Beautiful Love

I Am Free to Run

2010-03-20T17:03:00.001-05:00

Don't seek, don't search, don't ask, don't knock, don't demand - relax. If you relax, it is there. If you relax, God shows you the way.

God is good. And has a huge plan for my life :) I'm really excited. Everything for this summer will come together and work out. Time to hand my worries over to Him and start living. And telling others how great He is. And praying for them. And being a reflection of Christ.

Forgiven

2010-03-13T11:30:00.002-06:00

Forgive me now cause I
Have been unfaithful
Don’t ask me why cause I don’t know

So many times I’ve tried
But was unable
But this heart belongs to You alone

Now I’m in our secret place
Alone in Your embrace
Where all my wrongs have been erased
You have forgiven

All the promises and lies
All the times I compromise
All the times You were denied
You have forgiven

Forgive me I’m ashamed
I’ve loved another
I can’t explain cause I don’t know
No one can take Your place
And there is no other
Forever Yours and Yours alone

Now I’m in our secret place
Alone in Your embrace
Where all my wrongs have been erased
You have forgiven

All the promises and lies
All the times I compromise
All the times You were denied
You have forgiven

Take me to our secret place
(We’ll leave the world away)
I get down on my knees
Feel Your love wash over me
There will never be another
You’re the only one forever
And You know I’m Yours alone

--i love it, skillet

Blessed Be Your Name

2010-03-08T21:16:00.001-06:00

Sooo... my friends are the absolute best. Just saying :)

And my boyfriend blows me away as well.

And my mom's amazing.. and my brother... and MY GOD.

I'm so blessed.

When There Was Me and You

2010-03-08T16:47:00.003-06:00

It's so much harder when it's you. I realize that now. Everybody else's opinions thrown at you, and trying to find your own, listen to God, not upset everyone around you, and try to enjoy it along the way. I respect my friends' opinions and will take them into account. But right now I'm just trying to find mine and God's. Where He stands on the matter. Because that's most important. Him being okay with it. I'm so thankful for this great guy that He's put into my life, and I'm trying so hard to honor Him in this relationship.
I want so badly for God to work through me and do amazing things in my life and the lives of others. I want so badly to help portray these amazing works for other people. He loves me so much, and I just pray that I can rightfully return His love. I truly believe that my relationship is good... it's just the matter of keeping God number one.
Dear God, please let me be fair to You, and me, and everyone else.
Love, your try-to-be faithful servant.

2010-03-06T21:46:00.000-06:00

I'm. sick. of. drama.

Slow Down

2010-02-27T23:47:00.001-06:00

I'm trying to block out the world's opinion and focus on mine and God's.

Rediscover You

2010-02-25T21:11:00.001-06:00

I was starting to worry. And spiral. I'm so unworthy of Him. And doubting. I was thinking exactly how the devil wanted me to.

But then I realized, that God is so gracious that I'm able to rediscover Him :) all the time. He's never going to let me go, and I'm not letting Him go either.

God Bless The Broken Road

2010-02-22T17:39:00.001-06:00

The road there is rough and broken.

But when you get to where you're supposed to be... it's beautiful :)

When You're Fifteen and Somebody Tells You They Love You, You're Gonna Believe Them

2010-02-21T13:02:00.005-06:00

So. I totally always respect my friends' opinions, and for sure want to hear them and have them keep me in line. But I think it's important to form your own opinions that you have consulted God upon. I get confused sometimes, and don't always go to Him about everything I should. But I'm working on it.

And I'm going to date this totally great guy. And I think God put him in my life for a reason, and that it will all be for the best, as long as my focus is on praising God with everything about me, including my relationship.

God's amazing. It saddens me how I forget sometimes.

Maybe it's part of my test. Maybe this will strengthen my relationship with God even more. I love Jesus. Can I form a relationship with someone that's focused on Him too? I think so. But I need His help. Lord Jesus, You're my strength.

I Think I'm Falling For You

2010-02-17T17:18:00.002-06:00

Wow. This has been a crazy past week. Time for a summary.

1) Snowball was amazing! I loooooove being a group leader! I love talking to people, loving them, having fun with them, and being there to possibly change their lives. I had the best small group ever, they were all so respectful and so very open. I was extremely impressed and glad that they were able to trust me and share with me. I pray that Snowball really changed their lives and that they are able to talk to me or Lynne anytime they need support.

2) This totally amazing guy told me he loves me. And then I said it back. And then we had to talk about it, because I'm not ready to say that to anyone for a long time, even him, despite how much I like him. I'm so glad that he's the kind of guy that understands. I wonder how long it will take me to trust my future boyfriends and future husband completely. I'm so terrified of being hurt, but I think God's helping me get through it.

3) ahhhh! what up 4 days til his 16th birthday!

4) God's so good to me :)

Snowball!

2010-02-13T10:24:00.002-06:00

So I am so extremely excited for Snowball this weekend! Even if it is one of the most exhausting things I have ever been involved in. It's so much work to get ready, but it's going to be so amazing and sooo worth it!
Not only is it a ton of fun, but it can be true revival and rehabilitation for some of the people there. There will be people attending that are struggling with addictions, and I'm praying that whether they believe in God or not, that He will work in their hearts and help them make that step towards recovery. I am extremely excited to see the wonders He will perform :)

On a much smaller and not as important note, but something my mind's been focusing on a lot lately, 8 days until a certain someone turns 16! Okay, there I got it out. I'm good now =P

You Make All Things Work Together For My Good

2010-02-09T16:26:00.002-06:00

It could have been so much worse.

I'm so extremely lucky. And thankful.

I don't know what the exact reasoning for it is now, but I will somewhere down the road. His love never fails.

There's Gonna Be One Less Lonely Girl

2010-02-07T13:02:00.001-06:00

I am so completely thankful. I love just being around him. Sure, maybe I want to hold his hand. But he's respectful of me, and I'll be respectful of him. And I'm still just getting to know him anyway :)

But I'm really thankful that God is letting me have this amazing guy in my life. But God still needs to come first. Always.

2010-02-05T18:48:00.000-06:00

On this day of your life, Kaitlin, we believe God wants you to know ... that when the night feels very long, remember that a new day is just around the bend.
With each new day we are given new hope, new possibilities, new opportunities. Each new day is a miracle.

If I Could Write You A Letter

2010-02-01T18:51:00.003-06:00

Dear future husband,

I hope you had a great day today. I really wish I could talk to you sometimes and know who you are. But I know God has our relationship perfectly planned out, and I can't wait to see who He has designated to be my soulmate. I've been praying for you a lot lately, and I hope that you know the King and are living a life worthy of Him. I hope that you're living a life of purity and are waiting specially for me, just like I'm doing for you. I hope you plan to be the best dad that you possibly can, and promise me that you'll never ever let our kids down. I hope you know I love you, whether I've met you yet or not. I pray that you'll be able to build up my relationship in Christ and pick me up when I fall in this crazy life, just like I plan to do for you. Stay strong. I will wait for my beloved.

Love,
Kaitlin

2010-02-01T17:37:00.001-06:00

How sad. Our generation needs saving.

Jesus Washes The Crimson White as Snow

2010-01-30T14:58:00.002-06:00

I hate how people judge you according to who you hang out with. Sure, if you're with people that pull you down and influence you in the wrong ways, that's not good. But for people to judge you when you're influencing a broken person's life, that's not cool. Jesus dined with sinners, and talked to them, and hung out with them, and spread His Father's light to them. And people judged Him according to that, but that wasn't His fault. So yes, you should surround yourself with uplifting peers. But reach out to people, despite their scarlet letter.

I Don't Wanna Waste Another Minute Here

2010-01-29T16:11:00.001-06:00

And suddenly life rushes at you. I'm so excited. But I just have to remember Who comes first in my life.

Honey, Honey

2010-01-28T20:19:00.001-06:00

It's kind of like... really hard to focus on anything.

He makes me dizzy.

Your World Starts Over Again

2010-01-24T20:18:00.002-06:00

Whatever.

I love my life. I'm not perfect, but I'm working on being the best I can be.

You can lie to yourself all you want. I'll try my best to not let it bother me. I don't need the drama.

2010-01-21T21:12:00.002-06:00

Quite honestly, I miss you.

But people change. And move on.

growl

2010-01-19T20:37:00.001-06:00

I really need to work on getting rid of this PMS attitude. It's not very attractive. Or reflective of the King.

Open Your Eyes. Growth is Amazing.

2010-01-17T11:45:00.003-06:00

It's amazing looking back at 7th grade. I was a silly little girl, who thought I knew what love was and thought I knew of the great sacrifice made for my life. My life was filled with drama, I was fearful of change, and I was selfish.

Now I'm in 10th grade. I burn with the Greatest Love of All inside of me and try to give every day of my life to the King. I know that being in love takes time, energy, and maturity... that it doesn't just happen like that, and that it's a gift from God. I'd be kidding myself if I said I thought I had been in love. I've been obsessed, I've truly cared about someone, and thought that I'd never be able to let them go. But I haven't loved them as anything more than a brother in Christ or had a real relationship with them. Now I see how contagious drama is, and try to catch God instead. Now I embrace change, even though it's scary, God blesses me with so many amazing opportunities. Now I know my flaws and am working on being selfless. I am still doubtful of God sometimes, I'm so imperfect. But He saved me and I'm not letting go. I can't change the past, but I can change the future. And be a God girl. And change the world. And continue to grow up.

So You Want to Change the World... What Are You Waiting For?

2010-01-11T16:14:00.002-06:00

We can be used for huge causes. You truly can change the world... even as a teenager.

This is so cool: http://abcnews.go.com/video/playerIndex?id=2953597

What Faith Can Do

2010-01-11T16:00:00.003-06:00

Me: I don't know what to do...

Katherine: That's when you look up.

I wore my glasses today. And you know what, God thought I looked beautiful. I'm pretty sure Sam did too :)

Because beauty, isn't defined by a number on a scale or how "perfect" you look. It's the kind of heart you have and how you let it shine. That's real beauty. Confidence and love, that's what I want to be clothed in.