 hours ago)

jaideep ghosh
Hi, Just a couple of questions and observations: 1. Do I know you? 2. You thi...
10:43 pm (7 hours ago)

Jhilmil Breckenridge
to jaideep, Vedika, (bcc:rafeeuddin.ahm.), (bcc:durranin), (bcc:anushakhan), (bcc:karanseth83)
More options 6:24 am (9 minutes ago)

Thanks Jaideep. I have just been to Pakistan and many parents of such
martyrs have shared their stories and hearts with me. I will make
sure I keep you in the loop if I hear anything.

With One Heart,
Jhilmil

PS: You did not know me until yesterday, I think (else join me on
Facebook!). Now you will never forget me...

PPS: I think Hindutva is the main problem in our country. So are the
so called missionaries who target Christians in Southern India, and
the honour conversions in Gujarat and the North East. I do not know
the name of such organisations, but perhaps you have done research on
them...? Please do enlighten me. I am all ears.

PPPS: All my love and condolences are for the Kalia family. The loss
of a child (I have 4 sons, one of whom is determined to become a
fighter pilot...) must be the worst loss in the world. But that does
not give us the power to play God and send out inflammatory emails
like these. God will love. God will forgive. God will give grace.

PPPPS: I believe in One World. One Heart. One God. You???
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On 9/25/07, jaideep ghosh wrote:
>
> Hi,
>
> Just a couple of questions and observations:
>
> 1. Do I know you?
>
> 2. You think only Hindutva is damaging the country?
>
> Also, this mail, spreading 'Hindutva', has been signed by Iqbal Ahmed,
> Murtuza Rohawala, Murutza Shiyazi, Leelamma Jose, Neetu Mathew, Praveen
> Varghese Isaac, Thomas P. Varghese, Koshi Thomas, HOMI J. TREASURYVALA, Cmde
> J Postwalla, Cdr JN Vivek Miranda, Joseph R Kishore, B. Barnabas Rex,
> Marinstine Fernando, abdullah siddique, saif tazir, anwar hussain (I have
> surely missed a few names), who, thankfully unlike you, tend to think that
> this is an issue of Human Rights (a luxury never ever forwarded to our
> soldiers and cops) and National pride.
>
> I fact, I think this is one of the most telling reflections of indignation,
> beyond religion, spread across India, and aborad.
>
> To answer you question, no I have no evidence to the contrary, but if you do
> come across any such mails, feel free to send it across, maybe I'll sign it
> too.
>
> As for forgiveness, I have met Dr. Kalia (Lt Saurabh's father). His son's
> body couldn't be brought home in an open casket because of the condition it
> was in. All of 22 years old. Which God is he to turn to, and what
> forgiveness can he afford?
>
> Best Wishes
>
> Jaideep
>
>
>
>
> On 9/25/07, Jhilmil Breckenridge wrote:
> > What proof do you all have that Indian army does not do all this and
> > worse to Pakistani soldiers?? I think this is a disgusting way to
> > spread Hindutva in our already damaged country!
> >
> > Please think before you all just sign these disgusting propaganda type
> emails.
> >
> > Love, and blessings be to all, and God, please forgive these 729
> > people, if you agree with my point of view...
> >
> > Jhilmil
> >
> >
> >
> >
> >
> > On 9/20/07, Vedika V wrote:
> > > Dear Sir/Madam ,
> > >
> > >
> > > SPARE 5-MINUTES from ur busy schedule .PLEASE !!!
> > >
> > > Lt. Saurabh Kalia of 4 JAT Regiment of the Indian Army laid down his
> > > life at the young age of 22 for the nation while guarding the
> > > frontiers at Kargil.
> > > His parents, indeed the Indian Army and nation itself,
> > > lost a dedicated, honest and brave son.
> > > He was the first officer to detect and inform about
> > > Pakistani intrusion. Pakistan captured him and his patrol party of 5
> > > brave men alive on May 15, 1999 from the Indian side of LOC.
> > > They were kept in captivity for three weeks and
> > > subjected to unprecedented brutal torture, evident from their bodies
> handed
> > > over
> > > by Pakistan Army on June 9, 1999.
> > > The Pakistanis indulged in dastardly acts of inflicting burns on these
> > > Indian officers with cigarettes, piercing their ears with hot rods,
> removing
> > > their eyes before puncturing them and breaking most of the bones and
> teeth.
> > > They even chopped off various limbs and private organs of the Indian
> > > soldiers besides inflicting unimaginable physical and mental torture.
> > >
> > > After 22 days of torture, the brave soldiers were ultimately shot dead.
> A
> > > detailed post-mortem report is with the Indian Army. Pakistan dared to
> > > humiliate India this way flouting all international norms.
> > > They proved the extent to which they can degrade humanity. However, the
> > > Indian soldiers did not break while undergoing all this unimaginable
> > > barbarism, which speaks volumes of their patriotism, grit,
> determination,
> > > tenacity and valour - something all of India should be proud of.
> > > Sacrificing oneself for the nation is an honour every soldier would be
> proud
> > > of, but no parent, army or nation can accept what happened to these
> brave
> > > sons of India. I am afraid every parent may think twice to send their
> child
> > > in the armed forces if we all fall short of our duty in safeguarding the
> > > PRISONERS OF WAR AND LET THEM MEET THE FATE OF LT.SAURABH KALIA.
> > > It may also send a demoralising signal to the army personnel fighting
> for
> > > the Nation that our POWs in Pak cannot be taken care of. It is a matter
> of
> > > shame and disgust that most of Indian Human Rights Organisations by and
> > > large, showed apathy in this matter.
> > >
> > >
> > > Through this humble submission, may I appeal to all the civilized people
> > > irrespective of colour, caste, region, religion and political lineage to
> > > stir their conscience and rise to take this as a NATIONAL ISSUE !!!
> > > International Human Rights Organizations must be approached to expose
> and
> > > pressure Pakistan to identify, book and punish all those who perpetrated
> > > this heinous crime to our men in uniform.
> > > If Pakistan is allowed to go unpunished in this case, we can only
> imagine
> > > the consequences.
> > > Below is the list of 5 other soldiers who preferred to die for the
> country
> > > rather than open their mouths in front of enemy -
> > >
> > > 1. Sep. Arjun Ram s/o Sh. Chokka Ram; Village & PO
> > > Gudi. Teh. & Dist.
> > > Nagaur, (Rajasthan)
> > >
> > > 2. Sep. Bhanwar Lal Bagaria h/o Smt. Santosh Devi;
> > > Village Sivelara;Teh.&
> > > Dist.Sikar (Rajasthan)
> > > 3. Sep. Bhikaram h/o Smt. Bhawri Devi; Village
> > > Patasar; Teh.
> > > Pachpatva;Distt.Barmer (Rajasthan)
> > >
> > > 4. Sep. Moola Ram h/o Smt. Rameshwari Devi; Village
> > > Katori; Teh. Jayal;Dist.
> > > Nagaur(Rajasthan)
> > >
> > > 5. Sep. Naresh Singh h/o Smt. Kalpana Devi; Village
> > > Chhoti Tallam;
> > > Teh.Iglab; Dist.Aligarh (UP)
> > >
> > >
> > > Yours truly,
> > > Dr. N.K. Kalia (Lt. Saurabh Kalia's father).
> > > Saurabh Nagar,
> > > Palampur-176061
> > > Himachal Pradesh
> > > Tel: +91 (01894) 32065
> > >
> > > Please sign in by writing your name and then copy and
> > > paste it again to forward it to your friends and relatives. Let us give
> a
> > > supporting hand to Dr. Kalia in his efforts to get justice.
> > > Remember, Lt. Kalia and his colleagues died on the front so that we
> could
> > > sleep peacefully in our homes.
> > >
> > > PLEASE DON'T BREAK THE ONWARD MOVEMENT OF THIS MAIL.
> > > WE SEND ALL SORTS OF SILLY MAILS TO OUR FRIENDS WHICH
> > > COMPEL ONE TO FORWARD BY SAYING THAT IT MAY HARM YOU IF YOU WON'T DO SO.
> BUT
> > > HERE IT IS NOTHING LIKE THAT, IT WILL ONLY BE YOU WHO WILL FEEL
> > > SATISFIED IF YOU WILL CONTRIBUTE TO THE CAUSE.
> > > JAI HIND ....Victory to India !!
> > >
> > > (Add your name to the list and forward mail)
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > > 1 Prishi (Gurgaon, India)
> > > 2 Sudhir Singh (Pune, India)
> > > 3 Neha Sarode (Pune, India)
> > > 4 Sanjay H Shrotriya, Pune India
> > > 4 Vivek Apte Bangalore, India.
> > > 5 Virendra Mantri, Mumbai, India
> > > 6 Jayant Sardesai, Nagpur, India
> > > 7 Pratap Shinde, Nagpur, India.
> > > 8 Jaisingh Dhumal, Mumbai, India
> > > 9 Umesh Gaikwad, Mumbai,India
> > > 10 Mandat Aryenne, Mumbai, India
> > > 11 Santosh Sawant, Mumbai, India
> > > 12 Prashant Pandya, Mumbai, India
> > > 13 Dilip Gurav, Mumbai, India
> > > 14 N.V. Santosh, Mumbai, India
> > > 15 Sameer Narsapur, Mumbai, India
> > > 16 Rajeev Mahajan, Mumbai, India
> > > 17 Siddharth Lohia, Mumbai, India
> > > 18 Bibhash Jha, Mumbai, India.
> > > 19 Dhi rendra Jha, Pune, India
> > > 20 Gaurav Nagpal, Pune, India
> > > 21 Sachin Mehrotra, Pune, India
> > > 22 Sanjay, Bangalore, India.
> > > 23 Jothi Krishnan, Bangalore, India
> > > 24 PSB Bharath, Chennai, India
> > > 25 Vijeesh S, Chennai, India
> > > 26 Nimeesh, Chennai, India
> > > 27 Iqbal Ahmed, Kolkata, India
> > > 28 Sanchita Chanda, Chennai, India
> > > 29 Kaushik Borbora, Chennai, India
> > > 30 Priyanka Mishra, Bangalore, India
> > > 31 Amit Kumar Sinha, Bhubaneswar, India
> > > 32 Joydeep Mondal, Bhubaneshwar, India
> > > 33 Kaustub h Krishna Srivasta va, Pune, India
> > > 34 Shatrughan Tamaskar, Pune, India
> > > 35 Manjul Chawda, Pune, India
> > > 36 Vinit Puri, Pune, India
> > > 37 Vivek Goyal, Pune, India
> > > 38 Rajesh Kumar, Bangalore, India
> > > 39 Pramesh Mandraha, Bangalore, India
> > > 40 Indrajeet Singh, Hyderabad, India
> > > 41 Amit Kumar, Mumbai, India
> > > 42 Ashish Agarwal, Pune, India
> > > 43 Supriya, Pune, India.
> > > 44 Atul Jain, Indore, India.
> > > 45 Tanmay Singhal, Indore, India.
> > > 46 Ankur Agarwal, Mumbai, India
> > > 47 Murtuza Shiyaji, Mumbai, India
> > > 48 Murtuza Rohawala, Calcutta, India
> > > 49 Arti Syal, Chandigarh, India
> > > 50 Sheeja Bhaskaran, Bangalore, India
> > > 51 Homa Roy Choudhury, Bangalore India
> > > 52 Soumya Nanda Mohanty, Bangalore, India
> > > 53 Capt. Abhilash Sahoo
> > > 54 Rajat Madhok, UK
> > > 55 Himmat Singh, Delhi, India
> > > 56 Anuja Gill, Delhi, India
> > > 57 B rig. (Retd.) A. K. Sa nyal, VSM, Pune, India
> > > 58 Abhishek Amal Sanyal, Pune, India
> > > 59 Sudhir Jatar
> > > 60 Rahul Bhajekar, Thane, India
> > > 61 Atul S Pathak, Mumbai, India
> > > 62 S. Narayanan, Chennai, India
> > > 63 Capt. Suman Banerjee
> > > 64 Arjun Wallia, Delhi, India
> > > 65 Vivek N Gour, Gurgaon, India
> > > 66 Nidhi Sekhar, New Delhi, India
> > > 67 Priyanka Ray, Mumbai, India
> > > 68 Pragya Dayal, Delhi, India
> > > 69 Soumya Dayal, Delhi, India
> > > 71 Vandana Sehgal, Bangalore, India
> > > 72 Pooja Raswant, New Delhi, India.
> > > 73 Pronita Roy, New Delhi, India
> > > 74 Neeraj Gupta, New Delhi, India
> > > 75 Rajesh Sharma, Mumbai, India.
> > > 76 RS Anand, Mohali, India.
> > > 77 JR Sharma, Mohali, India
> > > 78 Manmohan Singh, Mohali, India
> > > 79 Ram Chet, Chandigarh, India
> > > 80 GS Bakshi, Chandigarh, India
> > > 81 Parminder, Chandigarh, India
> > > 82 JS Sethi, New Delhi, India
> > > 83; Navtej Singh, Kota, India
> > > 84 SS Dulat, Sangrur, India
> > > 85 Sudeesh Kumar, Kerala, India
> > > 86 Leelamma Jose, Kerala, India
> > > 87 Abilash Kumar, Kerala, India
> > > 88 JS Pannu, Amritsar, India
> > > 89 Lt. Col KS Sidhu, Retd, Amritsar, India
> > > 90 GS Dhaliwal, Ludhiana, India
> > > 91 Nitu Marwah, Germany
> > > 92 Ravi Sharma, Bottrop, Germany
> > > 93 MS Pannu, Chandigarh, India
> > > 94 Deepak Mehan, Chandigarh, India
> > > 95 Lt. Col GS Dhillon, Chandigarh, India
> > > 96 Lt. Col K C Singh, Chandigarh, India
> > > 97 Brig. Bhagwant Singh (Retd), Panchkula, India
> > > 98 Lt. Col Gurdev Singh (Retd), India
> > > 99 Lt. Col Sudesh Sharma, Chandigarh, India
> > > 100 NS Aulakh, Chandigarh,India
> > > 101 Gursimran Sandhu,Sacramento, USA
> > > 102 Sukhbir Singh, Sacramento, USA
> > > 103 Manjit Sandhu, Sacramento, USA
> > > 104 Inderpreet Sheina, Antioch, USA
> > > 105 Shalu Suri, Parwanoo, H.P , INDIA
> > > 106 Ashwani Sabharwal. Chandigarh, India.
> > > 107 RK Kakar, Bhopal, India
> > > 108 Anuradha Manna, Kolkata, India
> > > 109 Neha Nigam, New Delhi, India
> > > 110 Mamta Meena, New Delhi,India
> > > 111 Nalini Singh, Ranchi, India
> > > 112 Capt Malay Mishra , 4 JAT
> > > 113 Ruchi Mishra, TCS Gurgaon.
> > > 114 Neetu Mathew, TCS, Gurgaon
> > > 115 Nishtha Dwivedi, IBM PUNE
> > > 116 Shailesh Pandey, QA InfoTech, Noida
> > > 117 Prashant Gour NIC Pune
> > > 118 Narendra Singh Rajput NIC Pune
> > > 119 Rishi Sohaney, Quark, Chandigarh, India
> > > 120 Gagan Chawla
> > > 121 Rohit Kalia, Quark, Chandigarh
> > > 122 Sukhendra Ra i, HCL Technologies, Noida, India
> > > 123 Swati Agarwal, GE Capital, Gurgaon, India
> > > 124 Rahul Shanker Saxena, CMC Ltd, Delhi.
> > > 125 Ashish Tonk , CellNext Solution Ltd.
> > > 126 Bhupesh Pant, Pune, India.
> > > 127 Lokesh Malik, Delhi, India
> > > 128 Vijay Kr Rajput
> > > 129 Shubhangi Mishra, Noida
> > > 130 Nitin Goyal, Noida, India
> > > 131 Tavish Malhotra, Chennai, India
> > > 132 Anoop Chaturvedi, Chenn ai, India
> > > 133 Avdhesh Sharma, Chenna i, India
> > > 134 Krishna Kumar, Noida, India
> > > 135 Savita K B, Bangalore, India
> > > 136 Sandeep Singh, Delhi, India
> > > 137 Jaikishen Singh, Delhi, India
> > > 138 Amol Batra, Delhi, India
> > > 139 G Adityakiran, Delhi, India
> > > 140 H Natarajan, Mumbai, India.
> > > 141 Ruchi Srivastava, Mumbai, India.
> > > 142 Anju Sharma, Mumbai, India.
> > > 143 Nisha Chaube,Missouri,USA.
> > > 144 Frany Shah,Missouri,USA.
> > > 145 Alka Dharsandia, Surat, India.
> > > 146 Ketan Mandani, Mumbai, India
> > > 147 NARESH GURNANI,MUMBAI.
> > > 148 Ashish Bhageria, Mumbai.
> > > 149 Chirag Shah, Mumbai.
> > > 150 Kateel.Ajay.Kumar ,Kampala,Uganda.
> > > 151 K.V.Udaya Prakash, Wipro Bangalore, India
> > > 152 Yogesh B Kale - Wipro Bangalore - India.
> > > 153 Major AR Satish, Wipro Technologies, Gurgaon
> > > 154 Major Gaurav Arya, Wipro Technologies, Gurgaon
> > > 155 Disha Gutam, Wipro Technologies, Gurgaon
> > > 156 Shilpy Mittal, Wipro Technologies, Gurgaon
> > > 157 Shivani Katoch, TCS, Noida, U.P.
> > > 158 Ni tin Saxena,TCS ,Noida
> > > 159 Lakshmi Nara yanan K,TCS,B'lore
> > > 160 Kavith a S.Patil, TCS,B'lore
> > > 161 Amit Mohanty, TCS, Bangalore.
> > > 162 Vishnu.S , TCS-Bangalore
> > > 163 A. Krishna Kumar, TCS-Chennai
> > > 164 Rahul Gupta, TCS, Bangalore
> > > 165 Jayakrishnan K R, TCS , Bangalore
> > > 166 K.Balu , Satyam Computer services, Bangalore
> > > 167 P.K.Sakthivel, TCS,Chennai.
> > > 168 S.P.Karthik, HTSL,B'Lore
> > > 169 Deepak V.M , Honeywell, Bangalore.
> > > 170 Senthil kumar.S,Chennai.
> > > 171 Vinoth, Chennai
> > > 172 Sindhu Chander, Chennai
> > > 173 Kaivalya Prasad, Chennai
> > > 174 Amalthiya Prasad, VT, USA
> > > 175 Praveen Varghese Isaac, Muscat, Oman
> > > 176 Thomas P. Varghese.
> > > 177 Koshi Thomas, Mumbai
> > > 178 Ajit Dabholkar, Mumbai
> > > 179 Padmakar Rao, Mumbai
> > > 180 Ravindra Sarawate,NYK Mumbai,India
> > > 181 Pradip Upadhyaya, Mumbai, INDIA.
> > > 182 Bhadresh Bhatt , Mumbai . India.
> > > 183 Ajay Rathod , Mumbai India
> > > 184 Vivek Kotai, Mumbai , India
> > > 185 Arindam Datta, India
> > > 186 HOMI J. TREASURYVA LA, MUMBAI.
> > > 187 GOPAL SRINIVAS INDIA.
> > > 188 Sudhir Chandran, Mumbai, India
> > > 189 Shubha Chandran, Mumbai, India
> > > 190 V S. Pherwani, Mumbai, India
> > > 191 a rajendra, mumbai, india
> > > 192 Andrew Williams, Mumbai,India
> > > 193 Nimit Gulati, Mumbai, India
> > > 194 Srikanth.N , N.Delhi,India
> > > 195 Aravind N, N.Delhi
> > > 196 Shiwani Sikri, N.Delhi
> > > 197 Sanjiv Kumar Das, N. Delhi
> > > 198 Sachin Joshi, Kota rajasthan
> > > 199 Mayank Keshar wani, INDIA
> > > 200 Keshav Bapat, INDIA
> > > 201 Rahul Bhide, Mumbai,INDIA
> > > 202 Nikhil Thadani
> > > 203 Sandeep S. Agrawal
> > > 204 Ajay Kejriwal, Mumbai, India
> > > 205 Vivek Didwania, Mumbai, India
> > > 206 Sanjay Yadav, Mumbai, India
> > > 207 Gayatri Samant, Mumbai, India.
> > > 208 Rupendra Raj, Mumbai,India.
> > > 209 Michelle Suradkar, Mumbai
> > > 210 Ashwin Jayaram, Singapore
> > > 211 Dr. Satya Jayaram, Delhi, India
> > > 212 Pooja Jayaram, Mumbai , India
> > > 213 Archana Bhatti, India
> > > 214 Saumya Ravi, Toronto,Canada
> > > 215 Nimisha Rawat Vohra, Noida, India
> > > 216 Dhruv Hoon, New Delhi, India
> > > 217 Kavita Hoon, New Delhi India
> > > 218 Vikram Sikand, Pune India
> > > 219 Gobind Singh Gurgaon, India
> > > 220 Cmde J Postwalla (Retd)
> > > 221 Cmde FH Dubash, VSM (Retd)
> > > 222 Cmde DR Acharya, VSM (Retd)
> > > 223 Lt Cdr P arijat Sinha +919869041154
> > > 224 Gargi Sinha Roy +919869058247
> > > 225 Lt Cdr Susheel Menon, Jakarta, Indonesia
> > > 226 Lt Cdr Rahul Shankar, Mumbai
> > > 227 Lt Cdr H S Chahal and Mrs Preeti Chahal, Mauritius ,Ph-00230-6869771
> > > 228 Capt RB Pandit Pune
> > > 229 Cdr. T Venkataramani
> > > 230 Cdr JN Vivek Miranda
> > > 231 Joseph R Kishore - Chennai + 91 98400 94905
> > > 232 B. Barnabas Rex, Chennai +91 98400 30028
> > > 233 Sivaraman R, Chennai
> > > 234 Sivakumar N K , Chennai
> > > 235 Kritivasan.V, Chennai
> > > 236 Subha Vaidyanathan , Chennai
> > > 237 S Radhika , Chennai
> > > 238 Jagannathan S. Sattur.
> > > 239 Marinstine Fernando, Pune
> > > 240 Vijay Kumar R.P .,Pune
> > > 241 Vamsee Krishna G, Bangalore
> > > 242. Jyothi K, Bangalore
> > > 243. K arthik B, Bangalore
> > > 244. Vinutha T, Bangalore
> > > 245. Padmapriya Y. V , Bangalore, India.
> > > 246. C.S.S.RAJA BANGALORE
> > > 247. Suganyaa.S ,Chennai
> > > 248. Ravisankar.G, Chennai
> > > 249. Anju Mathews.K,Mysore
> > > 250. Abhishek Chadda; Mysore
> > > 251. Ajaikumar. A, Mysore
> > > 252. Santhosh Chandran;Bangalore
> > > 253. Balakrishnan.K , Chennai
> > > 254. Brij Lal, Dari-Dharamsala, Himachal Pradesh
> > > 255. Amit Katoch, Palampur (HP). India
> > > 256. Tarun Kumar, Chandigarh (U.T.)
> > > 257. ROMESH RAINA, CHANDIGARH
> > > 258. NARENDRA KUMAR, BHOPAL
> > > 259. Sandeep Bansal, Panipat
> > > 260. AJAY SINGLA, PANIPAT
> > > 261. Puneet Abrol (Panipat, Haryana)
> > > 262. Aman Khurana,Punjab(India)
> > > 263. Sanjay Sharma, Delhi, India.
> > > 264. Dipankar Dasgupta, Delhi,India
> > > 265. Prachi Dubey, New Delhi, INDIA
> > > 266. Sameer Sharma, New Delhi, INDIA
> > > 267. Subhash Chandra, New Delhi, India
> > > 268. Dinesh Kumar, New Delhi, India
> > > 269. Siddharth Khosla, New Delhi, India
> > > 270. Subhash Rathee, Rohtak, Haryana, India
> > > 271. Rishi Aggarwal,Delhi,India
> > > 272. Amit Garg,TX, US
> > > 273. Ashutosh Rastogi Texas,USA
> > > 274. Anjana Rastogi Texas , USA
> > > 275. Sonal Gupta, New Delhi, India
> > > 276. Rohit Sharma, New Delhi,India
> > > 277. Nikhil Salvi, Mumbai, India
> > > 278. Suraj Komnak, Mumbai, India.
> > > 279. Raman Saroya, Mumbai, India
> > > 280. Gurmanjot Kaur Baines, Punjab, India.
> > > 281. Tejpreet Singh Dulat, Punjab, India
> > > 282. Hardeep Singh Kamboj,Punjab,India
> > > 283. Harpreet Dheendsa,Brampton,Canada
> > > 284. Suninder deep,chandigarh india
> > > 285. Vishwas Thakur,Oviedo,Florida,USA
> > > 286. Varun Sodhi,Gurgaon,Haryana,India
> > > 287. Priti Chawla,Jalandhar, Punjab, India
> > > 289. Navneet Sharma, Pune
> > > 290. Nitesh Kumar, Pune
> > > 291. Sumit Kumar, KPIT Cummins Infosystems Ltd., Pune, India
> > > 292. Ninad Deo KPITCUMMINS Infosystems Ltd., Pune, India
> > > 293. Abhay Gomarkar
> > > 294. Neha Raste
> > > 295. Tejas Vaidya Pune , India.
> > > 296. Poonam Jeevan, Pune
> > > 297. Gaurav Dhawan, pune
> > > 298. Joyjit Bhattacharya , New Delhi, India
> > > 299. Manoj Verma, G urgaon, BHARAT
> > > 300. Anoop Kumar Rawat, Noida, India
> > > 301. Shovick Bhattacharya, Noida, India
> > > 302. Rajesh Kumar Singh, Noida, India
> > > 303. Hardeep Singh, Gzb, India
> > > 304. Vikas Chaudhary, Gzb, India
> > > 305. Capt Girish Kumar Gandhi, India
> > > 306 Gaurav Narang, Delhi, India
> > > 307 Arvinder Singh, Delhi, India
> > > 308. Jitender Singh, Delhi, India
> > > 309. Arvind Gupta, Ahmedabad, India.
> > > 310. Amritpal Singh -- Nerul, Navi Mumbai
> > > 311. Kavita Mohan, Mumbai - India
> > > 312. Mohan Sahasranaman, Mumbai - India
> > > 313. Ratna Mukundan, Mumbai - India
> > > 314. K Mukundan, Mumbai- India
> > > 315. Apurva Parekh, Mumbai, India.
> > > 316. Pooja A Singh, Mumbai, India.
> > > 317. Capt. Harrsharanjit Singh, Mumbai, India.
> > > 318. Naina Kapur,Mumbai India
> > > 319.Amandeep Singh, Mumbai, INDIA
> > > 320. M.K.Karunakaran , Mumbai, INDIA
> > > 321. Shenthil Elango, Trichy, INDIA.
> > > 322.C.V.S.Bharadwaj , Hyderabad, INDIA.
> > > 323. Srinivas A, Bangalore, India
> > > 324 sunil kelahatti , Bangalore, India< BR>325
> > > Kavyashree, Bangalore, India
> > > 326 Divakar B.S., Bangalore, India
> > > 327 Madhusudhana Rao.D Bangalore INDIA.
> > > 328. PaniBhushana Chary.K.R
> > > 329. Vijay Kumar K, V Bangalore
> > > 330. Latha G.Nekar, Bangalore, India.
> > > 331.Arun Rao,India
> > > 332.Ramya P, Bangalore,India
> > > 333.V. Arvind Kumar, Delhi, India
> > > 334. Anil R. Jain
> > > 335. Tejaswi S.Shinde.
> > > 336. Ashwini Naik, Mumbai, India
> > > 337.Pankaj Durgapal,Noida,India
> > > 338.RAJAT DUBEY,GURGAON,INDIA
> > > 339.Manasi Gupta,Faridabad,India
> > > 340. Salil Suri, Bangalore, India
> > > 341.Zubin George
> > > 342.Prerana tiwari
> > > 343.Pranjal jain
> > > 344. Swati Rawal
> > > 345. Amanpreet ,gurgaon
> > > 346.Sumeer GArgi,Gurgaon
> > > 347.chirag sharma
> > > 348. Abhishek Goel
> > > 349. Bharath Ramesh
> > > 350.Kamal Mittal(Noida,India)
> > > 351. Arun Sharma , Noida India
> > > 352.Maneesh Sharma,Chandigarh
> > > 353.Abhinav Pundir,Chandigarh
> > > 354.Sanket Tomar,Hamirpur,india
> > > 355. Madhu Madhav Singh,Hamirpur,India
> > > 366. Praveen B.R ,Hamirpur ,India
> > > 367. Lokesh Nyati, Hamirpur, India
> > > 368. Abhishek Nyati, Mumbai, India
> > > 369.G.S.Vimal, jaipur,india
> > > 370.VINAYAK PRABHU,jaipur.india
> > > 371.abdullah siddique jaipur .india
> > > 372.Ashwath Ravi,Jaipur,India
> > > 373.Karthik C, Bangalore
> > > 374.Raghu.P , Bangalore
> > > 375.Cleo Pinto, Mangalore
> > > 376.Laxmi Prasad,Bangalore
> > > 377.Nikhil Komawar,Nagpur.
> > > 378.Shruti A Deshpande,Nagpur
> > > 379.Mohit Shukla,Kanpur
> > > 380 ayush gupta, kanpur
> > > 381 Shreshtha Singh Bhadouria,Kanpur
> > > 382 Tanushree Bansal, Kanpur
> > > 383 shipra gupta.kanpur
> > > 384 ela singhal,kanpur
> > > 394 rohit sharma,lucknow
> > > 395 shashank verma,noida,inida
> > > 396 smita mohan. noida
> > > 397 Hitesh Sharma, Delhi
> > > 398 Anurag Dhankhar,Delhi
> > > 399 Arvind Mukundan, Delhi
> > > 400 Rajat Panwar,Delhi
> > > 401 Prashant sharma,Delhi
> > > 402 Neha Mehak,jammu
> > > 402 Sahil Sethi,Abohar
> > > 403 Pooja Singh,bhopal
> > > 404 toshi sharma, bhopal
> > > 405 nivesh modi,ahmedabad
> > > 406 Nahush Barad,Ahmedabad
> > > 407 Dr. Nikhil Mahajan(Ahmedabad)
> > > 408 Snigdha Kumar, Ahmedabad.
> > > 409 parth srivastava,noida
> > > 500 mayank sharma
> > > 501 Capt Vivek Yadav
> > > 502 capt sandeep srivastava
> > > 503 Capt JBS Judge
> > > 504 Cheenu Mehrotra, Kolkata
> > > 505 Rajeev Shekhawat,Mumbai
> > > 506 Varunima Bohara,Mumbai.
> > > 507 Ketan Dave,mumabi
> > > 508 E Srinivasan, TamilNadu
> > > 509 Nithya,TamilNadu
> > > 510 Benly, TamilNadu
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Psychic Surgery During Meditation...

2007-09-23T04:34:00.000+05:30

3 am. Tired and weary after being up most of the night, and knowing I have to be awake through the day as I am in a workshop, I put on Master's meditation. The Meditation on Twin Hearts is a very powerful meditation and for the first time, I lie down in shavasana and try to rest as I listen to Master's soothing voice. I am completely surrendered to Him.

I must have drifted off to sleep... and wake up with the intense feeling of light and heat and some sort of opening around my throat chakra. This is the chakra which has been so blocked for the last 10 days as I am dealing with issues in my marriage... and my health, and I could feel a cancer or something bad happening in my throat area...

4 am. I lie there, immobile and unable to move as I listen to the last few minutes of the meditation. How did I sleep like that and how did I wake up in perfect time?? I do not question things anymore as I firmly believe in the powers of the Universe...

The meditation ends and I lie in a daze wondering who was operating on my throat. My voice does not come out, I am trying to clear my throat, it feels more husky... I wander off to the kitchen to make tea.

Suddenly, the answers that come to me are this:
My life is perfect. Like always. Sometimes I look to my husband or kids loving me more, or displaying their love... and get angry if they do not... I have experienced the love of a beloved in my heart. I have 4 beautiful children... and a kind and honourable husband.

Thank you, Master!!

With love, devotion, and complete surrender,
Jhilmil

The net is closing on Dr. David Southall...................By Jack Frost

2007-09-22T04:47:00.000+05:30

The case concerning Dr. David Southall ( paediatrician) who has given evidence in a huge number of Family Court cases, will be hitting the newspapers, shortly. As a result of Dr. David Southall's evidence, a huge number of children have been taken into care and many given away to adoption.......The parents and children in these cases are looking for transparent justice. Something the Guligans are petrified of the implications; once the full details of Dr. David Southall's villainy are exposed.

Dr...Sometimes, professor Southall! 'enhanced' his CV and made claims about himself and his experience, in court, that have now been exposed by Mrs Penny Mellor. ALL his cases are now UNSAFE. He has claimed to be ' a Consultant Paediatrician'.....when the dates for given for obtaining this status, in his evidence, were incorrect.

There is also concern about his charity; Child Advocacy International ( CAI ), which then changed its name to Childhealth Advocacy International, but still using the abbreviation CAI ! All enquiries taken up with the authorities, do not support the information Dr. Southall provided to the court and the GMC !

This same Dr David Southall was the one who falsely accused Sally Clark and her husband.
As a result, he was found guilty of 'serious professional misconduct' by the GMC and banned from any child protection work, for 3 years. Now extended.

Newport police are now conducting an investigation into a number of complaints, from mothers who allege that their babies/children were included in medical experiments conducted by Dr. David Southal, without their consent, or after their consent had been forged/obtained fraudelently.

John Hemming MP( Birmingham Yaerdley ), in a speech to the House of Commons on 19 December 2003, referred to Dr. David Southall as ' Mengele'. ( See Hansard 19 December 2006) . I published the complete text of John Hemming MP's speech in my book " The Gulag Of The Family Courts"....Page 307-311

I have now received a copy of an old e-mail ( below), sent by Penny Mellor, to the police. This is now stirring other concerns and it is expected that this will feature in the news, soon.

...........................................................

From: dare to care
To: Gregory, John R (CCS)

Cc: Manchester Police ; commissioner@met.police.uk ; Howe Freddie ; LYELLN@parliament.uk ; HOME OFFICE ; brian@brianmorgan.co.uk
Sent: Friday, July 14, 2000 10:55 AM
Subject: Deputy Chief Constable Staffordshire Police David Swift

Dear Mr Gregory,

I am sending you by fax correspondence in relation to my complaint against David Swift. In a letter dated 18th August 1999 from Mr Swift to myself he states that there are only two complaints, this is incorrect, long before I was arrested on the 29th April, DS Durbar questioned and restrained my children without consent or authority, that was the original complaint, that has been totally ignored although he alludes to it on the last page under "(b) without giving the date.

Secondly in paragraph 4 he states "I note that during the interview you spoke on behalf of others who you claim to have personal knowledge or experience of wrong doing and whom you undertook to have contact us. None of the individuals have come forward and at your request we did not contact them" That is an out and out lie. Sharon Payne, Janet Davis and Nicky McCoombe all came forward and were told to go away by DS Bufton and had Mr Swift listened to the tapes of my interview with DI Denning and DS Bufton rather than read the transcript, he would have heard the exact opposite.

It was Staffordshire Police who stated they could NOT approach parents, not at my request, at their say so. I maintain that because of Mr Swifts failure to immediately instigate a thorough investigation into allegations of collusion between David Southall and Child Protection in both the police and social services, that I was arrested and charged in order to silence me, that my children were harrassed in order to silence me, that I was unlawfully held and subjected to police harassment in order to silence me and ultimately that the charges bought against me are a tool to prevent any internal investigation into police and social services involvement in the making of false allegations of MSbP with David Southall.

Repeatedly Staffordshire Police have refused to take evidence of perjury, perverting the course of justice, assault and in my opinion the manslaughter of babies during clinical trials at North Staffordshire hospital. The day I walked into Staffordshire Police Station and saw Staffordshire Child protection Officers, that date being 4th Feb 1999 long before I was implicated in anything in relation to what I am charged with, with a copy of a police statement made by David Southall in relation to a mother Donna Glover, who had been covertly videoed, a statement that had been buried with a confidentiality order by the High Courts, a statement that was never ever supposed to see the light of day, was the day that my fate was sealed, I had to be closed down, for statement is the evidence that police and social services covered up for doctors.

The breaking of Jordan Glovers arm in two places and the shaking of a baby during CVS without the intervention by four doctors despite being told that this particular surveillance was not sanctioned by social services because of the risk to the child, is the most damning piece of evidence against David Southall, it proves beyond a doubt that the safety of children has never been uppermost in his mind, it was all research and the end justified the means, over the years he had his own "personal" child protection team that were willing to go along with whatever he said and could actually never speak out against him, because in that one incident where Jordan was systematically abused over and over again without intervention, they had all implicated themselves.

David Swift could have conducted a thorough investigation he chose not to, therefore he is implicated, he has either lied to me in writing or allowed officers to lie to him without checking the facts and that is totally unacceptable, my children were abused by Staffordshire child protection and that is something I will not tolerate. David Southall, Martin Samuels, Carl Bose and John Hewertson are guilty of Criminal Negligence. Staffordshire child protection police officers are guilty of conspiring to pervert the course of justice and despite the best efforts of the police and David Southall, I will not remain silent about child abuse, no matter what is done to me, I will not remain silent.

Penny Mellor

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Best wishes,

Jack

Beverley Beech wrote:
Dear Trevor they have not invited me. Yours, Beverley

----- Original Message -----
From: "trevor jones"
To: "Beverley Beech" ;
; "Rioch Edwards-Brown" ; "'Roy
Everett'" ; "jack frost" ;
"Margaret Gardener" ;
; "jan loxley-blount" ;

Sent: Saturday, September 15, 2007 7:48 PM
Subject: House of Commons Meeting

>I have been invited to a meeting at the House of
> Commons on Oct 9 to meet with Lord Justice Thorpe and
> other members of the Family Justice Council in order
> to voice my experience of the family justice system.
>
> Has anyone else been invited to the meeting (and if
> not why not)? - the only other invited person I know
> is Lucy Cohen from JUMP.
>
> Regards
>
> Trevor
>
>
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